...I cannot believe its been a YEAR. After June 25th time just stopped for me.
OMG - http://www.mjjcommunity.com/forum/showpost.php?p=1810137&postcount=2560
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All these memories coming back, I was so happy at that time, so, so happy. I can't believe it was just one year ago, how much can change in so little time, how much?I can't believe this... I remember it so clearly... I was so, so, so exited, I couldn't stop screaming, my mum had to calm me down a little bit. I remember I called my father to promise me that if it was true, he was going to buy me a flight to London and that I would buy my tickets. I remember talking it with a friend about going together...
I would wish he would have cancel the whole damn This Is It idea and move to a nice & quiet area with his kids and live happily ever after. 
then the caos...everyone on www.michaeljacksonlive.com to register...I will never ever forget!Soo sad guys..I remember that here in Italy all the fans helped each other translating over and over for buying the tickets on Ticketmaster.. I remember the day of the conference..I received a phone call and I could not watch it live!
Same in germany. I remember that a fan called me and I explained ticketmaster to him step by step, that he need to register first and everything will work much better than.
I remember watching the press conference on http://www.michaeljacksonlive.com and on another window on my PC I watched the Live stream of CNN. Michael was so late and I was sitting in front of my PC waiting for the lil sec where Michael leaves the Lanesborough and gets into his car.
I still remember I missed in school because I NEEDED to buy tickets, I was so happy to get my presale code that I needed to use the chance. I was so nervous and the presale should have started at 8 am (german time). So I was sitting there and I was curious and checked Ticketmaster about 7.40, just to see if MAYBE I could alread buy tickets. And there were already for sale. My hands were shaking, I was nervous and excited. I even bought 2 tickets for 12 July for 2 differents seats because I forgot I already bought tickets for that day LOL I was soooo nervous. I was so lucky, I only had to wait for about 2-3 minutes in the TM queue, because I was too early and I had so cool seats
:heart:Oh manTomorrow will be exactly one year since the news broke about the press conference. I remember because March 3rd is my birthday and I was having a really lousy day until I found out on the news that MJ was coming to London to make a big announcement. It turned the day around and I was so happy. I remember saying to my wife "this is the best birthday present anyone could give me."
And now here we are a year later and so much has changed.
, why things ended so wrong.... cant believe this For me too. Someone mentioned last summer on TV last night and I thought... there was a summer in 2009? I don't remember sunshine or whether it was too hot or not. All I know is I was more excited and thrilled and happy than I'd been for years and then... when summer came time stopped. I woke up so sad this morning, like my emotions drifted back to a state of months ago. Just lay there in bed crying for like two hours. OMG, the quote in the link above. I said at least 3 or 4 times last spring, "God, Michael, you're not going to die or something are you??" when I'd rewatch the TII press conference. :boohoo: Jesus, I just... would never have thought... I mean not for real... !!!!I cannot believe its been a YEAR. After June 25th time just stopped for me. OMG - http://www.mjjcommunity.com/forum/showpost.php?p=1810137&postcount=2560 ...
I've been really trying not to be depressive, so sorry...
And now... now... the last time I ever saw Michael in person was in March of 1988 :boohoo: 22 years ago. God, it wasn't supposed to be like this...^ Oh :hug: Same for me. My husband is also a fan and this was to be the time when both of us, who LOVE Michael so much, would be there together. I met my husband because of Michael. And now we'd be there together, us and Michael. :heart: We had A1 row G, so not as good as yours, but still quite close. I remember how we'd stand on each end of the house and say, "Can you still see my eyes from there? Whoo-hoo! Imagine! OMG, imagine!!!! Michael will be THAT close!" We were so excited. Beyond anything I was just excited to send Michael all that LOVE, to show him how much we still LOVED him and always will. After all the crap from the previous years, I wanted to bathe him in sheer LOVE. I played it over and over in my head, how it would feel to be there with all the thousands LOVING him. MJ concerts were always global LOVE festivals
). I wanted to visit all concerts in the same shirt to make my message clear, yellow shirt, green letter, front : F*ck the Press, Back: Michael you're the best. I was so worried if I could walk around with the F*ck word in London. I wish I had that worry back I was supposed to see him tonight. It's now 18.30, the time that the doors would open. It would be my final concert, from the tickets that I bought. I need to thanks Katrz2000 who kept warning the members, that tm was selling tickets again. I got myself 2 extra tickets, because of her...one of them bought on June 24. I just feel heartbroken right now, I am crying as I am typing this now. Next to me is my concert ticket, I just cannot stop looking at it and wonder how it would have been...
I just feel sad this entire day, I just couldn't stop thinking ''Where and what would I be doing now at this very moment, if Mike was still here''. Instead of sitting in London and being excited about the concert, I am now sitting at home...
I will be wacthing TII around 20.00, I am just going to pretend that I am watching him in concert...I am just going to use my imagination and pretend that I am actually sitting in the O2 watching him. When I'm crying, I will just pretend that those are happy tears because I am watching him, instead of sadness..
This is just so cruel..and the thing is, that I still don't completely realize that he's gone. I just feel that the movie is some leaked rehearsal footage and that I am still going to see him in concert. I am scared to post on this board. When you are looking at your post, you can see that they 500 of your posts are saved up. Well with every new post that I make, one old one will get deleted. I still have a lot of posts from TII and with every new post that I make, I feel that I will drift away a little more from the memories. I just hate that. I am supposed to be sitting at the O2 right now, I am supposed to be with fans getting overly excited...I was going to see him again today.
My heart just hurts.
you made me cry :huggy: It hurts so much to think about these question... I can't tell how much I wish we could turn back time... as naive it might be... I want to turn back time 
I am so upset now...I think we were all thinking like that... how close we'll be, what we'll wear. I was going to design a hat/cap on CafePress or Zazzle for myself with something like "I :heart: U MJ!" because I thought a brand new white cap would 'glow' on my head there in the 7th row and he might see me, lol. :no:....I was freaking out how close I'll be to Michael, how good I'll see him and that he maybe sees me too. ........
I even had my "Tour-outfit". I 'designed' a shirt (which I unfortunately didn't print b/c I wanted to do 2-3 weeks before my first concert
Instead I ended up spending that weekend devastated, but at least with other fans (thank God) on the 29th for flash mobs, etc. :hug: I can't comprehend what's worse... to have not seen him for years or to have been at the press conference and have to get through the day this year. (I guess I have to say it's worse to have not seen him for years and also that you're lucky to have at least been there, although it's a special kind of pain, I'm sure.)I can't believe tomorrow will be a year since he gave his "TII" speech. It's been a year since I saw him in person. I was there and didn't know it would be the last...
i remember this time last year hearing that Michael wanted his fans to attend the PC.