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Goodnight Michael

I don't know if there's something wrong with me today but I've been all day depressed, every single thing made me cry, I feel lonely, empty. I'm missing Michael. My heart tells me that because I feel it broken inside. :cry: The pain can't heal. I thought I was finally getting through this until today came. I think my head is going to burst into little pieces because of the amount of questions that I've been asking myself. I've spent almost halve of the day just sitting down and hearing the silence, watching the greyness of the sky, it isn't shining anymore. Lord, bring him back, please... please.
To *Billie Jean*, BunnyHead, MJsBollywoodGirl7, Beccabubbles, Rockin., ALL of the fans who are suffering... I know what you're feeling... we aren't alone in this but it gets so hard sometimes. :cry:
 
Tin Angel said:
I don't know if there's something wrong with me today but I've been all day depressed, every single thing made me cry, I feel lonely, empty. I'm missing Michael. My heart tells me that because I feel it broken inside. :cry: The pain can't heal. I thought I was finally getting through this until today came. I think my head is going to burst into little pieces because of the amount of questions that I've been asking myself. I've spent almost halve of the day just sitting down and hearing the silence, watching the greyness of the sky, it isn't shining anymore. Lord, bring him back, please... please.
To *Billie Jean*, BunnyHead, MJsBollywoodGirl7, Beccabubbles, Rockin., ALL of the fans who are suffering... I know what you're feeling... we aren't alone in this but it gets so hard sometimes. :cry:
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Crying with you sweetie! Sending you hugs! I know how you feel. I'm in such pain. I've been feeling so sad more and more. I still cry everyday, I cant stop crying. The tears never seem to end. I miss him so much. And I love him more and more every day. I love him more than anything. My heart is truly broken. I lost the first and only love of my life. The pain and sorrow is just too great to put in words. It is unbelievable how sad. I'd give my life for him to come back..:weeping:
 
Michael, why did you leave this world so soon? I suppose those who are truly angels are the ones who are cruelly snatched away. I know you still had so much to offer this world, if only they had given you a chance. People show their true colours at times like this- and you know what? I've been hearing nothing but good things about you
 
Michael Jackson is alive in my heart and in my head.
I love him, I admire him, I love his work, I treasure his memory.
He has given me hope, happiness and pain. Today, for the first time in almost seven months, I was able to laugh again to see him on stage, doing his best. It was a bittersweet moment, but I know this is good. Tomorrow I'll be sad, angry, upset, whatever. But tonight, at least for a while, I had that feeling again.

He said: CAN YOU FEEL IT?? and I said... YES, I CAN!!!!

:clap: :clap: :clap: :clap:

I love Michael Jackson. There is no other like him. He IS unique. Present tense ALWAYS!!!!!!
 
Oh, PCR your optimism made me smile a bit. I came to this thread because I was so depressed today...thinking that people around me now can't understand me anymore. I can't talk to them because they'd think I'm not ok, that I'm overly obsessive and that I can't seem to realize it's been 7 months already. Now I ask you, are we supposed to ever "get over" the loss of someone we love dearly, deeply and enduring? Like a family member? Are u "weird" because you cry for your dead grandparents years after they left?
Anyway, I was at work an a tribute song, a sad sad song came on my ipod and it hit me again...the panic..:( the organic feeling inside my chest..the pain..I had to get up and go outside for a few minutes to shake it off..
I feel so alone in my real life now ...:( Michael was my light

I'm going to bed wit you in my thoughts Michael. Good night light
 
Goodnight Michael

I had fun being fascinating by your self intelligence

I'm currently reading "Dancing The Dream" and I'm enjoying your company.

Love u
 
Feeling a bit in pain tonight.. I keep listening to the song "We are here to change the world". I really want to inspire to help others and follow your mission. I feel as if the fans can truely do some incredible things when they are united, such as writing a Haiti song together. Michael you would be so proud of us, we really do love you!! I am trying to gain enough strength but my immune system is still very weak so I started to take vitamins. No matter what happens or what tommorow may bring. I love you forever angel. Goodnight Michael :love:
 
I had missed you so much today Michael. It was just earlier I was looking at the stars and the moon. As I was thinking of you and wonder if you knew about my passion that I have for astronomy. Because ever since the day you left us the moon has been a lot brighter than I could ever remember it being. And the stars seem a little bit brighter than I could remember them being. Especially Polaris and all of the other stars in Ursa Minor Constellation. But seeing those stars and the moon just tends to make me miss you even more. I so badly wish you could come back to us Michael. We miss you so extremely much. It really is like a parallel universe we are living in now. We should be living in another universe on another Earth. Still talking about those amazing concerts of yours. Instead of crying and feeling sad and depressed of how much we miss you and wanting you back just as badly. We just love you so very much Michael and we miss you just as much as we love you. So good night Michael sleep well and we will always love you more.
 
Michael I love you more than words could ever describe. More than I could ever make you understand or show. I have died with you and life will NEVER be the same without you. You saved me! You gave meaning to my life. I don't think I will ever be able to live again. I miss your angelic voice... your smile.. even your silly public pyjama wearing. I will never smile or laugh again with true happiness. I hope one day I will be in your presence once again. May the Angels protect you now it is your time to sleep and rest. Goodnight, my lovely one. I LOVE YOU!
 
Cris123 said:
Oh, PCR your optimism made me smile a bit. I came to this thread because I was so depressed today...thinking that people around me now can't understand me anymore. I can't talk to them because they'd think I'm not ok, that I'm overly obsessive and that I can't seem to realize it's been 7 months already. Now I ask you, are we supposed to ever "get over" the loss of someone we love dearly, deeply and enduring? Like a family member? Are u "weird" because you cry for your dead grandparents years after they left?
Anyway, I was at work an a tribute song, a sad sad song came on my ipod and it hit me again...the panic..:( the organic feeling inside my chest..the pain..I had to get up and go outside for a few minutes to shake it off..
I feel so alone in my real life now ...:( Michael was my light

I'm going to bed wit you in my thoughts Michael. Good night light
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Oh, dear friend, dear friend. I wish so much we could be closer just to hug in silence and just share this feeling of empiness and pain :hug: I am glad my post put a little smile on your face. This is so, so difficult to face. As you say, we have now come to the point where there is no more sympathy, but mainly questions. "What's wrong with you?", "He was but a singer, wasn't he? He was not a relative of yours, so why do you feel this so much?"; "are you serius? you can't be that sad for that man"... "He was great, but c'mon! Shouldn't you move on?"

etc
etc

The further we move from June, the less understanding. And to be honest, this is also difficult for me to understand. But I gave up trying to understand it, I just feel it and I know I am not crazy and that this pain is REAL. What can we do with real pain but to feel it? We are broken by this pain and yes, things are not getting that better :(

I just can think of your own pain, dear, and I hope you will find your way to cope with this in a better way. Yesterday was the first time for me of a great MJ time again... but now, as I expected, I am angry and sad and blue again. We love him. That is the true. Don't expect us to just forget and let go. We can't. I refuse to. Michael lives in our hearts.

I love you too, Cris. Please know that. Thanks all you have done for us during these months :hug:
 
Michael I had spent another day of really missing you. Even though I only cried over you a few times or so today. This afternoon I had slept good twice so I didn't have to think about you any more than I already was. I am listening to you right now. And I still find it hard to believe after all of these months that you are really gone. I just miss you so freaking much Michael and I still so badly wish you could come back to us. I really need to get some sleep right now my love. So good night my sweet angel and sleep eternally well. I forever love you more.
 
Michael, I miss you so much. I miss you more and more each second. It's been almost 7 months. And I haven't had a day where I smiled. All I do is cry. I've heard people saying that they are broken hearted. But I never thought I would literally feel my chest hurt so much, my heart ache this way...I have such chest pains and my eyes can't stop burning. With every day that passes, I realize how badly I miss you and want you back. I can't express how disappointed and depressed I've been since June 25th. I just couldn't believe what I was hearing, and I'm still in shock. If there was any way for me to bring you back, I'd do it in a heartbeat. I cry, I sit alone in my room, and I stare into the sky, wondering if you're up there staring back. I hope you are, I really hope you know of my existence. My love for you is never ending, and it won't matter what happens in my life. I know I will never love anyone to the extent that I love you. My tears fall, my heart is aching.. I miss you with every piece of heart I have left. I am really dying without you. I cry more every night... hoping that I will die, just to see your beautiful face again and give you a kiss, my love. My heart and soul left with you, but I hope you keep them for me when it's time for me to leave. Please take good care of yourself and stay safe. I pray for you and all your loved ones every single night. I love you with all my heart. Sleep well my beatiful angel xx
 
I feel really down this evening just thinking about all of this - probably why I came on this thread.

Yesterday was a wonderful day, getting together with so many like-minded people. But today, I feel really lonely and tearful and it feels like June all over again.

There are many days I can lose my head in the music and the forum and take great positivity from many things and then, every so often, I have this huge bump back down to earth when I am reminded that really, there is nothing left. How empty that feels.

Yesterday was a prime example of how you can feel the excitement Michael created in the happiness we all felt sharing the event. . . and then, when you walk around the exhibition you are reminded that he is not more - the memory books at the end make you cry, the costumes he once wore make you cry, the thermos flask at the end of the exhibition makes you cry. Then, ten minutes later you're in there dancing and singing and sharing with other fans. This whole thing is like a roller coaster of emotions and the speed has not let up since June - I lurch from one extreme emotion to the other.

I didn't really need to part of a group before but I really can't do this journey on my own.

What have we got if we haven't got one another?

:sad:
 
Today so many little things around me just seemed to remind me of you, Michael. And once again I didn't know if I should smile or cry...today I ended up crying.. :( This was one of those days when it was so extremely difficult to accept that you're no longer here with us.
I keep telling myself you are in a much better place right now, you are in eternal peace where nothing and no one can ever hurt you again. So am I just being selfish? Wishing I could somehow have you back? I hope you understand that sometimes the pain is just too much to bear. That pain has been there for so long already and at the moment I think the pain will be there for the rest of my life :cry:
Good night, sweetheart, sleep tight. See you...then...
 
Dianelesley said:
I didn't really need to part of a group before but I really can't do this journey on my own.

What have we got if we haven't got one another?

:sad:
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Nothing.. :hug:

I didn't think I needed groups or forums either, but after last June things have changed quite a bit.
It is so wonderful to have this place and all the amazing people here. And you were even lucky enough to spend yesterday with other fans :) I wish I could have been there too..
 
januska said:
Nothing.. :hug:

I didn't think I needed groups or forums either, but after last June things have changed quite a bit.
It is so wonderful to have this place and all the amazing people here. And you were even lucky enough to spend yesterday with other fans :) I wish I could have been there too..
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Yes - that was lovely! I am very grateful for that and for the friends I have made in the short time I have been here :hug:
 
Broken Heart

I wish I would have been with you this day
and hold your hand while you faded away.

I would have whispered in your ear
that I love you so deeply my dear.

I would have lain besides you tight
all day and night.

I would have watched you sleep
and kiss you on your cheek.

I would have wiped away all your tears
and take away your fears.

I would have told you to fight
cause you are my light.

I would have taken away all your sorrow
if I knew there would be no tomorrow.

But now it's too late
maybe it was fate.

It tore us apart
and caused a broken heart.
 
I love you Michael, so much. Words can't begin to describe how I feel without you. I haven't been able to stop crying since that damn June 25th. I keep praying this is all a bad dream but I am realising that it isn't. You left me without goodbye 7 months ago. It's hard to believe that I lived these 7 months without you. I miss you so much. I miss you every second of these days. I cry many tears but the tears can't erase the pain in my heart. And this pain is killing me slowly ... I am crying so so much right now. I can't breathe. I want to die and go with you! I love you so much. I really mean it when I say those words. Goodnight, my love... :weeping:
 
I never thought I would live to see this day, but here we are.
Month seven.
You left earlier... and we miss you so much.
It's going to be another long, dark, painful 25th... the 7th we face on our own :cry:
 
I had spent another day of really missing you Michael. I so badly wish you could come back to us. If you can't back to us then take us to the universe that you are alive and well in. So we can finally be happy again. I am just so really tired of always feeling the way I do anymore. I really do need for you to give me back my happiness. My life is really not the same anymore. Sleep is practically the only thing now that can give me some kind of real comfort now. Which I am going to try to go back to in a few minutes or so. Cause I am not missing you so much when I sleep. I just so badly wish I could sleep forever. And just spend an eternity with you. Thats what I want more than anything else in the entire world. So goodnight my sweet eternal angel of L.:heart:.V.E. I forever love and miss you.
 
MJsBollywoodGirl7 said:
I had spent another day of really missing you Michael. I so badly wish you could come back to us. If you can't back to us then take us to the universe that you are alive and well in. So we can finally be happy again. I am just so really tired of always feeling the way I do anymore. I really do need for you to give me back my happiness. My life is really not the same anymore. Sleep is practically the only thing now that can give me some kind of real comfort now. Which I am going to try to go back to in a few minutes or so. Cause I am not missing you so much when I sleep. I just so badly wish I could sleep forever. And just spend an eternity with you. Thats what I want more than anything else in the entire world. So goodnight my sweet eternal angel of L.:heart:.V.E. I forever love and miss you.
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I understand MJsBollywoodGirl, thats what I always wish for too :cry: Sometimes I even find myself trying to talk to Michael and say please come back or take us with you because the pain is so much :cry: I just want it to be like it used to be. I had a dream last night that we were all waiting at a concert for Michael to come out and we were there just waiting. It really felt like it was real too until I got woken up :doh: :(
 
Sometimes hear you whisperin
No more pain
No worries will you ever see now baby
I'm so happy for my baby

Mike is fine now.
It's just all the rest of us missing him like crazy :cry:
 
Sweet dreams my love,
Seeing you lay on that soft bed,
Resting your body and mind,
After a long journey of trials,
My heart could only wish that you're safe,
forgetting all about the pains of your heart,
I can smile and thank all the angels above,
That they guided you into the never-ending serenity.
 
Seven months without you... I miss you so much.. Every month.. every week.. every day.. every hour.. every minute.. every second... I miss you my angel. I love you endlessly... :weeping:

 
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