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Goodnight Michael

Since you left...
happiness is no longer a feeling
but a distant dream

Since you left...
pain has become something to look forward to
no longer something to fear

Since you left...
I dread going to bed
because I know that when I wake up you still won't be mine

Since you left...
my thoughts of you aren't filled with smiles
but filled with tears

Since you left...
I have been wishing upon stars to have you back
even just to tell you I love you
 
*Billie Jean* said:
Since you left...
happiness is no longer a feeling
but a distant dream

Since you left...
pain has become something to look forward to
no longer something to fear

Since you left...
I dread going to bed
because I know that when I wake up you still won't be mine

Since you left...
my thoughts of you aren't filled with smiles
but filled with tears

Since you left...
I have been wishing upon stars to have you back
even just to tell you I love you
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Hi Billie Jean
How do you feel about me having a similar name to you?
I was thinking of changing my name..............I chose it as it has connections wiv me.and MJ...........I was just 16 yrs old when MJ did his groundbreaking performance at Mowtown............he did it on my 16th b day! :)
I'll stick with it for now but always think that you prob think of me as the ''other'' Billie Jean?:doh:
Hugs to you.
x
 
PCR said:
I missed Michael very much today. I was alone most of the day, while yesterday I spent all day cleaning my laptop and putting all files in the right place, backing up files, etc. I have so much about MJ :) But still... nothing at all. As days go by, memory fail from time to time. So I am relieve we have so much to remind us of him, but at the same time, it hurts so much to see him smiling, happy, healthy, full of life.

I search the web looking for more information, more videos, more news. But .. is there any use in doing that now that he is gone? I read the news, info about what they did to Michael, comments of fans asking for justice, while others like us cry for his death.

It's always the same. Ever since that dark day it is the same. What more can we expect? I just wonder if Michael ever knew or really understood how deep he had touched our lives. If he didn't know it, I wouldn't blame him at all: I didn't quite understand how important and how deep into my heart he was untill it was too late :cry: However, I am relieved I had the priviledge to enjoy his music, love, talent and passion during all my life.

Now... living without him around is something I never thought we will have to learn :(
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Me too. I never knew how much Michael meant to my life. Just knowing that he was alive and breathing the same air as me, meant soo much more than I or anyone else could ever imagine. Nothing can replace the feeling of knowing that Michael is here. It's unexplainable and irreplaceable.


PCR said:
This is so true. I have to be honest: I have a million reasons to be happy and two millions reasons to be greateful to God and to so many wonderful people around me. I know all that, but still, every time there is a beutiful sunset, I wish MJ was here to see it. Everytime I eat something good, I wish Michael could have eaten that too. A beutiful day, a stary night, the cool breeze of our Summer nights... fresh water, warm light of sun, sweets, Disney movies, good books, classical music... life... music... it all reminds me of Michael and that, I can't fully enjoy those wonderful moments.

Yes... Michael is everywhere. Always.
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Oh PCR you read into me so much! I feel the same way. Just the other day, The three stooges ,One of Michael's favorite shows, was on like a marathon. I felt so bad that Michael wasn't here on the other side of the world possibly watching it at the same time as myself.
Same thing happens when I watch something that I think Michael would have liked, like a movie or a song but he isn't here to see it/ didn't have a chance to see it.:(

LOL. and Everytime I eat KFC ...I think of Michael and it makes me smile to think that he loooooved KFC. I know it's just food but I feel so close to him when I eat there. And it makes me feel better in a sense.:wub:

Oh gosh I sound crazy but this is what my life's turned to w.o. Michael.:(

I'm basically living off of memories of the past. Often catch myself contemplating on things I did when Michael was with us. Everytime I find something I did or purchased or possessed before the 25th, I say that I had this or that or did this and that when Michael was alive...

I don't know how much longer I can last in this state. It's too much. I always thought Michael would live forever...Now I see I truly believed that.
 
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Billie_Jean09 said:
Hi Billie Jean
How do you feel about me having a similar name to you?
I was thinking of changing my name..............I chose it as it has connections wiv me.and MJ...........I was just 16 yrs old when MJ did his groundbreaking performance at Mowtown............he did it on my 16th b day! :)
I'll stick with it for now but always think that you prob think of me as the ''other'' Billie Jean?:doh:
Hugs to you.
x
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Oh no, please! I like it :yes:. And I love you, Billie! :heart:
 
I love you so much, Michael. And I wish you were here with me right now. I need to go and get some rest now, my love. I'll be thinking of you, and I hope you'll be in my dreams. I love you, goodnight.
 
*Billie Jean* said:
Oh no, please! I like it :yes:. And I love you, Billie! :heart:
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Thanks! :)

Love u too.

Even though I dont know you!

MJ sisters!!

2 Billie Jeans!! lol ..............guess there are more than just you and I eh?
That song had a huge impact and was so so and IS so so popular!!
hugs!
xxx
 
Night Mikey! Night everyone whos still on here!
Love you most!!
xxx
Right! Thats my last post!
For today................tonight! :)
Might finish up on twitter...............
xxx
 
I had miss you so much today Michael. I felt so extremely sad and depressed today. I still do now of course. And I will always be feeling that way until God gives you back to us. And I am still waiting for that day to happen. Cause I am so tired of feeling sad, miserable, and depressed all of the time. I was looking in the mirror earlier tonight and I really didn't recognized myself. When you were still with us I was always a happy person and I used to always make some kind of a joke about something. And I always had a reason to laugh at something. Now I don't do those things anymore. I am learning to take life far more seriously now. I so badly miss the way I used to be. My depression has gotten so bad now that I think I might have bipolar depression. Cause I do have some of the symptoms. And I simply don't even care anymore. I am just so sick and tired of living in a world without you in it now. Every single night I keep hoping I go to sleep and when I wake up I will be with you. And I can be the happy person I once was. Instead each time I wake up I am in my MJ room feeling just as miserable and sad as I was when I went to bed. I just hate that cause I am forced to face another horrible day without you in it. The only good thing about my depression is that it makes me feel tired all of the time. I like that because sleep brings comfort to me and it makes the day go by faster. Which is why I am going up to bed after I am done listening to Someone In The Dark and Scared Of The Moon. So goodnight my sweet eternal angel I eternally love and miss you.
 
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Hold my hand

Hold my hand
and walk me through
Teach me how
and what to do

Hold my hand
and pull me around
this obstacle I'm facing
upon the ground

Hold my hand
and find the light
If we're together,
we'll be alright

Hold my hand
and take me to
a place where I'm
allowed to love you
 
Michael.. It's been getting really bad for me lately, I'm tearing up as I am writing this, I am about to finally try to sleep but it's hard knowing I will just close my eyes and think of you..:*sigh* my point is, Michael, I miss you, so so so very much... It hurts. And this pain is killing me slowly ... I don't want to live anymore ..
 
*Billie Jean* said:
I'm miserable and sad. I feel like dead.. :(
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Come on girl...cheer urself up! ;)
I know it is hard and I know what u are going through. Of course I do because I'm a fan, too! :)
And not just a fan, I'm also one of the biggest fans ever, that's why I'm here together with y'all - the biggest fans from all around the world!
I'm also very sad and think about it often but I'm managin' to accept it, to go through this somehow and just live on... U should try this, too! ;)
We all are here to help u with this, ok? Whenever u need us! ;)
 
eStyle said:
Come on girl...cheer urself up! ;)
I know it is hard and I know what u are going through. Of course I do because I'm a fan, too! :)
And not just a fan, I'm also one of the biggest fans ever, that's why I'm here together with y'all - the biggest fans from all around the world!
I'm also very sad and think about it often but I'm managin' to accept it, to go through this somehow and just live on... U should try this, too! ;)
We all are here to help u with this, ok? Whenever u need us! ;)
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Thanks for your support. I really appreciate it. But I so badly want to die. Nothing in life seems fun anymore. I'm tired of trying...My life has lost all meaning. :depressed: :weeping:

Goodnight to you..
 
*Billie Jean* said:
Thanks for your support. I really appreciate it. But I so badly want to die. Nothing in life seems fun anymore. I'm tired of trying...My life has lost all meaning. :depressed: :weeping:

Goodnight to you..
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Ur welcome anytime! ;)

Hang in there and never give up! *hugs*

So u go to sleep? Alright, me, too! :)
Sleep well and keep ur head up! If u need us, we're there for u! ;)

Bye and good night, hun'!
 
MJJ7777 said:
Me too. I never knew how much Michael meant to my life. Just knowing that he was alive and breathing the same air as me, meant soo much more than I or anyone else could ever imagine. Nothing can replace the feeling of knowing that Michael is here. It's unexplainable and irreplaceable.
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My dear friend, thanks so much for your understanding. We certainly take the little things for granted, just to find out later those were the greatest.

:(
 
My eyes conceal such heartbreak
Tales of carnage now descend
So afraid and very broken
Heaven mocks me once again

Angel can't you hear me?
Are my tears just in vain?
If I end this hell right now
Will I see you once again?

Tell me can you see me?
I'm losing this twisted game
This life holds no more beauty
Yet so much loss and pain

Cradle me softly as I sleep
My angel I need you so
Past this grave I cannot see
These memories forever flow

I'm so sorry my lonely angel
I know I promised to try
Will you be here next to me?
As my life now passes by
 
Goodnight, my Angel. I love you so much. Just when I think I can't possibly love you anymore than I do, you do something to make me fall even deeper. You are beyond words. No one can ever come close to you. If there was a way, I'd give myself to bring you back. I love you.. forever more.
 
eStyle said:
Ur welcome anytime! ;)

Hang in there and never give up! *hugs*

So u go to sleep? Alright, me, too! :)
Sleep well and keep ur head up! If u need us, we're there for u! ;)

Bye and good night, hun'!
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Thank you dear...you're so caring and such a beautiful soul...God bless you. Love you xxxx
 
Michael I had spent another day of really missing you. I so badly wish you could come back to us. I know you wouldn't want me to feel sad, miserable and depressed all of the time. But I am and there is nothing I can really do about it. You were my happiness Michael and when you left us you took my happiness with you. So goodnight my sweet eternal angel. I will always love you forever and a day.
 
I was walking in a forest earlier today, thinking of nothing and everything at the same time.
When I looked around me, I saw trees covered with snow everywhere. Everything seemed to be so pure and wonderful. The world seemed to be a beautiful place.
Suddenly I had tears in my eyes, just couldn't help it.
The world was trying so hard to be a beautiful place, little did it know it will never be as beautiful as it used to be until last June changed everything.. :cry:
Michael, my dear angel, you are so very missed. You are so very needed here to make a brighter day with us. I love you.
 
Always and Forever

For you I'd make the world turn,
For you my heart will always yearn.
For you I'd give my life at will,
For you are the one who makes my heart stand still.

Without you, my life is dull,
Your smile warms my deepest soul.
Your laugh is like a thousand bells,
And when you laugh... my heart swells.

For every wave that finds the shore,
My heart loves you a thousand times more.
For every bird that sings it's song,
My love for you grows deep and strong.

Always and forever, I'll love you till I die,
And to you, my darling, I cannot lie.
For you, my heart, I'll always endeavor
To love you now, always... and forever.
 
I miss you everyday more and I wish you were here...I really need you, I need your shining smile, I need your voice softly whispering I love you more...

Promise me we'll always be
Walking the world together
Hand in hand where dreams never end
My star secret friend and me
Goodnight, my love...
 
Tired.
Broken.
Blue.
Sad.
Empty.

Choose anyone of those: that's me.
I am emotionally exhausted. This world... this world is crazy.
 
Michael it has been another horrible day of really missing you. I love and miss you so much now. That I so very badly wish I could be with you right now. The world really is such a sad and empty place without you here. Which is why I look so forward of going to sleep anymore. It is technically the only thing that gives me the kind of comfort that I need. Cause when I am awake I am missing you like beyond crazy. I so wish I could go to sleep forever. That way I will be with you now. Instead of being in this sad and empty world. So goodnight and sleep well my sweet eternal angel. I love and miss you more and more with each and every single passing day.
 
It hurts me to even come here, now im leaving crying, I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART, ALWAYS, goodnight my dear, lovely Michael
 
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