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Goodnight Michael

Just want you back

I miss you so bad, want you back so much.
Just once again I would love to feel
Your warm and tender touch.

It's been almost 7 months but it seem forever.
Just want you back here so we can be together.

You're not coming back, realizing took me a while.
Knowing I will never again get to see that smile.

It pains me so much facing this fact.
On my heart this has hit me with a deep impact.

In my heart you will forever be.
The memory of you will live in me endlessly.
 
Goodnight my lovely one.. Have a lovely peaceful night and I shall be back here tomorrow without fail. Hope you are totally at peace and blissfully unaware of the stupidity which continues even now when you are gone. I love you so much..
 
Been feeling so weak and in pain lately. Material things just do not matter to me anymore. I really miss you Michael. Goodnight sweet angel :cry:
 
Michael, you once said that you felt like the loneliest person on the planet. I truly hope with all my heart and soul that the warmth of our love lifts your soul and takes away any loneliness felt on this earth. We love you so much, words cannot express it. We miss you, if there is any way we could see your sweet smile, if there was any way we could be just see you again.....
I miss you, I love you.
 
Dear Michael,
today you have brought a smile to my face many times.
That's why I just wanted to thank you for the music. Thank you for everything.
I really saw today what a little L.O.V.E. and wonderful music can do. I feel so very happy and grateful to have you in my heart.
Goodnight, Angel.
 
Michael I had really miss you so much today. I know you wouldn't want me to be crying over you so much. And you would want me to be happy. But the day that you forever left us. A part of me forever went with you. And that part that went with you contain my happiness. My happiness is forever gone now. And now misery and sadness has taken my happiness place. I so very badly wish you could come back to us. Because I really miss being geniunely happy. Your song Stranger In Moscow I can so really relate to anymore. It best describes how my days have been. Ever since that really horrible day when you forever left us. I am going up to bed real soon. Sleep is the only other thing besides playing computer games that I could find some kind of comfort in. So goodnight my sweet eternal angel. I love and miss you so extremely much.
 
Nightmares Without you

I dread going to sleep
for each night
a new nightmare arises
they continue to worsen
they scare me
my fear grows
until my heart is pounding
the moment I close my eyes
please don't make me
face them alone
 
Goodnight, Michael. Sleep very well and peacefully unaware of any craziness going on in this world. If you're able to, please do something to comfort those who are feeling upset tonight- emotions are running high and I know of a few people here who really need some love and care right now. If there's anything you can do to ease their pain I think it would be greatly appreciated.
 
Never had the chance

I never got to say goodbye,
I never told you I was sorry,
I never confessed my feelings for you,
I never got to say, 'I love you'

There were always chances to say these things,
I was just too foolish, I was blind, unguided,
If I had just gone back in time, I'd have the chance,
But now is now, then was then.

The endless things I should have done,
Are trapped inside me, waiting to be released,
I'm bursting like a bag too full of things,
Because I was selfish, I took but never gave.

You were like my teddy bear,
I love you so much but you never knew,
Nothing would destroy my love for you,
Not even if death came and took me too.

I try not to cry when I think of you,
But it's like trying to stop a hurricane,
I think of you all the time,
It is as natural as breathing for me.

I want my soul to be released from this life,
I want to join you and hold you close,
I want to feel happiness again,
I want to remember that strange sensation.

I want to tell you how I feel,
I want to see your smile,
I want to hear your sweet laughter,
Which makes me so full of love.

I am tossed upon stormy seas,
I'm crashing against rocks but I don't care,
I'm bleeding, I'm dying, but I don't mind,
All I want to do is see you.

I call to the heavens just to hear your voice,
I see you in my eyes, but it's all illusions,
I run away and cry forever,
Cry until I meet you once more.
 
I had miss you so much today Michael. As I do every single day since that horrible day. The only times when I am not missing you is when I am asleep. I am always thinking and crying over you because I just miss and love you so extremely much. Which is why I am going up to bed now. Even though it is still kind of early here. Cause sleeping is the only time when I am not thinking or crying over you. Unless I have a dream about you. So goodnight my sweet eternal angel I forever love and miss you.
 
I love you, Michael. I love you as a woman loves a man. My heart will always belong to you.. I have kissed your face a thousand times but only in magazines and posters. I have wished you goodnight a thousand times but never in person. I have spoken to you a thousand times but never personally. And I'll wish you goodnight every night even if I lived a thousand years.

Goodnight, I love you more and more each day for now and all eternity!
 
Everyday I love you more

Everyday I love you more
Nothing but hundreds of calls
Bringing us together once more
Let this come true
Because the only thing I think of is you

I want to be closer to you
But I can't cause our love is forbidden
The love I want to share with you
Can only be shared through spirit
That shines above of you

When I look up into the skies
I swear I saw nothing but you
This love is forbidden
But all I want is just to be with you
 
Michael I really just hate having to spend day after day of really missing you. I just so badly wish you could come back to us. Especially for you give me back my happiness. Which you forever took from me on that horrible day. I miss being geniunely happy so much. And I so badly want to feel that way again. I don't want to be sad, miserable, and depressed all of the time now. I want to feel happy again. The exact same kind of happiness that I had once felt when you were still here with us. But it just really hurts knowing I can't ever really feel that way again. Which is why I am now going to do the only thing that I really look forward of doing anymore and that is sleeping. So goodnight my sweet eternal angel of L.:heart:.V.E. I forever love and miss you so very much.
 
Longing

My longing for you
is destroying me.
I find myself waking,
in the darkest shades of midnight.
The tears tear me up
as my heart starts to ache,
feel my body begin to shake,
for you, for you, for you.
Sometimes I even find it
hard to breathe.
Please save me.
I just can't accept you're gone
- and I'm so tired,
of longing.
 
Always On My Mind

I try to break away,
to find somebody new,
but all I can think about,
is how much I want you.

You gave me air to breathe,
and taught me how to cry.
And though I try to free myself,
you're always on my mind.

I want you, I want you,
I want to touch your skin.
To rest my head upon your shoulder,
as we see the dawn come in.
To lie beside you late at night,
and watch you as you sleep.
To be the one to hold you tight,
to be the one you keep.
 
Oh Michael... I love you so much! I want you back. I can't stop crying. Why are you gone? I need a happy dream about you to cheer me up... I'll never be able to accept that you're gone. I just can't. If I live to be 100 years old I'll still be crying for you :weeping: Goodnight my Love. I hope you're happy wherever you are. I love you xxx
 
Hi Billie Jean, how are you feeling today? I hope you feel a little better. I too have been broken since 25th June. I feel like my soul has lost its energy and love for life. I feel like the day Michael dies the sun stayed down, never to rise again, darkness fell upon my soul and dulled everything in my life. I miss him all the time. Sometimes I just feel numb like I'm going through the paces of life on autopilet and merely existing. I want to live again, to be truly happy. Sometimes I feel like I am too weak and that I love too much. I just can't help it though for Michael is different, his soul so beautiful it shone. Noone else has that energy and smile and love for the world - even after going through terrible things - that love for the world and all that's in it remained in his heart. I have gone through all the stages of grief but keep going backwards and forwards again. One minute denying it ever happened, the next angry, then hopelessly and immensely sad. Now I'm going through a numb feeling like a cloud where nothing feels clear, I think I'm a bit depressed. All I'm saying is I know how you feel. I knwo grief and its hard. I just wanted to say I hope you are feeling a little better and Michael is living in our souls and hearts, he lives through us and I just know that he loves us too, he really loves his fans. He will feel that love and his soul will heal from all the pain he suffered on earth and he will be free in the light of our love and God's love.
 
Suzie B said:
Hi Billie Jean, how are you feeling today? I hope you feel a little better. I too have been broken since 25th June. I feel like my soul has lost its energy and love for life. I feel like the day Michael dies the sun stayed down, never to rise again, darkness fell upon my soul and dulled everything in my life. I miss him all the time. Sometimes I just feel numb like I'm going through the paces of life on autopilet and merely existing. I want to live again, to be truly happy. Sometimes I feel like I am too weak and that I love too much. I just can't help it though for Michael is different, his soul so beautiful it shone. Noone else has that energy and smile and love for the world - even after going through terrible things - that love for the world and all that's in it remained in his heart. I have gone through all the stages of grief but keep going backwards and forwards again. One minute denying it ever happened, the next angry, then hopelessly and immensely sad. Now I'm going through a numb feeling like a cloud where nothing feels clear, I think I'm a bit depressed. All I'm saying is I know how you feel. I knwo grief and its hard. I just wanted to say I hope you are feeling a little better and Michael is living in our souls and hearts, he lives through us and I just know that he loves us too, he really loves his fans. He will feel that love and his soul will heal from all the pain he suffered on earth and he will be free in the light of our love and God's love.
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Same here, you just articulated that brilliantly.

I thought the worst was over, I thought I'd accepted it, but no.

I'm so sad recently :cry: .. I really didn't think I'd still be feeling this way. I didn't think there would be tears left. I think this happens everytime the anniversary draws close

Interesting you used the word broken. The day after he left us a friend called me and must have heard in my voice something was wrong.. he asked, I told him 'haven't you seen whats all over the news?' he said he was sorry about it.. I said I needed to go, and he told me ok, he'd speak later and he said I sounded... broken.

I am broken.

I know he wouldn't want this but I can't let it go.

The world doesn't feel right without Michael.. like Will.I.Am said.. 'I wouldn't be surprised if the world stopped spinning'.

I can't say goodbye, I don't want to.

Soon the children will have thier first birthdays without their daddy this year.. my heart is broken for them more than anything.

I've become more sensitive in general since Michael left and I hate going to sleep.. since I woke up to the news MJ had gone I wonder what horrible news I will wake up to next.
 
Suzie B said:
Hi Billie Jean, how are you feeling today? I hope you feel a little better. I too have been broken since 25th June. I feel like my soul has lost its energy and love for life. I feel like the day Michael dies the sun stayed down, never to rise again, darkness fell upon my soul and dulled everything in my life. I miss him all the time. Sometimes I just feel numb like I'm going through the paces of life on autopilet and merely existing. I want to live again, to be truly happy. Sometimes I feel like I am too weak and that I love too much. I just can't help it though for Michael is different, his soul so beautiful it shone. Noone else has that energy and smile and love for the world - even after going through terrible things - that love for the world and all that's in it remained in his heart. I have gone through all the stages of grief but keep going backwards and forwards again. One minute denying it ever happened, the next angry, then hopelessly and immensely sad. Now I'm going through a numb feeling like a cloud where nothing feels clear, I think I'm a bit depressed. All I'm saying is I know how you feel. I knwo grief and its hard. I just wanted to say I hope you are feeling a little better and Michael is living in our souls and hearts, he lives through us and I just know that he loves us too, he really loves his fans. He will feel that love and his soul will heal from all the pain he suffered on earth and he will be free in the light of our love and God's love.
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Basically the same way I've been feeling since that day. Like I lost blood - cause I did. The pain is still fresh in my mind, even though it has been several months. But today is a really bad day for me, yesterday was better. I was reading a positive thread about Michael and saw a beautiful picture of him in someone's siggy and I bursted out in tears again. I was like ''come back Michael, we need you! The children need you". :weeping: I wish I could hug him and tell him what a wonderful, unique and special person he is...

What the **** are we going to do without him? How do we all get through the rest of forever without him?! :weeping: I can't go through this every bloody day! Waking up and feeling like I've been shot in the stomach as soon as I remember! And then random moments of breaking down in tears at absolutely nothing. I don't know where to go to with my tears. I feel lost and numb. I try to be strong, not showing how I really feel inside. With Michael a part of me died but nobody knows....I'm so in despair! I can't stand this pain anymore..I'm always here alone, and I don't know what to do. Where's the sense in living in this way? I would really prefer to die... I want Michael desperately.. I love him and I need him so much. I'm going insane..
 
Michael, I want to tell you again what I was up to this morning and every morning. I woke up as usual very early. The time of the day that I most like is the dawn, from 4 till 6 a.m. This is a very pleasing and quiet time for me. There are no vehicles and pollution yet. People are still sleeping. I love to go out of the hose and feel the morning breeze. This is what we call it--dawn and dusk. Oh, I really love it! My mind is very peaceful. I will look at your pictures and kiss them, then I proceed out side and do some stretching and jogging. I look up in the sky and talk to you. Sadness is here, but my delight that I feel from loving you is tremendous. It lights up my world. I love you. I will do it until my life here ends, and I hope, I can see you there. I wish, that when this day come, I can go directly to you. I wish and really pray to God that I can be with you and it will be the most delightful feeling that my soul can have.

I need you, my love. I miss you, oh, so much.
 
Goodnight Michael - thank you for everything.
I owe it all to you.
I love you with all my heart.....forever.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
 
Angel

You were my angel
Send by faith
From far, faraway
You have shown me love
Forbidden joy

And
I loved you! I loved you!
I loved you! I loved you!

You were my angel
I fallen into your arms
And surrounded my heart
Sweetly and innocently
Night and day

And
I loved you! I loved you!
I loved you! I loved you!

You were my angel
The mirror of my love
Guided my way
To rise above the stars
To see heaven

And
I loved you! I loved you!
I loved you! I loved you!

You were my angel
But you kissed me goodbye
You had to go…
Fade away forever
Coz time has come…

And
I loved you! I loved you!
I loved you! I loved you!
 
Michael, my love... you took a piece of my heart with you. I will miss you forever and my life will never be the same. I'm still crying. I don't know how to cope, I love you so much. I wanna be where you are. I have no more strenght to struggle, I can't bare the pain anymore. My eyes are so puffy and tired from crying, but I know by tomorrow morning, they'll be filled with tears again..

Goodnight my Angel.. :weeping:
 
*Billie Jean* said:
Basically the same way I've been feeling since that day. Like I lost blood - cause I did. The pain is still fresh in my mind, even though it has been several months. But today is a really bad day for me, yesterday was better. I was reading a positive thread about Michael and saw a beautiful picture of him in someone's siggy and I bursted out in tears again. I was like ''come back Michael, we need you! The children need you". :weeping: I wish I could hug him and tell him what a wonderful, unique and special person he is...

What the **** are we going to do without him? How do we all get through the rest of forever without him?! :weeping: I can't go through this every bloody day! Waking up and feeling like I've been shot in the stomach as soon as I remember! And then random moments of breaking down in tears at absolutely nothing. I don't know where to go to with my tears. I feel lost and numb. I try to be strong, not showing how I really feel inside. With Michael a part of me died but nobody knows....I'm so in despair! I can't stand this pain anymore..I'm always here alone, and I don't know what to do. Where's the sense in living in this way? I would really prefer to die... I want Michael desperately.. I love him and I need him so much. I'm going insane..
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I feel the same as you do Billie Jean.


Michael I can't even begin to describe how much I still hate living in this world without you here. The world is such a very sad and very empty place without you here. And there really are no words in any language that can even begin to describe how much I really miss you. I really do feel like I am living in a parallel universe. But I so wish I was living in another universe where you are still alive and well. And we were talking about those amazing concerts of yours. So good night my sweet eternal angel. I will always forever and a day love you more.
 
Sorry this is the first time I've posted here

but I just need to get this out, I want to say I love you Michael
I always have and I always will, you were a gift from god.

I'm sorry if I didnt express my love the way I should have, I regret not seeing you the times you visited NYC, I regret not being there the way I should have been, but please know that I always loved you, but sometimes I feel like the love I had for you was not enough love to have for a rare angel.

It is so unfair that this corrupt and tainted world we live in lost a piece of the small hope we needed so badly, if I could trade places with you I would, this life seems so meaningless without you and I never felt this much pain in my life. My heart cries for you everyday Michael.

I cannot imagine this world without you in it, I feel like this is a bad dream that I need to wake up from.

I wish so bad that god would make an exception and bring you back here because I feel like this world is going to fall apart without you, but sadly I can't undo the damage.

Thank you for your intelligence, kindness, inner and outer beauty and your unconditional love to the world, no matter how bad people treated you it never phased your beauty.

Goodnight my friend
 
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