I cant stop watching the trailer over and over. I'm an emotional wreck right now, it hurts so much. 'It cuts like a knife', this right now is one of those moments when it really hits you hard, real hard. I still am in this state of denial, and seeing Michael up there performing looking in better shape than ever, better than the MSG concerts...it just tores me up. He was smiling, being the usual prankster like he is. I seriously believe that he was enjoying every second of it.
I'm just so angry, frustrated and sad right now. I don't know what to think. On one hand I somehow still feel like I am going to the fucking concert and that those snippets are just some leaked rehearsel footage. I wish that someone could slap me in the face, so I could come back to reality.
''Thats why I write these kind of songs. It gives some sense of awareness and awakening and hope to people.''
This is just so cruel...