Sometimes I have moments where I find myself wondering if I'm in a coma or something. Like in a everlasting dream, and I can't wake up... but just waiting to be woken up by someone or something, this is so terrible. But I know it's not a dream, but I'm in such denial at times... It doesn't seem real, and I don't care how long it has been.
Wounds are still fresh! Don't know how long it's going to feel like this.
i hate reading stuff like this. i just want things to stay as they are its easier to be in denial that way. thats why i wish everything was done at once. yet again the family and fans etc are gonna have to go through another media scrum and cameras and relive everything like it has only happened. it really doesnt get any easier. was at work at a kids event in a park 2day and they were playing mj. had to walk away from the sound so i couldnt hear it.
Well at least he's gonna have some company...
Please don't say the word "buried" :boohoo:
I can't take this pain anymore.
I can't believe he is actually gone...
Please God, please bring my sweet angle back... :boohoo:
ohdear, im sat here reading through this with tears in my eyes...
its making it all a bit too real.. i cant imagine it, i dont want to imagine it.
I just want him to be at rest and where his children can visit. Although I know his spirit is free and probably having a great time up there!!
but i still cant believe im even having to write about this stuff
Let's not forget Michael's grandmother also bury at Forest Lawn Cemetery . I hope Michael is bury next to his grandmother.
*sigh* Yeah... that is nice to think about... some place that is according to his plan. Performing at the shows he has worked so hard on and looked forward too. His children, family and the fans watching, having a wonderful time... where This Is It, didn't really mean it's an... I don't wanna say it, an end. I know it's not what it was meaning intentionally, but it's just so... yeah.I wish MJ lived in a parallel universe right now... Maybe his life there would be as it was supposed to be, without drugs, without allegations, without the media drama... a universe where the O2 concerts are taking place right now... *sigh*
Reality kicks in..
Sometimes I have moments where I find myself wondering if I'm in a coma or something. Like in a everlasting dream, and I can't wake up... but just waiting to be woken up by someone or something, this is so terrible. But I know it's not a dream, but I'm in such denial at times... It doesn't seem real, and I don't care how long it has been.
Wounds are still fresh! Don't know how long it's going to feel like this.
I feel you :better: this is supposed to get easier isn't it? but no it's not, not at the moment. I think i'm ok then i hear something or see something and it hits me that he has really gone and now this :no: still to unbearable sometimes, i know michaels body is just a shell now and his spirit is gone but it is still MICHAELS body and i don't want to think about him in the dark i just DON'T