There are some posts I will get back to, when time allows me..
But for now I want to post 2 poems I made. It came from my heart and I know the English and poetry isn't perfect (try it in a different language!)
I don't post these poems to prove something or to convince someone of my beliefs, but maybe it helps to understand why I'm so fanatic about this subject and why I am here.
~~~To Michael~~~
It took me some time to write down these words
Three weeks have past, since you’ve (sh)rocked my world
Tears fall down as I write these words
I really never felt such sadness and pain
Though we’ve never met, how is that to explain?
Thirty years have gone since I first heard you sing
I thought to myself: What a “Pretty Young Thing”
It will take me some time to enjoy your music again
Without mourning the loss of you, my dear friend
Some people accused you and did you harm
I stood up for you and thought it was wrong
A love of my life has gone away
Can’t stop thinking of you every “Brand new day”
My family noticed the tears I cried
And I’ve tried to explain them how I feel inside
The love for music and dance
That’s what you gave to me
You shined your light upon me, maybe not intentionally
But it enriched my life, for so many years
That is why I cry all these tears
To my children I hope I’ve passed this gift of yours on
So they will enjoy all kinds of music for the years to come
In “Childhood” you sang of Pirates and Kings
But in real life you also did fantastical things….
How much can anyone achieve?
You’ve saved many lives
In your lifetime, much too brief
I never was raised in a Christian way
But I hoped you’d wake up (like Jesus) and never, ever go away
Then you could feel the love that people have for you now
And you could give the world your greatest final “This is it” show
The wonderful memory of you will never be gone
Of Michael, my very special and “lovely one”.
~*~*Helma~*~*
(July, 2009)
~~~Dear Michael~~~
It’s already been a year now, since you went away
And still millions of fans think of you almost every day
You meant something special to each and everyone
Yes, you’ve changed many lives, that’s what you’ve done
I loved you with every inch of my child’s heart
Long even before my own real life would start
Your smile, your ways, your dancing, they were all I could see
Even though, of course, you were a stranger to me
And now that you’re gone and after all these years
I’ve gotten to know you through all of my tears
I fell for you again, but this time more intense
Probably understanding you better, if that makes some sense.
Much is written about you, your way of life, but mostly lies
And some so called “journalists” I really learned to despise
Actually, much that was printed never said anything about you
It was all about the $$$$, and rarely about the truth.
After one year of mourning you, I’ve just realized today
That in my mind is not the place my love for you should stay
Over the years my heart has grown very big and strong
I really think that is the best place where forever you belong
The following words you spoke to us…..many, many times before.
Now let me say these words to you sweet Michael: “I only love you more….”
Rest in piece forever Michael.
~*~*Helma~*~*
(June, 2010)
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And I want to close it. The only thing that is keeping me from that are the Cascio songs.