Sorry took longer to post. I used stupid Notepad in German and when I pasted the text here it was formatted all crazy and I had to fix it. Ok, please don't think I'm too nuts when you read below, lol. I know this is
long, but I wrote down
everything I experienced. I've been doing journey-like meditation stuff for some years, so maybe keep that in mind. (i.e. maybe I just have a too-vivid imagination, lolol)
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Ok, well that was interesting. Did I imagine that? Ok, here's what happened for me (I'm writing immediately afterwards, so I remember everything)...
I sat on the bed, door shut, light on low, listening to a a binaural beats theta meditation track. When I first closed my eyes the light seemed to get very bright then dim again, then bright, then dim. Huh? I opened my eyes. Sure enough, the darned lamp was flickering slowly like that! And it stopped right after I witnessed it doing this and didn't do it again. Weird.
So then I thought of as many of your screen names as I could remember and thought we all want to find each other. Then it was as if I was getting sucked ahead and downward through a dark, swirlytunnel/wormhole. I ended up in a cemetery at night. Weird. Just standing in the grass, tombstones around, at night. It was very Harry Potter-esque, etc. But I 'saw' (i.e. saw a vague personage with like the forum avatars associated somehow, lol) amygrace, then funkeyjay, then I think darlingdear, MJStarlight (?) and Tinkerbell (?) and then... a few others swooped in. I didn't catch all the names. We thought what an odd place to find ourselves, in this dark cemetery. At one point we saw/knew of Mrs Music, like she was peeking in somehow and we were like "oh! you joined us somehow anyway!"
We mentioned Brittany Murphy and that we were sad about this.
It was kind of like... ok,
what do we do now? We decided to wait a bit, in case some others would come. At one point I lost focus and the rest of you seemed to have walked a bit away. I caught back up. I wanted to try going somewhere else. I guess others did too. Someone wondered aloud if we could see Michael. I said I'd invited him to join us before I started, lol.
Things (when we thought of going somewhere else -- but no specific place) then got brighter and then I briefly saw a scene, like green grass, like it was the meadow with the tree I've seen before, but then it was green grass on the top of a high hill with some type of old monument on it (?) and blue sky. This went by very quickly and then I seemed to see the cafeteria from some of our dreams, lol. But then that faded away quickly as well, leaving nothing but whitness, like being in some non-descript whitish-lighted room, like a white empty space, no walls to speak of, just diffuse white light coming from everywhere (like 'the construct' in The Matrix, lol).
Someone said, soooo, are we going to ask for Michael? It felt kind of weird to do so. We were like, "Well, let's try!" and we all started saying, "Michael? Michael! Michael? Michael, we love you! Michael, can you talk?" lol. It reminded me of being outside his hotel or something, hoping for a glimpse from his window. We silly girls, you know.
Then... then...
Michael showed up! He sort of walked down and ahead toward us from out of the white light. He was wearing a red shirt and black pants and fedora, no sunglasses. He smiled and giggled, we all ran to him. Each of us hugged him one at a time, while the others crowded around, sort of like a big group hug with MJ in the middle, moving from one to the next of us. (I thought... oh come on, I'm just making this up, right? LOL But honestly it was one of the more vivid sights of him I've had in a meditation since early A, like ugust!) We all cried and smiled and hugged him. It was amazing.
Then he wanted us to sit down in a circle on the floor. I was about 2 or 3 people from him in the circle, to his right. I think later he moved to the center of the circle more and we stood up. Seemed like a bit of minor jealousy about who got to hold his hand in the circle, lol. Anyway, he told us thank you and that he knows how we feel and that we don't need to be sad, but he understands it's not easy. He thanked us for keeping love alive, that we need to keep bringing love into the world. Someone across from me (sorry, don't know who) mentioned major love prayer. He smiled and said "yes, I love that". And I said, "That's one thing, yeah" (meaning of the many things we can do, are doing, will do). He said he's always with us, we don't need to cry.
Someone asked about seeing sparkles and then Michael made sparkles with his fingers, lolol. So he could like snap sparkles into the air
We all laughed and thought COOL. He giggled at that too. Then I asked if the feeling I felt (the warmth, presence) was really him. He said, "sometimes, yes"
And reiterated that he's always 'around', we're not alone, spread love, heal the world ...not exact words, but general sentiment.
We moved toward him again, and each got another hug. I hugged him so tightly and he kissed me on the forehead and I kissed him along the bottom of his cheek, near his left ear :wub: Then I opened my eyes and saw my bedroom again, but felt kind of weird, like people were all around me. Then I thought, wait -- MJ's not left yet and I don't want to miss a moment of seeing him, lol! So I watched him, but it was all fading, as he hugged and kissed the rest of you. Then he waved bye to us and I opened my eyes and came here to write this!
So, now I feel a bit crazy.
