Merged: Psychics channel Michael

[mjbunny]

Oh, wanted to say that I've been feeling pretty emotional the last couple of days and had one of those periods of time last night when I was just questioning everything (including the amazing experience from July I just wrote about in my previous post)... like "is any of this real??? what if it's not real? Oh Michael... are you still there? Do you still exist? Oh, please tell me. ... Wait.. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry for still being so sad, I'm sorry for being needy... I'll probably be ok tomorrow... :boohoo:Just ignore me... I don't want to bother you. I'm so sorry... ... " ... that kind of thing :rolleyes2: Just kind of sad in general. I was doing ok, thinking about dreams I've had about him that were sad and I was impressed with myself that I could retell even the most heartwrenching post-June 25th dream without crying. Wow, breakthrough. But I guess then the reality of it all just came crashing down on me. So much for the no tears thing I can't believe this is reality. I can't believe April 12, 2009 to April 12, 2010. This can't be the real world :no: And why is it?????

Ok, not that I've sufficiently depressed everyone (sorry), I was dreaming this morning of Prince, Paris and Blanket. Quite vividly, but I can't remember all the situations. I saw them for quite some time. Maybe I was with them shopping or something? I can't remember. They were alright, nothing bad going on, so that was nice somehow :flowers:

 

[Mundy]

Awh mjbunny :wub:

I uploaded a few pics of my guitars. Here's one of the crystal I attached to my electric guitar:

 

[mjbunny]

^ Cool Maybe I should wear an amethyst on my head or something. Last night I was lying in bed once again thinking of a poem idea that I had been repeating over and over in the days just after June 25th. I was too destroyed to write anything then. All creativity just collapsed. But I kept saying the basic concept of it over and over whenever I thought Michael was near. It was trying to express to him that he's the most beautiful person I've ever seen, but that's not why I love him. His voice is like an angels' choir going right through to my soul, but that's not why I love him. On and on. It's like, this is why I like looking at you, watching you, listening to you, so on, but those things alone cannot make me LOVE someone. Anyway, so I was lying in bed last night and thought... maybe I could somehow put it into song, yeah! But after a while I fell asleep realizing that although I can make up hundreds of spontaneous dumb little tunes to amuse 5-year-olds with goofy lyrics and voices :lol:, ummm... a real song... that's something totally different. Hats off to you songwriters I couldn't even get a melody for a chorus or anything. Ah well. Maybe someday something will pop up, if there's an iota of talent that direction. If...

 

[darlingdear]

Whoa, creepy dream. I wonder what it represents. This is just something that popped into my head... medium representing someone who can bring you messages from somewhere deeper, like maybe the unconscious part of the self or the higher self. Saturday is the weekend, so kind of known as a day for fun or hanging at home as opposed to going to work (which is kinda silly since so many people actually work on Saturdays, but anyway, just going with symbolism). Dying... a transition, a change, letting go of the past... this will happen when you relax and just enjoy yourself like it's Saturday? Or maybe I'm totally wrong on that, lol.

Yeah I thought along these lines too. When I immediately woke up I was like what? I don't wanna die! I remember in the dream I began to text my bestfriend like omg I'm gonna die on Saturday. But once I got over it lol and fully woke up, I did a little snooping around and came to the same conclusions as you say here. A transition of some kind going to happen or something. It's interesting..I'll see what happens.

The part about feeling you've really met him... oh, I know! Yes, exactly the same for me. I'd felt him a few times in the couple of weeks after..., but on July 22nd I had this amazing meditation. I wasn't expecting to see Michael at all, so I was like :wild: . OMG, this was SO real. Sooo real. That conversation will be cherished forever :heart: And for like two days I was all giddy and even now when I talk about this I get all shy and smiley and giggly because it feels to my core that I truly Michael for the first time that night (in this life, at least, lol). Now granted, I'd imagined being with Michael many times (in so many situations, lol). I can imagine him now. But this was different!!! If some of these special moments have just been imagination, then wow... I should win some kind of special imagination award or something! And the 2009 Most Crazy-Vivid Imagination of a Loved One Award goes to... mjbunny!:number_1:
Oh Michael... dear Michael... :wub:

Oh, that is so sweet that you experienced something like that! I would love something like that :wub:

Oh, wanted to say that I've been feeling pretty emotional the last couple of days and had one of those periods of time last night when I was just questioning everything (including the amazing experience from July I just wrote about in my previous post)... like "is any of this real??? what if it's not real? Oh Michael... are you still there? Do you still exist? Oh, please tell me. ... Wait.. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry for still being so sad, I'm sorry for being needy... I'll probably be ok tomorrow... :boohoo:Just ignore me... I don't want to bother you. I'm so sorry... ... " ... that kind of thing :rolleyes2: Just kind of sad in general. I was doing ok, thinking about dreams I've had about him that were sad and I was impressed with myself that I could retell even the most heartwrenching post-June 25th dream without crying. Wow, breakthrough. But I guess then the reality of it all just came crashing down on me. So much for the no tears thing I can't believe this is reality. I can't believe April 12, 2009 to April 12, 2010. This can't be the real world :no: And why is it?????

Ok, not that I've sufficiently depressed everyone (sorry), I was dreaming this morning of Prince, Paris and Blanket. Quite vividly, but I can't remember all the situations. I saw them for quite some time. Maybe I was with them shopping or something? I can't remember. They were alright, nothing bad going on, so that was nice somehow :flowers:

I've been feeling the same, feeling numb etc. I had a little cry earlier (not major, just little tears) cos I just feel so I spoke to Michael like MJ please, I'm so sorry to keep bothering you, but I just miss you, can you hear me? Or am I just talking to the air? I asked him to check on *Billie Jean*, if he can, or any other spirits that are around. I said to him, Michael the one question I want answered, by anyone, if they can (or by you), is WHY you are not here? Is it all part of the masterplan? You saw things were better in the long run or something? I just wanna know what the deal is..you know?

And on the note of MJ3, I had a dream about them too the other night Nothing bad either.

 

[Mundy]

I couldn't even get a melody for a chorus or anything. Ah well. Maybe someday something will pop up, if there's an iota of talent that direction. If...

You can do it. Keep saying a couple of lines. The structure and accents of the sentences should be able to help you with a melody. If there's anything I can do I'd be happy to help you out . I'm sure you have talent in that area. You must have picked some up from Michael. It's there waiting for you to tap into


I changed my MJ calendar to April yesterday (finally) and there's a different feeling in my room. There's something about the picture, it makes me feel really calm, peaceful :wub:

 

[mjbunny]

I've been feeling the same, feeling numb etc. I had a little cry earlier (not major, just little tears) cos I just feel so I spoke to Michael like MJ please, I'm so sorry to keep bothering you, but I just miss you, can you hear me? Or am I just talking to the air? I asked him to check on *Billie Jean*, if he can, or any other spirits that are around. I said to him, Michael the one question I want answered, by anyone, if they can (or by you), is WHY you are not here? Is it all part of the masterplan? You saw things were better in the long run or something? I just wanna know what the deal is..you know?

Wow, cuz this was exactly the main jist of my crying earlier yesterday. Same thing. I would just think, "Michael.... WHY?" and burst into tears. "You should know now, right? Was it planned from the beginning??? Did it have to be that way? Oh, why?"

You can do it. Keep saying a couple of lines the structure and accents of the sentences should be able to help you with a melody. If there's anything I can do I'd be happy to help you out

Yeah, you say that :lol: So maybe I should actually write the words first. I don't know. I'll see if something comes to me ever or not.

iPodomancy moment just now... wandered over into the "Case" forum and was reading the TMZ articles thread rolleyes2: I know) and The Who 'Won't Get Fooled Again' played (the main topic could be quite related to TMZ/media. Otherwise, I love the lines "I tip my hat to the new constitution, take a vow for the new revolution" because I think of the revolution being LOVE and I take that vow, to the universe and to Michael :heart. When the Who song was over it went to 'Selling the Drama' by Live ("I've been here before... now we won't be raped, now we won't be scarred like that..."). Just seemed fitting, like same sentiment... won't get fooled, raped, scarred... eff off TMZ. Like that.

 

[mjbunny]

^ I don't know if this is right, but I was asking myself where she is and I could see the inside of a hospital. Hopefully she's going to be ok :angel:

 

[Bee]

You mentioned June 25th... MLP may be teaming up with another event for that day, but since it's all preliminary at this point I can't go into details. Just fyi. Might be something else to think about ... like right after MLP time.

Oooh that sounds great, you're making me curious! Keep us posted on that!

Mrs.Music - I will definately listen to your voice once my internet fixes :flowers: thank for sharing your talent in advance.
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I had a really cute dream last night, it was about MJ3.

Aww thanks! :huggy: Haha, cute dream you had there. Blanket with stuff in his mouth like toys?! Loool...I'm actually picturing that now. Funny stuff. I love how dreams can be so odd but at the same time 'normal'...it's like you can create a whole new reality and set standards you never could in real life. Me loves dreaming, haha.

Meditation this next weekend would be good for me. Also about the stargazing...yes I was going to bring that up as it got closer, would love to do that with you guys! I know there's probably gonna be all kinds of stuff like this going on that day... the MLP, moment of silence, light a candle, set off balloons...yadda yadda. And, there's always the time differences to take into consideration...some may be gazing at clouds rather than stars... but, I'd still like to try if anyone is up for it. Last years stargazing was really magical. We did on Michael's birthday... and we set a short playlist. :heart:

Okay that sounds great! Yeah I'm a bit early maybe, but thought we'd 'organize' stuff before anyone has plans already so we can keep it in mind already. I wasn't able to participate when you set up that stargazing last time, but it truly sounds amazing indeed. Would love to do that. :heart:

Mrs.Music, you have a beautiful voice, I really like it.:wub: Great diction! :yes:

Don't have much else to contribute apart from being drained from balancing work, renovating so we can move and writing a song. For some reason that song is just draining me. It comes out SO GOD DAMN SLOWLY, it's really torture. Don't know if any of you guys know that. Sometimes you work on something and it just has to come out quickly and other times it tortures you slowly and you agonize over it for what seems forever. This one is just pure torture but then I am obsessed by it. It's bittersweet agony to write this damn thing.

Thankyou so much. :huggy: Yeah I know what you mean, time and all that can be the biggest struggle...once you want something to happen fast it goes slow and once you want something to go slow it goes fast. Grr. Good luck with it!

oh I also wanted to mention I'm a bit worried about the member *Billie Jean* here who posted a note saying she went off to be with Michael. I know she has been struggling with severe depression for months and I hope those were just words. She hasnt logged back in yet. Please pray that she is ok. :angel:

Uh-oh...I know she's indeed been posting a lot of verrrry worrying stuff. Hope she's okay.

Oh, wanted to say that I've been feeling pretty emotional the last couple of days and had one of those periods of time last night when I was just questioning everything (including the amazing experience from July I just wrote about in my previous post)... like "is any of this real??? what if it's not real? Oh Michael... are you still there? Do you still exist? Oh, please tell me. ... Wait.. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry for still being so sad, I'm sorry for being needy... I'll probably be ok tomorrow... :boohoo:Just ignore me... I don't want to bother you. I'm so sorry... ... " ... that kind of thing :rolleyes2: Just kind of sad in general. I was doing ok, thinking about dreams I've had about him that were sad and I was impressed with myself that I could retell even the most heartwrenching post-June 25th dream without crying. Wow, breakthrough. But I guess then the reality of it all just came crashing down on me. So much for the no tears thing I can't believe this is reality. I can't believe April 12, 2009 to April 12, 2010. This can't be the real world :no: And why is it?????

Word.....to every word. I found myself questioning and asking such things a lot as well. Very confusing and frustrating, and it's especially hard to realize how time goes on and how the world evolves but without him. It's like...the futher I get, the more 'detached' I feel, as if I'm holding on to that rope to him and it gets weaker everyday. Like it slips out your hands. I'm so afraid to lose memories, to 'forget'. Even though I also know that's not true and that he's probably 'closer' than ever, but it does feel like it's all getting so...in the past. *sigh*

 

[mjbunny]

Oooh that sounds great, you're making me curious! Keep us posted on that!

You'll all be the first to know, lol.

Word.....to every word. I found myself questioning and asking such things a lot as well. Very confusing and frustrating, and it's especially hard to realize how time goes on and how the world evolves but without him. It's like...the futher I get, the more 'detached' I feel, as if I'm holding on to that rope to him and it gets weaker everyday. Like it slips out your hands. I'm so afraid to lose memories, to 'forget'. Even though I also know that's not true and that he's probably 'closer' than ever, but it does feel like it's all getting so...in the past. *sigh*

Oh boy do I understand that. It really troubled me back a couple of months ago too. You know how it feels different now? It's almost like we'll forget how it felt in years past. Sometimes I worry that I may struggle to recall exactly what it felt like... the excitement, the "OMG! Michael!!!!" kind of feeling from years ago when it felt like he'd be here for ages, when all these deeper levels of emotion and experience hadn't yet troubled and blessed us. My experience of Michael NOW is invariably different than my experience of him last year. That, of course, was different from my experiece of him in 1988... oh, we were young and innocent then. But in some ways it was the same... the obsession, the "omg, I'm going to see Michael... holy crap, I hope I don't do something stupid like faint!" And the hope that I would see him again. It's just a different feeling. And now... all these emotions. My GOD, all these emotions and layers of being and psychological tortures and finding dumb things to feel guilty about and absolve yourself of and all the conversations "with Michael" (maybe some of them for real?) in your mind... can I remember what 1997 really felt like? Can I fully recall what I was really feeling and thinking in 2003? :scratch:It's slipping away somehow. Not entirely, but somehow. And what will it feel like then in 10 years? I know I'll never foget all this pain, but will I remember 1995 for what it was really like without superimposing all my post-Jun25th ideas and feelings onto those memories??? A wise man once sang, "Do you remember the time when we fell in love?" I hope so. I want it pure, not with the past 9 1/2 months hanging over it, though. But I suppose that's life, huh? :mello:

 

[cyberjackson]

Does anyone else feel they dream about Michael either when they are not well/been crying over him/missing him alot? Or is it just me? Because I found I have.

I hope *Billie Jean* is ok. :angel:

:bugeyedOMG yes. The times when life has been horrible..MJ usually shows up. Except recently...I wish he would pop up again. Life has been so very difficult for me.

Praying for *Billie Jean*:angel:

 

[Bee]

@mjbunny: You know, that to me is so goddamn beautiful....all those years of admiring, it's like...some of us (if not most) have experienced so many era's, so many different feelings, so much stages of life, it's so amazing that we all went through that with our own 'strings attached' to him. :heart: We all experienced our own feelings, and yet it's about the same man...when I think about these things I'm still so amazed by it. Even after all these years. Or even when people only got to know him after his death, they can catch up a lot of these feelings in a short time..that explains that growspurt of love they get, only he could give that.

I remember dancing along to the music as a toddler...in my pj's, staying up late....then having a friend at school who was a fan, so we would go dancing along to the video's in front of the telly, first time of hearing the songs, buying the albums, getting a crush later on, being inspired, etc. etc...just all those memories. (I could go on for hours.) They're not as vivid as they were back then. I'm missing those times...those unworrying times where you would just know there's so much ahead to discover. Seems so far away now. I'm missing the Michael from the early years, the Bad Mike, the Dangerous Mike, the Invincible Mike...just all those era's with it's own memories...which all had it's own purpose in my point of life at that time. Without even fully realizing, he's been here for so long....it's like we started the beginning of the end on June 25th, if that makes sense. As if it's more logical we will lose memories, that we have to close it? Not that I ever will close it, but this all kind of pushes those feelings into you. And at the same time when experiencing things, it makes you feel so close to him. Man, such strange times. I'm still in processing to adjust to it all, I realize now.
Can only hope that we will be able to hold on tight, really tight. I'll do anything to make sure of that. Stay with us, Michael. :angel:

 

[darlingdear]

mjbunny -
Oh gosh, I know what you mean.
I sometimes think if I replay a certain MJ moment, for instance, the TII press conference..I might forget what that 'pure' (as in that pure emotion) feeling was that day, cos I keep replaying it and each time I feel like I get further away from that 'pureness'. But I hope that doesn't happen. Or when my sister was educating me on the Dangerous-era MJ. My initial reaction I remember to this day, "oh he looks like a woman!" :lol: (Sorry MJ, I was like 5..) Just all these pre-June 25th feelings..
I was just thinking this the other day..post June 25th, when I went to the exhibition, that feeling/energy that hit me as soon as I went in was so powerful, I'd never experienced that before and yet when I think back to that feeling, it's slipping away!

Oh, does that even make sense? I made my head hurt trying to figure out what I mean. I might of gone off on a weird tangent here, sorry.. :lol:

 

[mjbunny]

Or when my sister was educating me on the Dangerous-era MJ. My initial reaction I remember to this day, "oh he looks like a woman!" :lol: (Sorry MJ, I was like 5..) Just all these pre-June 25th feelings..
I was just thinking this the other day..post June 25th, when I went to the exhibition, that feeling/energy that hit me as soon as I went in was so powerful, I'd never experienced that before and yet when I think back to that feeling, it's slipping away!

Oh, does that even make sense? I made my head hurt trying to figure out what I mean. I might of gone off on a weird tangent here, sorry.. :lol:

It make sense, yes. I mean, this is part of life anyway, for memories to change, for things to slip, but the pureness of it all is what I'm so scared of losing. What it felt like without the spector of June 25th and all the time after hanging over everything. Like Mrs Music said... those of us who've grown up with him have these memories that are part of every era of our lives. We literally grew up with Michael, even if he was older than you to start with :lol: He was still growing, you were growing, the world was growing and changing along with us all. And I don't want to forget anything of those years

:lmao: about the looking like a woman comment :lol: OMG, that's too funny. For me, I was 11 in very early 1984. We were the losers without MTV and I was the oldest child, so no one to tell me what's cool. I listened to the radio, but paid NO attention whatsoever to who did what song and I'd never seen a video. Everyone at school was excited about something called the "American Music Awards" that I seemingly must watch that night or I'll be a total loser. I did and I was like :scratch:huh? Who's this Michael Jackson person who everyone seems to love??? And honestly, my first reaction when he came up on stage and talked was, "Wait.... That's a guy???" h34r: LOLOL :hysterical: Wow, he confused the heck out of my sheltered 11-year-old mind :lol: But I couldn't look away. I have to say this ... I got the same weird inner rush feeling when seeing Michael back then as I have later when I've met others who will have some profound impact on my life. I didn't know what it all meant back then, but I know that feeling now. Right after that was the Pepsi accident and I was truly concerned about him even though I didn't know why. I was stunned myself that I would care about him at all. I mean, why? Then came the Grammy's and my purchase of Thriller with my b-day money and... ohhhhhh, Michael. Yeah, I consider the Grammy's as really the day I kind of committed on some level :wub: From there I just read and read and read about him, especially what HE had to say about himself. I fell in love with HIM, not his sparkly socks or even the beautiful voice. And then... he had me for eternity :heart: But yeah... "that's a guy?" :lmao: That will always be funny to me because I thought the same thing about my husband when we met! LOL I thought he was a girl! And then after I found out he was a guy he talked soooo gushingly about how beautiful Michael was that I thought he must be gay :hysterical: Lucky for me he isn't

 

[darlingdear]

Oh the beginning of your post is beautiful, mjbunny.

:lmao: Phew I'm so glad you also were confused a little haha. Omg, I feel so bad thinking about that now, but I mean who would know that like more than 15 years later, I would find MJ the most beautiful man ever? That's pretty amazing. Well, when I was a kid growing up I knew of MJ, but I never really got into MJ's stuff til I was a little older, I was on the level of..the Spice Girls :bugeyed and all those...boybands..to a 5/6 year old they were my 'idols' - *shudder* oh how times & taste have changed...:lol:
But I remember the Leave Me Alone vid & Black or White - they really make me feel nostalgic when I see the vids. Omg how can I forget Earth song video. Omg that video terrified me, mostly the wind at the end, I was like :bugeyed, is that for real?! Smooth Criminal was always my favourite but I can never remember exactly when I saw it!! That bugs me so much. My head was just filled with my sis like okay so this is his wife, Lisa Marie and I was like okay..they look..similar-esque :lol: and this is Bubbles (omg he has a monkey?!) and just sitting staring at the Dangerous album artwork. I know y'all didn't ask for my Michael lifestory, but I just blurted it out lol.

EDIT: OMG I just had a eureka, everything slotting into place moment about my dream!! Well the fact that I was told I will die, as me and mjbunny concluded, means transformation, leaving the past behind and all that jazz. Well, recently I have been dreaming about the past a lot and I mean a lot. So could the medium telling me I will die on Saturday means I will be leaving that part of my past behind? Ooooo :dancin:
Okay, as you were everybody

 

[xo_lola_xo]

Does anyone else feel they dream about Michael either when they are not well/been crying over him/missing him alot? Or is it just me? Because I found I have.

That happens to me often.

This is so pathetic but back in 2009, I'd miss him alot and he wouldn't come in my dreams at times but then I realised that it seems like he always comes on the nights when I have cried. So...sometimes I FORCED myself to cry just so he would come. And he came!

:lol:

Don't laugh!

MJstarlight - Oh god, I hope she will be okay. I know how badly she is suffering, looking at her posts around the forum . I will of course keep her in my thoughts :angel:

I had such a horrible night sleep, seemed like I was awake forever. Dreamt that a medium told me I was going to die Saturday, woke up feeling very weird about that.

I was watching a documentary about MJ early this morning; I taped off TV last summer, after June 25th. For some reason I just wanted to watch people talking about MJ and watch old footage of him. I have so much love in my heart today when I see Michael :heart:, I'm still amazed at how truly special he is. I could write reams and reams about him, but we already know what a wonderful man he is. But now I'm really missing him
Just picking up on the discussion about MJ connected with us, why us etc. I am also so grateful for the dreams, no matter how big or small, that involve Michael. Cos it's like, wow.. you know? I never got the chance to meet him in real life and yet now I feel like I've met him..if that makes sense? I think it's something magical :heart:
Sorry to be all emotional about Michael, I'm running on 4 hours sleep :lol: emotions running high etc.

:heart: to you all

What a creepy dream. I hope all is well.

 

[CaptainEoLove85]

Hmm, I know what you mean of being afraid of the feelings fading away. It does seem the longer time goes by, the more I feel stuck and wish it would just stop. I remember soon after June 25th I watched videos of Michael like crazy on youtube. Spending long hours every day. I got a crash course in Michael Jackson, of all the things I hadn't seen or heard before. I'm sure it was all very exciting at the time, but now it just feels like a blur. I don't remember what my exact thoughts were. You just wish you could go back and be able to experience something as new again, but it's impossible. But I just know now that it made me love him so much more than before.

Ok, I just want to say this could be my imagination again, but I did a meditation last night. I found myself on an empty stage in an empty stadium. I saw Michael walking forward, smiling. He was wearing the silver shirt and black pants from the Bad Tour. He pointed at the stars in the sky and then we just sat on the stage gazing at them for a little while. Then he took my hand and kissed it :wub: and he told me he had to leave. But I didn't want him to leave until he answered some important questions I had in mind. So, I told him to wait up and he got stuck in between staying and leaving. (sorry Michael :doh He really didn't want to stay any longer, but he decided to answer my questions. I won't say what they were, but I think I got the answer I needed. :angel:

Oh and I hope *Billie Jean* is ok too. She'll be in my prayers. :angel:

 

[mjbunny]

Ok, I just want to say this could be my imagination again, but I did a meditation last night. I found myself on an empty stage in an empty stadium. I saw Michael walking forward, smiling. He was wearing the silver shirt and black pants from the Bad Tour. He pointed at the stars in the sky and then we just sat on the stage gazing at them for a little while. Then he took my hand and kissed it :wub: and he told me he had to leave. But I didn't want him to leave until he answered some important questions I had in mind. So, I told him to wait up and he got stuck in between staying and leaving. (sorry Michael :doh He really didn't want to stay any longer, but he decided to answer my questions. I won't say what they were, but I think I got the answer I needed. :angel:

That sounds wonderful :wub:

[We just finished watching HIStory in Bucharest. Watching something like that can just be joy sometimes, you know :wub:, when you can just go with it and forget all the pain. I was watching in a state of awe and thinking, I'm sure back then I didn't see how it was possible to love this man more than I did, but... it's like it never stops getting deeper in some way. :heart:]

 

[xo_lola_xo]

Hmm, I know what you mean of being afraid of the feelings fading away. It does seem the longer time goes by, the more I feel stuck and wish it would just stop. I remember soon after June 25th I watched videos of Michael like crazy on youtube. Spending long hours every day. I got a crash course in Michael Jackson, of all the things I hadn't seen or heard before. I'm sure it was all very exciting at the time, but now it just feels like a blur. I don't remember what my exact thoughts were. You just wish you could go back and be able to experience something as new again, but it's impossible. But I just know now that it made me love him so much more than before.

Ok, I just want to say this could be my imagination again, but I did a meditation last night. I found myself on an empty stage in an empty stadium. I saw Michael walking forward, smiling. He was wearing the silver shirt and black pants from the Bad Tour. He pointed at the stars in the sky and then we just sat on the stage gazing at them for a little while. Then he took my hand and kissed it :wub: and he told me he had to leave. But I didn't want him to leave until he answered some important questions I had in mind. So, I told him to wait up and he got stuck in between staying and leaving. (sorry Michael :doh He really didn't want to stay any longer, but he decided to answer my questions. I won't say what they were, but I think I got the answer I needed. :angel:

Oh and I hope *Billie Jean* is ok too. She'll be in my prayers. :angel:

Aww that is so cute.

 

[amygrace]

Hey lovies :group:
I've been peekin' in here today but didn't have the energy to reply to everyone till now. It's been a weird day energetically for me...I can hardly focus. I think it's just stress. (sigh) As always this place is like a little haven for me though. :heart:

For some reason that song is just draining me. It comes out SO GOD DAMN SLOWLY, it's really torture. Don't know if any of you guys know that. Sometimes you work on something and it just has to come out quickly and other times it tortures you slowly and you agonize over it for what seems forever. This one is just pure torture but then I am obsessed by it. It's bittersweet agony to write this damn thing.

Hehe...yeah I've been there. I hate it when you know what kind of message you want the song to convey but yet it takes FOREVER to write it out. So annoying. I got inspired to write another song last night...and the first few verses and bridge just kinda fell out quickly but now I'm stuck on the chorus. I've thought on it hours and still nothing. I'm just like...c'mon God...angels..brain...whoever...give me the damn song already! :lol: Gah.

I had such a horrible night sleep, seemed like I was awake forever. Dreamt that a medium told me I was going to die Saturday, woke up feeling very weird about that.

Aw sorry to hear you had a horrible night. I've been sleepin' like crap lately myself. Scary dream you had there! Don't go lookin' into it too much though...death in dreams generally symbolize a transformation of sorts...possibly the end of something like your current thought patterns or way of life... but not life itself.

I never got the chance to meet him in real life and yet now I feel like I've met him..if that makes sense? I think it's something magical

Oh yes definitely. And not just from experiences I've had since his passing...but since I first discovered him I felt I had already known him/met him before even coming to this life. :angel:

Does anyone else feel they dream about Michael either when they are not well/been crying over him/missing him alot? Or is it just me? Because I found I have.

I wish I dreamt of him everytime I've had a depressing night missing him and crying over him...'cause it would make me feel much better! I think it's happened a couple times though. Mostly I just feel him close to me when I'm crying or just feeling about him intensely. I think it's those deep intense emotions that calls to his soul and draws him near us. :heart:

on July 22nd I had this amazing meditation. I wasn't expecting to see Michael at all, so I was like . OMG, this was SO real. Sooo real. That conversation will be cherished forever And for like two days I was all giddy and even now when I talk about this I get all shy and smiley and giggly because it feels to my core that I truly Michael for the first time that night (in this life, at least, lol).

That's so wonderful :wub: I wish I had such vivid experiences. I've had just one time...well, maybe 2...where I reeeeally felt like he was there...the energy and impressions were strong...but, in the end...it's all just in my head and I can't always trust my feelings. At least my brain tells me that I can't. :lol: I'm just always so unsure... "did I make that up?" "are you really here Michael?". When I had my reading with my psychic back in November...she said that Michael had visited me 3 times. So of course my intial reaction was like :wild: :wild: :wub: ...but then after really thinking about it I was like... I wonder WHEN those were exactly? Because there was maybe 5 times that I thought he was near at that point. So what am I making up and what is real?

I uploaded a few pics of my guitars. Here's one of the crystal I attached to my electric guitar:

Love it! I need to do something like this on mine.

I was trying to express to him that he's the most beautiful person I've ever seen, but that's not why I love him. His voice is like an angels' choir going right through to my soul, but that's not why I love him. On and on. It's like, this is why I like looking at you, watching you, listening to you, so on, but those things alone cannot make me LOVE someone. Anyway, so I was lying in bed last night and thought... maybe I could somehow put it into song, yeah!

Aw I do this all the time when I talk to him. Just trying to express to him how BEAUTIFUL I think he is...who his physical self was but also just his soul...the light he carried. Interesting you thought about putting it all into a song...I may have channeled a bit of that from you last night. 'cause seriously...I was dead ass tired...but yet I felt like I should grab my guitar. So I grabbed it and was going to write about something else but nope...in came Michael lyrics. It starts out "I'm fumbling for words to tell you how I feel"... I'll have to share it with you guys when I'm done. As I was telling Modulation Alert the first half came quick but now I'm stuck. Maybe that's when you gave up on your thoughts... :lol: :cheeky:

iPodomancy moment just now... wandered over into the "Case" forum and was reading the TMZ articles thread ( I know) and The Who 'Won't Get Fooled Again' played (the main topic could be quite related to TMZ/media. Otherwise, I love the lines "I tip my hat to the new constitution, take a vow for the new revolution" because I think of the
revolution being LOVE and I take that vow, to the universe and to Michael ). When the Who song was over it went to 'Selling the Drama' by Live ("I've been here before... now we won't be raped, now we won't be scarred like that..."). Just seemed fitting, like same sentiment... won't get fooled, raped, scarred... eff off TMZ. Like that.

Haha unk:...total ipodomancy indeed. Love it.

Okay that sounds great! Yeah I'm a bit early maybe, but thought we'd 'organize' stuff before anyone has plans already so we can keep it in mind already. I wasn't able to participate when you set up that stargazing last time, but it truly sounds amazing indeed. Would love to do that.

Maybe we should organize it for a day before or after the 25th? Since so many people will be doing stuff on the 25th and come to think of it...Michael's energy is probably going to be pulled every which way that day (but then when is it not? lol)...we might have more luck on a day that he won't be as "busy". Not sure how it all works on the other side. :lol:

It's like...the futher I get, the more 'detached' I feel, as if I'm holding on to that rope to him and it gets weaker everyday. Like it slips out your hands. I'm so afraid to lose memories, to 'forget'. Even though I also know that's not true and that he's probably 'closer' than ever, but it does feel like it's all getting so...in the past. *sigh*

Oh I hear you. I don't ever ever EVER want to forget these feelings I have inside...the rushes I got and still get from watching him and just thinking of him. It really is crazy to think about how time just goes on. Honestly it scares me thinking about it...like...before we know it he'll have been gone 5 years...10 years...15......really God? Really? Michael is becoming history. :weeping:

Can only hope that we will be able to hold on tight, really tight. I'll do anything to make sure of that. Stay with us, Michael.

Hear hear.

My initial reaction I remember to this day, "oh he looks like a woman!"

:lol: ...I remember thinking when I was younger that he looked exactly like Janet. In fact, even as I came to know him even after he died, I wasn't into how he looked with the long curly hair in the Bad era. :mello: The BAD ERA!! Omg...now I swoon the most over him in that era! :wub: It's been really fun watching my love for Michael grow and grow...in every way, beyond anything I ever thought I was even capable of feeling.

And then after I found out he was a guy he talked soooo gushingly about how beautiful Michael was that I thought he must be gay Lucky for me he isn't

:lol: your hubby rocks.

I remember soon after June 25th I watched videos of Michael like crazy on youtube. Spending long hours every day. I got a crash course in Michael Jackson, of all the things I hadn't seen or heard before. I'm sure it was all very exciting at the time, but now it just feels like a blur.

Aww I did that too :wub: I poured hours upon hours on YouTube...every day. And when I'd order stuff of his like CD's or movies...I would literally jump up and down screeching when it came in the mail. Each DVD was like a big event too...me and my daughter would turn out all the lights and pull the tv up close...crank the volume up and just enjoy our butts off. I still remember it all so well... smiling from ear to ear, cheering, being so beside myself with joy watching him that I felt like I would explode. Ohh I hope these feelings never fade. :wub:

Ok, I just want to say this could be my imagination again, but I did a meditation last night. I found myself on an empty stage in an empty stadium. I saw Michael walking forward, smiling. He was wearing the silver shirt and black pants from the Bad Tour. He pointed at the stars in the sky and then we just sat on the stage gazing at them for a little while. Then he took my hand and kissed it

How lovely!! :heart:


Any updates on *Billie Jean*? I hope she is ok. I've noticed how deeply depressed she's been for awhile too...and on top of that she has to deal with severe asthma attacks. Poor thing. Hope she's ok.

 

[darlingdear]

CaptainEoLove85 - that sounds like a sweet meditation. I hope you got the answers you wanted :angel:

Mrs.Music - It appears my net is fixed so I tried searching this thread for the links to you singing, but I couldn't. I know they are probably right in my face but ..is it possible that you can repost the links?


I couldn't really sleep again last night, have the most excruciating shoulder pain! While I was awake, I thought I would do a bit of meditating, since that normally helps me to fall asleep cos it quietens my mind. A lot of things were flashing before me (I made myself laugh earlier like a loser :lol: cos I was like oo, maybe I will call this stage in my meditation 'Glimpses and Flashes' a la TII Lightman ). Anyhoo, I saw Michael, just quickly, Bad short film set, like what my old avatar used to be. Then I felt like I was moving quickly, normally that freaks me out but I was bored & in pain so I was like please, distract me, allow this. I then reopened and shut my eyes and then, Michael's eyes flashed before me. His mouth & nose were covered with a black silk mask. It felt like I couldn't possibly of imagined that specific image, because he appeared too quickly for my brain to gather together an image of him, if that makes sense? I hope I didn't and that it was really MJ for a brief second. I feel like I have reached a stage now where I can 'see' things during meditation (glimpses and flashes ).. just not in motion..yet. I'll get there.

Has anyone heard from *Billie Jean* - I thought about her again last night, I really hope she's okay..:angel:

:heart: to you all

EDIT: Okay, so this afternoon I meditated again just to practice. I actually took time to do it properly, not cut any corners lol. I concentrated on my breathing etc. Then I just imagined I was in a park, just to help concentrate my mind (I have issues with that). I kept seeing partial faces & a saw a boy, no idea who the heck he was. But anyway, I got to that stage where you aren't asleep but you aren't wide awake, normally I'd drop off. I think I was heading that way but I asked is anyone here? Is Michael here? Michael? Then I 'heard' (a few seconds later) "I can only stay for a minute". I carried on in that middling state til a few minutes later I lost it so I was back in that awake stage and thought what the heck was the deal with that?..it can't of been me making that up? Cos once again I wasn't conciously aware. The thing is during that split second of 'hearing' my mind was blank (once the question was asked).. I didn't see anyone/anything so I think I was on my way to the land of sleep :lol:
That's happened to me before once though, when I was about to fall asleep during meditation I heard someone call my name so I woke up thinking someone was in my room but I was alone..
I kept seeing lots of blue flashes & purple too. I also felt like I did last MLP, the feeling that I could of stayed like that forever -so peaceful. I did have to stop though cos for some reason I kept getting insanely cold..

I'm remaining skeptical about that meditation though..just you know, don't want to go expecting too much you know? But it felt..different to others.
:lol: So sorry to of turned this into some kind of descriptive post..I just thought it was kinda cool & intriguing...

 

[Mundy]

^^ That's great darlingdear. I know what you mean about feeling like you couldn't have possibly imagined something. Sometimes you just don't feel like your brain could have made it up :heart:

I really hope *Billie Jean* is ok. Does anyone have any way of contacting her? Or have a facebook page or something for her?

 

[8701girl]

I dont have "billie jean" 's addy or email, wish i did though

 

[MJfan10]

It's frustrating in a way but at the same time I feel like my subconscious remembers. Sometimes I'll get a flashback of what he was wearing or something and it's still nice to know that he was there. :wub:

Yes, that happens as well. Its nice though

 

[Tinkerbell2]

Hello Everyone! :hug: I just want to say that I haven´t had any Michael dreams lately.. And I have nothing to report.. I hope you all are good
I wonder how *Billie Jean* is... I hope she´s okay.. :angel:

Mrs.Music- Wow!! I LOVE your voice! So soft and beauiful :flowers:

 

[Bee]

And not just from experiences I've had since his passing...but since I first discovered him I felt I had already known him/met him before even coming to this life. :angel:

That's odd, I've been thinking a lot lately on 'knowing him before'...there's this crazy feeling that I can't place, a feeling that I have met or seen him...like, in person. But...that's not true, as far as I can remember. :lol: Crazy though how 'connected' you can feel to him...and probably even so deep that you doubt if you've ever seen him. Weeeeird.

When I had my reading with my psychic back in November...she said that Michael had visited me 3 times. So of course my intial reaction was like :wild: :wild: :wub: ...but then after really thinking about it I was like... I wonder WHEN those were exactly? Because there was maybe 5 times that I thought he was near at that point. So what am I making up and what is real?

Ohmygod she said that?! :wild: That's quite a comforting thing to hear I guess. But it's indeed easy to dig into questioning what was real and what not...I can make my mind go crazy, trying to 'replay' everything and how my feelings were, comparing it to other things etc. Meh. It's never really clear to me, maybe I'm an easy doubter.

Maybe we should organize it for a day before or after the 25th? Since so many people will be doing stuff on the 25th and come to think of it...Michael's energy is probably going to be pulled every which way that day (but then when is it not? lol)...we might have more luck on a day that he won't be as "busy". Not sure how it all works on the other side. :lol:

Yeah you're right about that! Hadn't think of that yet. A day after is easier I guess, that's on Saturday so people might have the day off then.

Aww I did that too :wub: I poured hours upon hours on YouTube...every day. And when I'd order stuff of his like CD's or movies...I would literally jump up and down screeching when it came in the mail. Each DVD was like a big event too...me and my daughter would turn out all the lights and pull the tv up close...crank the volume up and just enjoy our butts off. I still remember it all so well... smiling from ear to ear, cheering, being so beside myself with joy watching him that I felt like I would explode. Ohh I hope these feelings never fade.

So cute. :wub: I love that your baby girl is so into Michael as well and joins in. Really adorable. Those children are our future, I'm planning to teach mine all about Michael and pass on the love...if they have my blood there's no doubt they'll love him as much as I do, hahah. (Seriously, I have been thinking about such things every time when buying an album or something...like, it's not that I just buy it for myself but I'm keeping whole generations in mind, loool.)
On another note, I love to see these kiddies being MJ fan nowadays...in these Move Like MJ shows there were quite some young ones and they just knew exactly why they are fan and what he stood for, so amazing! My sister is doing an internship at this school and teaches 4/5 year olds, and there's this little girl who's coming to class every single day with a fedora and when she does the moonwalk all the others give her an applause. Isn't that cuuuute? Oh I love children. :angel:

Mrs.Music - It appears my net is fixed so I tried searching this thread for the links to you singing, but I couldn't. I know they are probably right in my face but ..is it possible that you can repost the links?

Well they were quite a few pages back, haha. Here are the links, don't quote please then I can get them out later.

Part of YANA and a part of Duffy's song Warwick Avenue:
http://uploads.mailboxdrive.com/WarwickAvenue.mp3
http://uploads.mailboxdrive.com/YANA%28Short%29.mp3

EDIT: Okay, so this afternoon I meditated again just to practice.
...
:lol: So sorry to of turned this into some kind of descriptive post..I just thought it was kinda cool & intriguing...

Oh, interesting meditation you had there! I get those 'someone calling my name' moments a lot as well. Strange stuff. Sometimes I guess it's also having to do with how many times someone called your name for real on that day or something, I know at least I have a lot of times where I've been 'catching a lot of energy' that day and then it still 'sticks on me' when the day is over. Hmmm.

Mrs.Music- Wow!! I LOVE your voice! So soft and beauiful :flowers:

D'aw, thank you so much! :blush:


LMAO, okay this is weird....I'm having these craaazy heavy hiccups for like an hour now, I'm going totally nuts...tried to calm myself down, doesn't work, hold my breath, doesn't work, etc...so I was like...okay Michael, show me you're there, get those effin' hiccups away! Just saying it ironically, I mean...yeah right...but...IT'S GONE the minute after I said that! Wtf....Michael?! No way! :lmao:

 

[Louise.]

Hey guys! Hope you are ok. :hug:

Darlingdear & CaptainEoLove85, loved reading your experiences! :heart:

I've been feeling like Michael is quite close at the minute, or not as distant as I felt he was earlier in the week, so that's nice. I've been feeling really emotional too though. Like last night, I was just watching loads of videos of Michael on youtube and stuff, and just let it all out. :lol:

Anyway, take care peeps. :hug:

 

[darlingdear]

LMAO, okay this is weird....I'm having these craaazy heavy hiccups for like an hour now, I'm going totally nuts...tried to calm myself down, doesn't work, hold my breath, doesn't work, etc...so I was like...okay Michael, show me you're there, get those effin' hiccups away! Just saying it ironically, I mean...yeah right...but...IT'S GONE the minute after I said that! Wtf....Michael?! No way! :lmao:

:lmao: OMG, that totally made me laugh!!

I'm just loading up the ol'links lol, ancient comp so it'll take it's time, but I'll let you know as when I listen :flowers:
EDIT: I just listened! Wow! Your voice gave me goosebumps :clapping: You have a really nice voice You remind me a little of "Florence + the Machine"..a little, I can hear bits of Florence in your voice in Warwick Avenue. But yeah, good job

Louise - Aw yeah I feel like that too, like really up and down. Last night when I woke up cos of that freakin' shoulder pain, I was on the brink of tears cos of that, then when I thought about Michael I was just like :boohoo: :lol:
just OT: but I love your avatar and signature :heart: Peter Pan.

 

[PaceMioDolceCuore]

That's odd, I've been thinking a lot lately on 'knowing him before'...there's this crazy feeling that I can't place, a feeling that I have met or seen him...like, in person. But...that's not true, as far as I can remember. :lol: Crazy though how 'connected' you can feel to him...and probably even so deep that you doubt if you've ever seen him. Weeeeird.

I find that very logical even. There's probably are reason why those of are who are so drawn to him, are drawn to him. I'm quite convinced this kind of instant mutual connection has it's roots in some kind of soul family connection. And of course on earth sooner or later you'd be drawn in yet again.

I remember being 12 and that is when I saw him fist. I never saw his face before, hadn't heard of his music, had no clue, only knew his name. (there was no Jackson 5 music where I grew up) I did not know ANYTHING about him. And there I was standing with a bicycle between my feet at street festival and somebody was broadcasting "Live in Bucharest". I couldn't.move.away. I stood motionless for the entire time with that bicycle and watch the TV the entire concert. I thought he's the most beautiful creature on the planet, walking the earth- his stage presence just blew me away. I still remember this. By the time Man in the mirror came on, not only was I madly in love for the first time, but he had gained yet another loyal fan for life.
Watching him on that tape was like coming home to a degree, very eerie. It felt FAMILIAR to me watching him although I had never seen him before in my life or heard his songs.

Some of you here feel the India connection, I always had that incredible Egypt thing going on, very strongly around the same time. All I wanted for Christmas and Birthdays was Egypt stuff- and Michael Jackson items.
I remember one time asking Michael meditatiowise, did I know you before? I just heard a little snort and a laugh- and all he said was "'bout time you remembered." Another time he morphed into Horus.

I'm actually convinced that we knew him in one way or the other-somewhere. Physical life is just a short snapshot anyway, there's so much else besides that, I'm sure that magnetic pull has it's roots in there somewhere.

 

[PaceMioDolceCuore]

LMAO, okay this is weird....I'm having these craaazy heavy hiccups for like an hour now, I'm going totally nuts...tried to calm myself down, doesn't work, hold my breath, doesn't work, etc...so I was like...okay Michael, show me you're there, get those effin' hiccups away! Just saying it ironically, I mean...yeah right...but...IT'S GONE the minute after I said that! Wtf....Michael?! No way! :lmao:

In a more prosaic way- I usually try breathing into my pelvis, like a singer would. When you breath in, you expand your whole stomach. When you breath out, you draw your stomach back in. Breathing down into your stomach. I had a concert once and was freaking out. The conductor grabbed me and told me to breath down in that way and it worked. Might not work for everyone but ever since it worked for me. Michael helping out is a much nicer thought though, I agree! :yes:

Please, please keep singing, you have a very warm voice, it's really pleasant to listen to! :wub:

 

[Louise.]

Louise - Aw yeah I feel like that too, like really up and down. Last night when I woke up cos of that freakin' shoulder pain, I was on the brink of tears cos of that, then when I thought about Michael I was just like :boohoo: :lol:
just OT: but I love your avatar and signature :heart: Peter Pan.

Aw, thank you. :hug: