ohmagawd, I have missed so freakin' much guys! :lol:
I just attempted to read from where I left up to here - to try and keep me awake! I'm seriously jet lagged :lol: I don't wanna mess up my body clock although it thinks it is still living in California :no: I wish.
I tried to read it all, but for some reason, my net is so slow today, I've been losing my freakin' mind for the past few hours with it :lol: I got halfway before I was just about to go a lil crazy cos it was taking so long to load pages and everything.
I hope you are all doing okay :huggy: :flowers: It'll be an impossible task to ask y'all what I've missed, so maybe later if the net's okay, I'll check up on it. But yes, I hope you have all been doing good since I've been gone :heart:
I didn't have any Michael dreams while I was gone. Well, I lie, I had the beginnings of one, but for some strange reason I decided I didn't want Michael in my dream!!! :bugeyed I know, WTF? He was just sitting there, waiting and I just replaced him at the table we were at with someone else. :doh: I'm sorry Michael, please come back sometime..
I had some real crazy dreams though guys, like real weird. Mostly nostalgic ones, about my old school, old friends, family. But then, the night before I came back I had a real bad nightmare! Sorry that this is OT, but I had to share. I dreamt (but again it was so vivid) there was this creepy old guy standing over my bed, trying to..possess me. I had like..sleep paralysis (if that's what it is) and I couldn't move at all! I managed to put the duvet over my head and was like Archangel Michael, please, please protect me from this thing, whatever he is! God I was so scared. Then he tried to take over my throat, to make me speak like him, and I just remember trying to crawl out of bed to my mother but I couldn't speak to her, I was crying and screaming in my head please help me! No words were coming out. I woke up the next morning with a dried tear down my cheek, my voice was all croaky and I was really creeped out. It was so vivid.
Okay, so back on topic to MJ. I woke up with a really sharp pain in my heart on April 5th. It woke me up actually from sleeping. I was kinda like what the? It lasted all day. And it hasn't returned since. I'm sorry I couldn't check up on what y'all were feeling that day. I did send of love & strength to everyone :huggy:
I had days where I was so sad about Michael. I walk a couple of blocks and hear his music and be like awww then bam
I saw one person, in their window, had an MJ cardboard silhouette (of his head and shoulders) filled with all pics of him smiling, I thought that was so nice - I did a double take. I heard little kids walking down the street going Michael Jackson this, Michael Jackson that. :heart: so cute.
Just glancing up at what
amy said about "Michael Street", that is so cool! I passed a street called Jackson St so I took a pic, and then the next day, Ortega, but that's not quite as cool as MJ related street names
One day I was walking down the street, really missing MJ, I breathed in really heavily cos it was a nice sunny day, and I just got this big pang of Michael. It just hit me when the wind blew..Michael. It was weird.
He feels far away from me atm, I dunno if that's the case for any of you? But to me, he seems to be a little distant for the time being, which I can respect.
I just miss him. I watched a little bit of TII on the plane, just to get my legs moving around, bit of chair dancin'..but turned it off waaay before the end
They played WBSS when we were coming in to land today which I thought was weird cos normally it's either silence or some other random tunes. Whenever I randomly hear his music it makes me think it's kind of a little sign that he's still around..you know?
Woooo, this post is a tl;dr. It's just I had to write down all this stuff, I hope you all don't mind :flowers:
Once again, hope you are all doing good :huggy::huggy:
:heart: to you all