Also, I agree about the last video from Bonnie. It felt like there was an angry tone to it...which, I think Michael can be angry where he's at - but this just didn't feel like him. It felt a little bit like a "blow off" too. Like saying "you guys need to move on, I am... and if you need me, don't ask for me...just listen to my music". That was my first impression anyway...I didn't like it.
That was a good way of explaining kind of what I felt after listening, yeah. I mean, one doesn't have to take it that harshly, but it
felt that way to me.
Think I'm gonna have a major breakdown this week...on Thursday I'm leaving to London (second try) for the exhibition and the meetup with MJJC people. Gonna be a verrrry confronting event I guess.
Yeah, it would be cool to hear you performing sometime
Oh wow, I can imagine the feeling of going to the exhibition. I really wanted to, though. I feel disappointed that I can't go. Just can't afford to go to London at this point. But I know it would be difficult. Definitely a day for tears
This is a rough version of one of the newer songs. We finished it since but I didn't get a chance to update it. Actually I have a few to upload.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=htloJ2nhexI
Well, I liked it
Is it just me, or was it a bit grungy? I'm from Seattle, I should add, lol. Sounded a bit grunge inspired, but then I'm old and don't know anymore how to classify anything. But anyway, I liked it!
Yeah I've definitely been there, done that. He suddenly felt close today though...maybe it's because I've been working hard on a website the past couple days that is all about him. Or, maybe I'm just extra sensitive about him today. I just miss him terribly!
I have times when I miss him like crazy and feel sad and other times when I'm kind of numb to it. It's funny, though, that you should mention feeling close while working on your site. (We'll get to see it when it's done, right?
) I've had the same experience at times. Nothing much the last couple of days, though. But I'm not feeling neglected. Haiti needs all the attention.
Last night I dreamt that I found something I had supposedly drawn when I was a kid. (I can't draw. I mean
at all.) It was sort of like a holographic painting with multiple MJ's (I mean him, looking like mid-80's in a red jacket) floating in a standing position all over a room. Like picture a room with another MJ every 3 feet or so throughout the entire room, lol. What the? And then at the front right side of the pic was Michael standing with his arms around Brooke Shields (I think) on one side and another woman scantily dressed on the other side. And it was supposed to be like a joke... MJ da pimp with his hoez. :lol: Nooooo idea. Haven't even visited the macros thread for weeks. I was puzzled because I can't recall ever having the ability to draw or paint more than stick people. Then a bit later I saw some symbols in front of me like smilies (makes sense -- I added a new smiley set to the MLP forum last night before bed) and then something flashed, like a super bright light suddenly in the dream and I thought, "What was that?!" and woke up. Later in the morning I was dreaming about random stuff, and "someone" (?) woke me up by touching me. I mean I totally felt that someone was touching my side, my arm and hip like my hubby does to wake me up. As I woke up I thought...
huh? He's home from work way early! But when I opened my eyes and rolled over there was nobody there. Weird. :mello:
