Ok, I haven't read a lot of pages since and before the meditation. Just read them
One reason is, I'm afraid if I read too many dreams that would maybe influence my dreams, you know what I mean? Something like 'Oh she had such a nice dream - I want it too'
And I'm a lazy writer, although I LOOOOOVE to talk LOL
But lately I researched some stuff about meditation and the connection to astral projection because some days ago I had the expierence that I mentioned here when I posted the first time again. I was very relaxed, when suddenly I had this feeling I would be weightless and kind of floating. I liked that feeling but I was also scared, but heart beat very fast and my temperature was increasing, I remember that my legs especially felt very hot. I tried to hold that feeling instead of stopping because of fear, but it was going away after about 1 minute, I think I also remember that I didn't hear the usual sounds of my environment. But anyway, I did some research on forum which scared me a bit because I read some posts of people who did experiments to not also see
what's going to happen but they also said they met creatures from the shadow, people without faces, angry people and they also tried to see themselves in the mirror and stuff. Well, bit OT. Aaaaanyway, I thought I needed some scientic prove or facts, I found some tests from the 70's in where people really had this abilities but they were rather rare and I read that the feeling of OBE (out-of-body-expierence) is because you are in an aware state of mind and you are actually drifting into the dreamland, that's why you have
visions and
hear people talking. Ok, why am I telling that? This totally discouraged me. I really want to believe in spirituality 100 %, but I don't know, I'm looking for facts that it's real, that I'm not crazy, that everything, the small things that happens aren't caused because I'm schizophrenic in reality like scientic websites claim that people who have that
skills are only ....schizophrenic. I don't know why I'm actually saying this but I kind of had to, I have no one around me to talk about spiritual stuff. But reading here again encouraged me a bit again.. and of course our cool meditation expierences.
To my meditation in general. When I close my eyes I see flashes of light almost all of the time, in a dark room. I checked my pulse to see if it has anything to do with it, but nope. So, I don't know. It already starts when I'm praying (but not in a religious way, it's more like a talk and begging for protection to the higher source) there are already the flashes. And I wish I'd remember the words I hear then. I don't remember them. It's kind of
normal to me, I first heard it about 2005. I was hearing it for longer and then suddenly one night, I was falling asleep and I remember hearing something like jazz music, it sounded so good and then it was like I totally woke up, everything changed to its normal sound and I was like "WTH?" I thought I was going crazy! I really thought that it's only a matter of time till I'm going to the nuthouse lol Good to hear that (some of) you share the same expierences.
I don't know why I'm so chatty now when one of my first sentences of this post werre "I'm a lazy writer" LOL and now I'm telling like my whole life story :lol: - I blame it on the coffee
Can someone who meditates and see visions please answer this for me?
When I was a little girl, I remember closing my eyes and just seeing fireworks of colours : red, green, blue, yellow, purple.
Does this mean I have it in me or something?
And how do I improve to be able to see how I saw as a child?
Just wanted to let you know that you reminded me of it, I saw them too as child. I liked this colours so much that something to make me see them again I pressed on my eyes, sounds brutal... but I was crazy about this colours! And I always wanted to see them, natural or in a brutal way LOL
cyberjackson, tinkerbell, mjbunny - the bottle story, seeing eyes in the dark and the moving baby powder.... it's all so... whooaa!! scary, shocking and very interesting. I think I'd freak out!! Especially seeing this eyes, I think I wouldn't be able to open my eyes at night for a long time. I was very scared of the dark for many years, I'm happy that I'm able to open my eyes when I'm in my bed at night.
I'm currently watching something strange in my apartment too, my chain/necklace of MJ actually, but before I report I wanna make sure that there's no logical explanation for it. It's acting strange and only at night, it's hanging on my shelf and there's definitely no wind in my apartment... anyway... I need to watch it more closely again!
I couldn't agree more with this statement. The energy you put out really makes a HUGE difference. It's the basic Law of Attraction in the Universe.
...Your energy is powerful stuff, guys.
I love your story, it's inspiring!!
I
love the Secret too, 'though I'm unfortunately not using it currently. When my friend told me first about it I thought it's this wishy washy pseudo 'thinking positive' blabla ... oh yeah, last year... well 2008 I was thinking a bit different especially because my grandmother died.
I was reading it a few months ago and when I read it it wasn't
that new to me. I knew positive thinking would pay out and I'd believe in something it would work out somehow. But after reading it and knowing the methods I really tried it on a few little things - and it worked!! The one little story I remember was when my mum wanted to bring me to the uni and there was much traffic and builing lots and I asked my mum if she's thinking "I don't have time, I don't have time" the whole time and she said "Yes". I told her to think "I have enough time, we are gonna make it, I'm gonna make it, I have enough time" but she didn't do it because she isn't a positive thinker at all unfortunately. So I told her to stop thinking LOL and let me to the thinking to show that the Secret really works. So I visualized the time we'd arrive, I said we have enough time, etc... and suddenly all the cars turned left or right, traffic jam was gone... I was laughing so hard, that I had tears in my eyes, because I could NOT believe what just happened. And my mum was smiling all over her face too but still she couldn't admit what she just saw (she has unfortunately some issues, positive thinking and saying someone else was right) but she was smiling and laughing too. And guess what? We arrived to that time I visualized
Another example. And unfinished one, unfortunately. I wanted to try it big and 'ordered' 10,000 € from the universe. I was acting like it's on its way, just a matter of time. I even wrote that check you can print out on the Secret homepage and every day for some time I looked at it, acting like 'it's on its way'. I even acting like bills would be credit. And I never questioned that it would come or how it could come, because that was a matter of the universe. And guess what happened in december? Someone that knows that I like to make entertaining videos send me a link to german contest with the prize of 10,000 €. But now the
sad part: I loved making videos, it was like my life - but since June 25th my creativity has left me. I have ideas but they are only half @$$ ideas and still I don't have the motivation to make any. Deadline was already. So, if I'd have won, it'd have been the perfect The Secret story
Whoa long post... I should really change my mood from 'angelic' to 'chatty' LOL
