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Goodnight Michael

I have lurked here for a long long time only recently signed up, I've read heaps of posts on many different things many have made me cry, some made me laugh, a few made me think but this is the thread that my heart and mind have been looking for. It shows me I'm not alone in my grief, I'm not the only one who puts on a face when around people, who isn't the only one who aches for time alone and when she gets it, its an opportunity to cry about Michael ...I'm thankful for all of you, who understand the grief and are willing to share thoughts and feelings and beautiful poetry for and about Michael. Thank you for this place where I dont have to explain why I feel the way I do about someone I never met, thank you for ...well just ...Thank You!
 
A Silent Wish...

A silent wish, a silent tear...
A silent longing that you where here.
A silent throbbing within my heart,
A silent anguish coz we're apart.
A silent hope to see your face,
A silent desire for your embrace,
I love you now... I will forever,
Silently, I'll wait till we're together.
 
Come to me soon

Life in itself is meaningless without you
the sun has faded
and the clouds have drawn over
the skies of my heart.
There is still that presence
telling me that you don't exist,
that I am here alone,
and you will never be by my side.
How can my heart continue to beat,
how does mind work on without you,
for I know you are out there,
and I know that you can hear me.

Every time I look at the moon,
Every time I see the beauty of the dawn,
I can only grieve,
grieve that you are not here,
here to share these moments with me.
My heart longs for your company,
my soul seeks for its mate.
Come to me soon

for I am waiting,

always

for you to brighten my life with your presence

Come to me soon
 
Michael, I can't stop thinking about you and I can't stop crying. My heart is full of pain ..I want change the world just like you but I don't have enough strenght... without you everything isn't the same. Everyday I talk with you in my head and I have hope you hear me...please be with me every night, time, breathe... I love you my angel with all my heart... Goodnight, my sweet love.
 
Hi, Billie.... I should be spleeping now, but I saw you posted, so I just wanted to pass by here to tell you to be strong, to keep it up, to hold on to his memory and to keep Mike alive and sheltered in your heart. As you always do.

We love Michael in many different ways. I am glad we can share this love and our pain no matter who we are, where we are, what we feel.

We love Michael.

Big hugs, Billie. I hope this week will be a bit easier for you. And please take care of yourself too.
 
You know you are in love
when you see the world in his eyes,
and his eyes everywhere in the world.

I love you Michael,
Thank you for everything.
Good night my Angel.

xxx
 
PCR said:
Hi, Billie.... I should be spleeping now, but I saw you posted, so I just wanted to pass by here to tell you to be strong, to keep it up, to hold on to his memory and to keep Mike alive and sheltered in your heart. As you always do.

We love Michael in many different ways. I am glad we can share this love and our pain no matter who we are, where we are, what we feel.

We love Michael.

Big hugs, Billie. I hope this week will be a bit easier for you. And please take care of yourself too.
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Thanks for support. I'm really crying over Michael again. I'm missing him so much this week. It's like starting all over from June 25th. I'm feeling very melancholy tonight. Don't want to sleep. I wish Michael just wrap his arms around me and tell me everything's going to be okay. But since I know that that's never going to happen, that makes me sad.

I'm really scared of the future. I can see ahead and all I can see is life without Michael. With no hopes or dreams.

For one split second yesterday I forgot he wasn't here anymore. And then it hits you like a ton of bricks in the face.. I can't believe how much I miss him. I love him so much it hurts ...
 
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My lonely restless nights,
Are almost too much to bear.
I go through the lightening days,
Thinking that this isn't fair.

Just to breathe really hurts,
Though I seem almost numb to feeling.
I'm trying my hardest to move on,
They say it's best way to wards healing.

When I'm all by myself,
I do nothing but sit and cry.
It's just too much to take,
And again I wonder, why?

I hold onto the little things,
Like the moon and the stars.
But they're too far for me to reach,
Just like you are.

And when I remember,
I wish I'd felt your touch.
To picture you as sleeping,
Is sometimes just too much.

And all of the little things,
You'll never get to do.
I promise that I'll smile,
And do them all for you.

And when I'm weeping,
And wishing you were here.
I'll count all of the times,
I never got to kiss away your tears.

And pretend that I'm holding you,
As you slowly take your place.
I'll keep you with me, baby,
I'll forever dream of your face.
 
Today I've been just feeling so numb. I miss you so much. Thinking about it brings tears to my eyes. I just am so tired of hurting, of crying. It's like a chore to be sad, except, I cant help it. It just happens whenever I think of you, which is all day. I just love you so much, and now your gone and I dont understand why if something hurts so bad, why it has to be. It's just so much. I cant even envision the day when it will get better. I literally think about years and years passing and it still feeling the same way. I really miss you. I just dont know what to do. All I know is that I would do absolutely anything to have you back. I love you, I miss you. Forever in my heart you will remain.
 
I'm crying so much right now. My heart is broken, Michael, and I don't know what to do. I feel like all I can do is cry, but despite my sadness, I still want to tell you goodnight, and I love you, very, very much!!
 
*Billie Jean* said:
I'm crying so much right now. My heart is broken, Michael, and I don't know what to do. I feel like all I can do is cry, but despite my sadness, I still want to tell you goodnight, and I love you, very, very much!!
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Dear Billie... our thoughts are with you, dear. How do you feel today? Did you have some sleep and sweet dreams? I do hope you can find some relieve today. Just take each day as it comes. We are together climbing this mountain, friend. Please don't forget it.

Your new signature is a master piece!!

Big hugs for you and all the friends in this particular threath. This is like our private place, like our own little shelter.
 
I wrote your name in the sky,
but the wind blew it away.
I wrote your name in the sand,
but the waves washed it away.
I wrote your name in my heart,
and forever it will stay.

Good night Michael,
I love you.

xxx
 
PCR said:
Dear Billie... our thoughts are with you, dear. How do you feel today? Did you have some sleep and sweet dreams? I do hope you can find some relieve today. Just take each day as it comes. We are together climbing this mountain, friend. Please don't forget it.

Your new signature is a master piece!!

Big hugs for you and all the friends in this particular threath. This is like our private place, like our own little shelter.
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Thanks. I'm so sad.. I miss Michael so terribly much. I don't know how to go on without him.. I cant stop crying. I cant sleep. Last night I was laying in bed, must have been 3-4am and I just thought Michael just show me a sign or anything that you are okay, you're at peace etc. So I got out of bed, opened my window and just looked out to the sky and it was really cloudy but I just kept looking and looking saying to myself Michael just show me something, anything. Then as the clouds were moving along this single, lone star appeared, I first I thougth it was an aeroplane or something because it was twinkling but there was like a sort of red twinkle to it. So I just kept staring at it, it wasn't a plane, it was .... well I'll leave that to you to conclude..

I miss him so much it's painful, and I don't know what to do. :(
 
My Dreams of You

I close my eyes, then I drift away
Into the magic night, I softly say
A silent prayer, like dreamers do,
Then I fall asleep to dream
My dreams of you.

Like a heart with a wish
For a dream to come true,
I became blessed
With an angel called you

This place is Heaven
As you can truly see,
It's a perfect home
For you and me.

If this is the only place
That we can be together,
I would gladly shut my eyes tight
And sleep forever.

So I'll close my eyes, and drift away
Into this magic night and softly say
A silent prayer, like dreamers do
And fall asleep to...
My Dreams of You.
 
I LOVE YOU
THE THREE MOST POWERFUL
WORDS.
HOW OFTEN DO WE SAY IT.
AND REALLY MEAN IT?
HOW OFTEN DO YOU SAY IT, TO YOUR FAMILY
YOUR FRIENDS
DO WE EVER SAY
I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH
MAYBE IF WE WOULD SPREAD THE
WORD AROUND MORE
AND SHOW LOVE, THERE MAYBE BE LESS HATE
LESS FIGHTING.......


LOVE IS A STATE OF MIND AND AN EMOTION, SAY IT WITH PRIDE, SPREAD THE WORD AROUND.

I belive in you Michael, always have, always will.
I love you forever.
Goodnight sweetheart.

xxx
 
Castle of Dreams

I want to spend a day with you
Only you and me alone
Where all we want is free to do
Our love is free to show..

You'll start to wrap your arms around me
As your nose caress my cheek
Your breath will rush upon my shoulder
And make me feel so weak..

I'll close my eyes and let my fingers
To touch the softness of your lips
You'll look at me as I whisper
"Forever starts in just a kiss.."

Then we will join our hands together
Our souls will start to speak
Our hearts will burn & yearn in silence
As our temper reach it's peak..

We'll lost the thinnest of our patience
And leave the world beneath
As we lost control of ourselves
We'll fulfill our burning needs..

I want us now to be together
But then we can't just be
So my heart begin to build a castle
"Castle of dreams"..only for you and me..
 
I'm crying so hard right now.. I miss you so much. It's too painful. Writing to you makes the pain a bit bearable. I love you with all my heart. I miss you more with every breath I take. It's hard to live.. :weeping:

.. Goodnight, my sweet love.
 
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