This is a bit off topic.. but I just don't want to open a new thread for this.. i don't want that type of attention but just needed to get this out.. months ago.. I believe towards the end of last year I wrote some stuff on how worried I was that Michael never sleeps. we had conversations about how MJ has mentioned never sleeping.. that he's always creating.. that he reads through the night, and writes.. which at times is not bad.. but he stated several times that he does not sleep.. I was shunned at the time, people were saying not to asume Michael has sleeping problems etc.. I in no way am taking responsibility for Mj's death.. but wish i could have done something, with the feeling I had.. I even shared it in this forum.. And the fact I saw him 7 days before he pasts, I just wish I knew about the Dr.. I wish I could have done something to help!!!
KOPV there's many around here who feel like you do. We had that topic on the support forum (btw where is the apropriate place for all kinds of these feelings) maybe you should take a look around there and it can help you (also)?!
I believe, thinking like this can turn into stupid hurting circles which means they will never end as they can't be answered anymore anyways.
There is no sense in always punishing yourself with painful thinking like that... what if...
Put Michael in the middle of your thinking. And see he is resting now... maybe find some comfort in that he is not bothered by anything anymore. Nobody can hurt him anymore. He has given so much and he has really done his part.
If you believe like I do then Michael is in a much better place... the best place.
Surely he's looking for his children, his family and us still... but he's not even too stressed about seeing us sad and broken because he knows and understands already that all will be good and everything makes sense in the end.
Nothing in this life is eternal. All will end. We need to cherish what we have. We need to learn from our losses... and geeez Michael is such a tremendous loss... to his children, his family, us the fans and the whole world. But let's try not keep the pain by torturing ourselves with thinking in circles.
I really feel now it is up to us, to do our part, to make him proud, to still make him happy... see now even more I do feel Michael does deserve nothing less than our very best.
Let's find ways to do so... be there for his children, his family... let's be there for eachother... let's make this world a better place.
Michael is resting. It's up to us now.
I honestly do believe he has put all we need for that in our hearts. That was his life mission and he was sooooo successfull.
Let's prove this to the world! There is nothing more beautiful.
Michael has given us all we need for that. It is all still here... please let the pain go... cry your heart out if needed... let it take all the time needed, no pressure at all... but then allow yourself to feel Michael again as we all always did. These feelings will not fade or disappear. They were put in our hearts to make us strong and loving ppl.
So I say, do not torture yourself with what you could have done if... ask yourself what you can do now!
Let's go on this mission together! I really want to.
Let's keep his legacy as fans standing together as one!
That will still make him smile in a way everyones heart melts, I'm sure.
