Did MJ Find Love In The Dark (continued)

[Sdeidjs]

Nice Shila,
Just executed the contract for Point Of Grace with Special Guest Jason Castro on Friday, October 28, 2011 at the Mississippi State University - Riley Center For The Performing Arts www.msurileycenter.com


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April 14, 2009: "Hi..! Susie here's the vids I promised. Some of them no longer have audio to them, though. Here is one of my favorites. I met this singer and his family when he gave a concert and performed this song at an orphanage. He is a superstar in his country." Michael Jackson (c) 1993 - 2011


Kazakstan kazak, Sabi bakiti
http://youtu.be/b_7v_FnbYRU


April 14, 2009: "Be blessed and don't cry TOO much. I cry enough over them as it is." Michael Jackson (c) 1993 - 2011


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Peace, Happiness, L.O.V.E

God Bless Always :angel:

:rollingpeace::rollingpeace:

 

[Sdeidjs]

sorry is it just me? Susie you sound like your high! your avoiding answers your using words that arent even in this discussion, your being weird not even making any sence at all... I never read that you said you knew michael in real life, and online i dont buy it at all.. why using the same word over and over and not say anything with a real answer???

the way you portray yourself is just.....
sentence like this:
I have worked way too long, and way too hard, to "EVER" jepordize my "GOOD STANDING", "GOOD NAME", "INTEGRITY", "TRUST", and "HONOR"..!~

what the .. are you talking about? People just asked you did you knew michael and this is your answer?! That aint nothing of a answer that is just not normal
i read alot of the latest post and im getting really annoyed..

Like kindofdisco said: But you need to stop posting these conversations!

and this susie: advocate of Mr.Michael Jackson
What are you saying your an advocate of michael?????????????????????????

common

"I find it extremely intriguing that MANY of you NOT all can be cruel, heartless, and judgemental with out even doing YOUR research about what and who I have always been about..!

Sorry to disappoint some of you, but those recent photos I posted a few days ago are "indeed" copy original (s). You can find and enlarge these "copy originals" as big as you wish at www.myspace.com sdeidjs located in photo's.

"These actions remind me of someone else that is/was crucified for simply having a pure heart."


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Peace, Happiness, L.O.V.E

God Bless Always :angel:

:rollingpeace::rollingpeace:

 

[Ashtanga]

Agree with both of these statements, and how!

Things will be OK soon, have faith. :angel: :heart:

:hug:

More > :hug: to you! :give_heart:

And I did manage to figure out which song it is and here it is for all of you. Maybe MJ, before he left us

[youtube]Z3LmfQkxIk0[/youtube]

Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww... :wub:

And I love you so
People ask me how
How I've lived till now
I tell them I don't know

:girl_sigh: :heart:


Every time I hear this song... I think of Michael. :girl_in_love: Beautiful song! :heart: Thanks for posting!

 

[MysteriousPhoenix]

And thanks again!! My arm is finally getting better...thank GOD!! I was already getting REALLY frustrated. I never even knew how DIFFICULT many every day tasks are when you can't use one hand properly. It just suddenly went numb some weeks ago. Numb and weak. And being the way I am, I just thought "How weird..and how ANNOYING!!"...:lol:

Wow! I have experienced this before - a kind of "numbing" effect in parts of my body. That is really scary! I pray that this little phenomenon will end for you immediately! On a happier note ... I'm glad you are enjoying your job and you are getting the chance to study something you love just for the fun of it. It makes the studying so much easier! lol!

Hey MysteriousPhoenix >>> :ciao: and :hug:

Hi Ash! :ciao: and :hug:2 U 2!

My gosh, I feel like lately I'm posting in here every other minute...here I am agaaaiiinnnn! But I wanted to thank so many of you for your prayers and caring.

You can post here as much as you would like, Shila. I'm glad we can somehow bring you a little comfort. I have prayed and will continue to pray for your hubby's complete recovery. I know you and I both have witnessed God do such things before.

Thank you, MP, for posting such an encouraging, and faith building, song! :flowers:

You are welcome!:flowers:

We've talked before, MP, on how sometimes we get a song in the morning or whatever and it makes us think...wait a min...is this a song for the LITD thread?! Remember not too long ago you had a song stay with you and you posted it?

Yep, yep, happens quite a bit actually. I wonder if it has something to do with the Holy Spirit's leading somehow. I remember reading a website where this person had implied that many of today's secular songs were actually inspired by the Holy Spirit to witness to people about God's love. I don't remember all of the songs, but one I remember was "Drops of Jupiter."

"So tell me, did you fall for a shooting star (satan) one without a permanent scar (Jesus had some "permanent" scars) and did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there?"

Well, I woke up with this one...a few lines were playing in my head...and came back all through the day until just now, so I said, "Enough! I need to find this song on YouTube and look over the lyrics! There's got to be SOME reason why this song won't go away."

And I did manage to figure out which song it is and here it is for all of you. Maybe MJ, before he left us , felt this way about his LITD girl and would have liked to have sung it to her. :heart:....or maybe he did? :wub:

[youtube]Z3LmfQkxIk0[/youtube]

Wow, Shila! This song was so beautiful! It moved me to tears! (especially the lyrics about understanding loneliness.) Thank You so much for posting it!

I woke up to this song running through my head not to long ago ...

Nice Shila,
Just executed the contract for Point Of Grace with Special Guest Jason Castro on Friday, October 28, 2011 at the Mississippi State University - Riley Center For The Performing Arts www.msurileycenter.com

Cool! unk:


EDIT: Coincidentally, speaking of Don McLean, it made me think of a song that makes me think of Michael every time I hear it. I think it has something to do with the whole "misunderstood genius" thing. But then again, for some strange reason, I also think of Michael when I hear "American Pie." lol! Here is the song I was referring to, I'm sure you all are familiar with it ...

 

[Ashtanga]

Hi Ash! :ciao: and :hug:2 U 2!

:give_heart:






Another song that I hear thinking of Michael. :blushing: :heart:






Awwwwww... great! These songs made ??me smile today. :blushing: :heart: Thanks!

 

[MysteriousPhoenix]

I hear this song like crazy!

 

[Ashtanga]

:shifty:

I hear this song like crazy!

Are you excited today! :wild:

Whenever I see your smiling face
I have to smile myself
Because I love you, yes I do

...............


And I thank my lucky stars
That you are who you are
And not just another lovely lady
Sent down to break my heart

:heart:


Another beautiful song... :girl_sigh: :wub: Thanks for posting!

 

[Lisha]

I hear this song like crazy!

Luv it!!!

(you know all the good oldies, MP. Are you sure you weren't born in the fifties, too?)lol.


I am just sittin' so content and peaceful listening to that song, and looking out my sliding glass door, and who should come hopping cutely up to it...a little bunny who somehow, somewhere, nearby has a burrough. I'm a city girl who has always lived in the city, and I still do...how I ended up with a wild bunny living in my back yard I have no idea. But I smile whenever I see it out there looking for something to nibble on, like grass or short leafy plant (my back yard is kinda wild looking and perhaps doesn't feel like the city to this little brown rabbit with such a cute tail).

I also have the craziest wild squirrel who loves to climb all over the trees behind my house...and he takes some daring leaps from the top of one tree to another, and sometimes just hangs by a thread...but he persists. So hilarious. I love the special surprises found in nature.

Well, how on topic am I BEING? Not!

(but MP gave me permission to post as much as I want, and she didn't say I had to be on topic) :lol:

Ummm...still waiting for All In Your Name. That could just get me on topic...we shall see. I might have to be a little creative with it, but yeah....

 

[8701girl]

Hey!

Just been really busy with work, and I started studying art history at the uni "for fun" (not planning on quitting my current job...but my brain just needed a "hobby"...

). So just been really busy...And yeah...I'm well now. I think.

Ohhh art history very cool



You 'think' u are well now....well thats reasuring! :lol:

 

[Sdeidjs]

Wow..! Ladies & Gents,

Impressive...Compositions/Short Films!~ Thanks for sharing~


*************

April 16, 2009:

"A saying that I have lived by for a very, very long time:

"Do not judge a man until you have walked two moons in his moccasins."

I know you are the type of person who lives by this type of motto, as well.

Keep up that philosophy." Michael Jackson (c) 1993 -2011


April 17, 2009:

"An Artist only realeases the finished, polished project/product. Nothing less."

Michael Jackson (c) 1993 -2011


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Peace, Happiness, L.O.V.E~

God Bless Always :angel:

:rollingpeace::rollingpeace:

Dedicated to but not limited to "ALL" the "very hard" working Artist (s) that have the "purity", "talent", "originality", "passion", and "dedication" to THEIR "passion of the heart"..!~ Cleveland, OHIO USA (www.rockhall.com) (c) 1993 - 2011


http://youtu.be/Fe7yOccqdxI


I "MUST" comment ever since I have been working for since 2006 as a "legal assistant" for Capitol International Productions Inc.(www.capitolint.com) /Tevis Entertainment, Inc.(www.tevisentertainment.com) (National/Local Bands) I can "wholeheartedly" without "ANY" doubt in my mind "EVER" doubt/have "total respect" for the "WHO", "WHAT" and "WHY" and "WHEN" of the "MUSIC INDUSTRY" throughout the world..!~

(c) 1993 -2011

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Peace, Happiness, L.O.V.E~

God Bless Always :angel:

:rollingpeace::rollingpeace:

By The Way..."For "ALL" of those MANY "so called" Organizations, Entities, Subsidaries that are interested in MY/OUR endorsment..."F.A.C.T"..! "UNLESS "YOU", "YOUR" ORGANIZATION, and or subjected to but "NOT" limited to posess a "LEGAL NON-PROFIT/LICENSED QUALITIES"..."I/WE" Are "NOT" "Totally AND Wholeheartedly I.N.T.E.R.E.S.T.E.D..!" (c) 1993 -2011

?"Our "Children" Are The Future...Our "Elderly" Are The Future..."KEEP" Helping To Heal The World...KNOWLEDGE "IS" GROWTH...EDUCATION "IS" THE KEY..!"~ (c) 1993 - 2011

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BTW: MJJ Community...I/WE will "NEVER" "EVER" forget "YOU"..! (c) 2009

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Peace, Happiness, L.O.V.E~

God Bless Always :angel:

:rollingpeace::rollingpeace:

April 14, 2009: "I spent a lot of time at this particular orphange and I know most of these children very well." Michael Jackson (c) 1993 - 2011

http://youtu.be/_Pmam2CSO_o


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Peace, Happiness, L.O.V.E~

God Bless Always :angel:

:rollingpeace::rollingpeace:

April 14, 2009 Continue: And here's more. P.S. some are quite graphic but please take the time to look through them. Michael Jackson (c) 1993 -2011

http://youtu.be/reTJ_28J6K0


April 14, 2009 Continue: Be blessed and don't cry TOO much. I cry enough over them as it is. Michael Jackson (c) 1993 - 2011


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Peace, Happiness, L.O.V.E~

God Bless Always :angel:

:rollingpeace::rollingpeace:

 

[Ape]

Hello,

I don't want to pick on you or anything, that is not my intention, but I do have questions for you Susie so that I can understand better. What do you hope to achieve or accomplish with these posts? I ask because for me, they are very difficult to understand. I'll assume that it is MJ you had been speaking with because I can't tell one way or another so I will give the benefit of the doubt and believe. Still I just don't understand what you are saying with the posts. Are you wanting to show us that you believe you are MJs lady in the dark, or just that you spoke with him online regularly for the past couple decades? Are you wanting to show that he wasn't alone and lonely because he did have friends? I'm just trying to understand. Just in case it doesnt come through this post, I am being sincere. My spirit is one of kindness in this post. Sometimes it has been frustrating to me because I just don't get what you are doing or your meaning behind any of it. I don't consider myself a dumb person, but I just don't get it. I would like to though, so that is why I'm posting this. I am interested to hear. If your rather not reply in here, I welcome a private message. Thank you

 

[Ashtanga]

for me, they are very difficult to understand.

I don't consider myself a dumb person, but I just don't get it. I would like to though, so that is why I'm posting this. I am interested to hear. If your rather not reply in here, I welcome a private message. Thank you

That's how I feel... :fear:

 

[Sdeidjs]

Hello,

I don't want to pick on you or anything, that is not my intention, but I do have questions for you Susie so that I can understand better.

What do you hope to achieve or accomplish with these posts?

I ask because for me, they are very difficult to understand. I'll assume that it is MJ you had been speaking with because I can't tell one way or another so I will give the benefit of the doubt and believe. Still I just don't understand what you are saying with the posts. Are you wanting to show us that you believe you are MJs lady in the dark, or just that you spoke with him online regularly for the past couple decades? Are you wanting to show that

he wasn't alone and lonely because he did have friends?

I'm just trying to understand. Just in case it doesnt come through this post, I am being sincere. My spirit is one of kindness in this post. Sometimes it has been frustrating to me because I just don't get what you are doing or your meaning behind any of it. I don't consider myself a dumb person, but I just don't get it. I would like to though, so that is why I'm posting this. I am interested to hear. If your rather not reply in here, I welcome a private message. Thank you

I thought these perticular question (s) were rectified. Apparently not, so I will answer them again.

"It's all about Re-storing Mr.Michael Jackson's and HIS Integrity, Honor, and Legacy to where it should have "ALWAYS" Stayed..!"

"Righteousness, God's role as saviour; God is a "righteous saviour"; (Isaiah 61) and a deliverer. (Isaiah 46:12-13) The righteous are those who trust that they will be vindicated by the Lord God. (Psalm 37:12-13)."

"The Journal of Reflection & Thoughts TRUTH OF JUSTICE NOTHING IS BLACK OR WHITE IS an "autographical/biographical" story of "actual events" that took place throughout my/our journey in H.I.S.t.o.r.y..!" (c) 1993 - 2011

Peace, Happiness, L.O.V.E

God Bless Always :angel:

:rollingpeace::rollingpeace:

 

[Ape]

Thank you Susie for answering. I think we all do respect Michael here. Might these quotes be better put to use then where people are disrespecting him instead of where he is already loved, honoured and respected? Unless maybe you think we don't?

Also, you may have answered it before already but your answers tend to get hidden among all the flourishes of your posts.

 

[Sdeidjs]

Thank you Susie for answering. I think we all do respect Michael here.

Might these quotes be better put to use then where people are disrespecting him instead of where he is already loved, honoured and respected?

Unless maybe you think we don't?

Also, you may have answered it before already but

your answers tend to get hidden among all the flourishes of your posts

.

Your welcome...

Goodness gracious Ape;

MJJ Community is NOT the only place I post my/our reflection of thoughts..!~

As far as your comment: "Unless maybe you don't think we don't..?

Ape, YOU are kidding me right..?

With regards to my answers:

It is up to the "individual" to decifer FACT/TRUTH from the Evil Ways Of The Wicked..!

I am the messenger, not the jury, nor the judge..!~


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Peace, Happiness, L.O.V.E

God Bless Always :angel:

:rollingpeace::rollingpeace:

 

[Ape]

Oops, yes I did assume this was the only place you post it. How does it all get received at other places you post it. Is any progress being made?

So when it's posted here, you are more just advertising that it's out there to read and spread than trying to defend his legacy and honour etc?

Do you post these where he is being disrespected like tabloids or non fan sites?

(sorry I know this is all off topic but thought it may help all our understanding with this)

 

[Sdeidjs]

Oops, yes I did assume this was the only place you post it.

How does it all get received at other places you post it. Is any progress being made?

So when it's posted here, you are more just advertising that it's out there to read and spread than trying to defend his legacy and honour etc?

Do you post these where he is being disrespected like tabloids or non fan sites?

(sorry I know this is all off topic but thought it may help all our understanding with this)

"1.) That depends on who is reading the posts, the "raw" Journal, some fans are typically brutal/protective. Others (fans, general public), are doubtful, intrigued, curious, perplexed, some don't say anything, astonished, and then there are those who complement for being there.

2.) I/We decided to share/include MJJ Community, and All the fans/admirers of Mr.Michael Jackson because each and everyone of you are a "Very Important" part of WHAT and WHO "HIS" Heart has "ALWAYS" been about.

3.) It's more about exposing the "TRUTH, INTREGRITY, HONOR" of one of thee most purest, kindest, compassionate, caring, etc. human being that was/continues to be unjustifiably crucified, labeled, and down right misjudged for being unique, different.

4.) As Mr.Michael Jackson states so eloquently in http://youtu.be/mFWJfqLJ1JQ Tabloid Junkie.

I/WE have absolutely NO respect nor time to waste for "THAT" type of so called Journalism..!"


"WE" have the "tools" to achieve their rules..!"

Susie Deeds
(Author) (c) 1993 - 2011


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Peace, Happiness, L.O.V.E

God Bless Always :angel:

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[Ape]

So you aren't saying anything about you being his love in the dark by posting these snippets of conversation. You are just including us in what was shared. Sharing pieces of him with us BECAUSE we care about him and respect him (is what I'm understanding now). Whether we believe who you were talking with was MJ or not, you still share. He very well could be MJ. It sounds like you understand if people don't believe it's him though, so that's good. I think doubt often comes up because of the many imposters online not only pretending to be MJ, but pretending to be something other than themselves in general, even just changed from male to female or something like that. It happens online so the questioning does come up because to prove our identity online is fairly difficult to do no matter who you are.

I don't think you've shared anything overly personal from him. Plus because of the nature of the Internet being quite anonymous, his privacy is still quite protected because no one can prove that was him or not him. I hope you succeed in showing people who dont see it, that he's a good man.

 

[Ashtanga]

:fear:

 

[aliana101]

I don't understand what this thread is about. And last few pages made my eyebrow raise...
btw I came here from another thread because you said this thread died...I wanted to contribute but I'm confused lol

 

[Ape]

Sorry, pls disregard the last few pages. I was just trying to understand something and thought it might help to have in here instead of private messages.

Mainly the thread is about how people have seen, though lyrics, photos, and video of MJ the last decade or so, that maybe he has found love in someone. A romantic love rather than the love he has with his fans. So it's speculating on the meaning behind much of that.

Then we get sidetracked every so often. Please contribute and bring us on back!

 

[Sdeidjs]

This may eliviate some of the confusion/perplexity of the Who's, What's, Why's, and When's...

Introduction:
After deep consideration and many years of very coincidental past and present events that have continue to occur, the perseverance, and diligently that created the evolution of facts and circumstantial evidence presented in this journal will substantiate the reality of truth, the strength of trust, and the power of prayer.

As we begin to differentiate fact from fiction we come to understand how many of the variables that have escalated into the doubt, persecution, and judgment of a man that has been worked since he was five years old, a resume of impressive humanitarian efforts, and has continued to influence the culture of music through pop, rock, and soul. Whether or not we believe in the beauty of life, it is important to always remember that each and every one of us has been given the precious gift of life that should never be taken for granted.

Since Michael Jackson’s nightmare began in August of 1993, I, like so many thought why would a man that grew up with strict family values, a strong religious back round and has the traits of a true humanitarian destroy everything that he has worked so hard for? I knew without any doubt in my mind that this is a “very” uncharacteristic trait for Mr. Jackson would ever disrespect another human being by doing such erroneous and disgusting crime! I refused to accept the allegations as truth.
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Therefore, the morel and ethical obligation to assist a fellow human being has continued to give me strength, courage, and determination to achieve a solution to a nearly impossible battle of intense legalities, news media, and public opinion.
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In order for us to first understand the purpose we must first understand the legitimate nature of my history. My first association with this pop star became a reality when I was a young girl. From the first moment I laid eyes on the <?xml:namespace prefix = st1 ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com

</st1lace>Jackson 5 performing on the Ed Sullivan Show I knew that Michael Jackson had the staying power to become the icon that he is today. It wasn’t until 1977 did I start becoming involved in collecting memorabilia, corresponding, making friends, and learning how I can help others in need.
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In 1983 I was very blessed to be able to conceive and give birth to a healthy 7lb.13 ounce 21” beautiful baby boy. At age (3) three we were informed that he had a learning disability. I cannot tell you how difficult it was back then to get the assistance, acceptance, and compassion that a parent and a child needed from a society that felt children with learning disabilities could not function in a world that only accepted others that were normal. Although we have come along way since then, to this day, we as a society can be prejudice, cruel, and unjust to anyone that is different.
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Around 1988 my son asked me if we wrote Michael a letter if he would answer some questions for him. I said lets try. We sent a personal letter to MJJ Productions (parent company) and a few weeks later, we received a response from the man himself.

I thought how sweet of Mr. Jackson to respond to a little boy and a moms letter of thanks for being compassionate, and understand what we meant by being different.
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As time went on, I continued to be involved any way I could with volunteering, tutoring disabled children, helping others, corresponding, collecting, and educating myself how the internet, Prodigy, computers, and the music industry revealed itself. Back then the computer world was in her infancy.

When I look back in time, it strikes me as the beginning of a unique, intriguing experience that continues to haunt my reality and help me realize that anything in life is possible…
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As you research the context in which I am revealing in this original copy of The Journal Of Reflection & Thoughts TRUTH OF JUSTICE NOTHING IS BLACK OR WHITE I am confident that the reader will find a trilogy of coincidences, circumstantial evidence, and the TRUTH that will assist an unjustly accused human being, the news media, and society in determining whether these allegations are of malicious intent or not.
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Part One: Years of correspondence with MJJ Productions © 1995
Part Two: E-mails © 1995 - 2005
Part Three: HIStory, Past, Present, Future Book 1 – Michael Jackson
Blood On The Dance Floor – Michael Jackson
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By: Suzanne M. Deeds
Author © 2005
March 13, 2005
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We would like to take this opportunity to dedicate this manuscript to God, our Parents, our Ancestors, the Elderly, and the Children of the world for all your Love, Support, Courage, Inspiration, and Guidance you have shared with us.

For without you there would not have been we to become Love, Peace, and Harmony.
We thank you for being YOU..!
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The proceeds from The Journal Of Reflection & Thoughts TRUTH OF JUSTICE NOTHING IS BLACK OR WHITE” will be donated to “All The "Children" of the World Charities” and The Dailey Jackson Foundation for the "Elderly".
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As I sit here and stare at this blank page. I wonder how in the world I could help others come to understand the importance of evaluating the truth without bias. The world can be cruel, unkind but compassionate and understanding at the same time. As you will see, this journal has been an on going piece of work for several years.

Many people have asked if this manuscript is all that you say it is then why you haven’t turned it over to the authorities.

Why did you wait so long to go public?

To be honest, it was like that old saying “if it is too good to be true, then it probably is,” and I thought my goodness gracious, why me? This could not be. Could it? I truly thought someone was having fun at my expense. Not to mention, I didn’t want the world to think that it was about the money, being star struck, or having fifteen minutes of fame.

Therefore, to this day I have the originals in a safe place and began to narrate my personal experiences I had with Team Michael, MJJ Productions, Bob Jones, and a man that I corresponded with since May of 1993 that called himself Michael. As our friendship grew he eventually revealed his identity that he was the man himself.
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In May of 1962 I was born and proudly raised a strict Irish Catholic in the home of the Rock & Roll located in <st1lace w:st="on"><st1:City w:st="on">Cleveland</st1:City>, <st1:State w:st="on">Ohio</st1:State></st1lace>. There are many great admirers that have inspired me deeply throughout my life, my Parents, Ancestors, the Elderly, Children, Saint Mother Teresa, Princess Diana, and Mr. Michael Jackson. Therefore, it has always been about helping another and or others. Still having doubt with this whole experience I also had to keep in mind that whenever and whatever volunteer effort I initiated pertaining to Mr. Jackson such as the Heal the World Foundation, PR (Press Releases), AR (Artist Repertoire), legal, and being a watch dog on the internet was done with the utmost professional ethics and proper channels. So here again, this rare opportunity of correspondance could very well have been the King of Pop. There would times that I would repeatedly ask my most trusted best friend of thirty years Kim about her thoughts on what was happening. She was just as baffled as I was, and to this day, she says “we will just have to wait and see.”
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As the days, months, and years went on the correspondences through the United States Postal Service, faxes, the internet, and telephone calls continued. Michael and I started to become more and more open, trusting, and closer friends. It was like we were meant to be connected in some way. Almost like twins that are never separate.
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At any rate, back in the day, there was an invitation only Michael Jackson concert that was to take place at Madison Square Gardens <ST1</ST1<ST1</ST1<ST1</ST1in <st1:City w:st="on"><st1lace w:st="on">New York City</st1lace></st1:City>.

It’s funny; I think back how we talked privately about my dreams of visiting <st1:City w:st="on"><st1lace w:st="on">New York City</st1lace></st1:City> someday. But we both knew that I would not or could not really afford to go at the time if I did not have a valid reason or would allow another to pay my way. However, as reality would have it, this invitation only event was cancelled.

To this day, like so many, I continue to find these experiences very coincidental and mind boggling. (I know what you are thinking right about now, everything your thinking I have already thought.)

I was not told of this cancellation until I arrived in my hotel room that is located right across the street from the Madison Square Gardens<ST1</ST1<ST1</ST1<ST1</ST1. Keep in mind, being the analytical and logical thinker that I am, At the time, I really couldn’t afford to travel out of state in the first place, I am all alone in a big city where I have never been before, I didn’t think I knew anyone in New York City, and everything that was happening seemed to be happening way too fast, not to mention, too good to be true. Therefore, I made the most logical and rational decision to leave <st1:City w:st="on">New York City</st1:City> on the next Continental Airline flight back home to <st1lace w:st="on"><st1:City w:st="on">Cleveland</st1:City>, <st1:State w:st="on">Ohio</st1:State></st1lace>.

To this day I am still kicking myself for leaving New York City so quickly but, I have to look at the bright side, at least I had the opportunity to experience visiting a wonderful city, even if was only for an hour. I can honestly say that I had the most expensive piece of authentic New York Cheese Cake and slice of Pizza that anyone could possibly have.

It wasn’t until I arrived back home and received that phone call did I start to question my decision to leave without even giving this unique opportunity to blossom. At that moment, did I realize that everything started to make more and more sense. Oh sure people would make their comments, derogatory and just plain mean remarks. But it really didn’t matter what people said or say.

As one of the great masters suggested; Ignorance is truly a wit of a fool! I know what I experienced, what is of reality, what I learned, what is most important, and what I/WE hold in OUR possession.

I am not a judge, nor a jury to decide the past and present facts in the People vs. Michael Jackson. I would not nor could not ever prejudge or judge another based on speculation or half truths.

What I/WE do posses are indeed the original copies of the actual journal entries of communication with Team Michael, MJJ Productions, Bob Jones and a Michael.

Although I had to simplify/edit the most important issues in this journal, I hope we as a society are open minded enough to understand my position with helping you teach me how to share a “true story” that will surely have controversy and doubt to its authenticity.
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<o>CHRONOLOGICAL EVENTS

February 3, 1993
First initial documented letter to Mr. Jackson at MJJ Productions

February 23, 1993
Pledge/Donation to Heal the World Foundation

March 1993: Thank You letter from Mr. Jackson

March 1993: Response from the man himself (personally autograph photo)

PLEASE NOTE: If there are any individuals that are interested in viewing the United States Copyright original scanned copies of Part 1 of 2 "The Journal Of Reflection & Thoughts TRUTH OF JUSTICE NOTHING IS BLACK OR WHITE (Proceeds of which will be donated to two "prearranged" "mutually agreed" upon charites. All The Children Of The World Charities AND The Dailey Jackson Foundation For The "Elderly" (c) 1993 - 2011

You can find them at www.myspace.com SDeidjs - photo's
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<o>Peace, Happiness, L.O.V.E </o>
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<o>God Bless Always :angel:</o>
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[Sdeidjs]

Sorry, pls disregard the last few pages. I was just trying to understand something and thought it might help to have in here instead of private messages.

Mainly the thread is about how people have seen, though lyrics, photos, and video of MJ the last decade or so, that maybe he has found love in someone. A romantic love rather than the love he has with his fans. So it's speculating on the meaning behind much of that.

Then we get sidetracked every so often. Please contribute and bring us on back!

Define L.O.V.E..?

http://youtu.be/nI_WEHGv9kI


(c) 1993 -2011

Peace, Happiness, L.O.V.E

God Bless Always :angel:

:rollingpeace::rollingpeace:

 

[Lisha]

What is it that Itsjustmenothim posted once in here? I'm wondering if he might have a point:

Even if he had met someone he wanted wouldn't she be confused. If there are a bunch of women in the dark thinking their the one then he better have a flashlight ready to find her.

Maaan, this thread takes more twists and turns!

I think I'm gonna go hit the sack and call it a night. I'm beat. Hahaha.

 

[Autumn II]

Susie, I am SO sorry. Really, I am. But, this thread is about fantasy, and deciphering song-lyrics, and writings, and it's about romance. I'm not exactly doubting that you, at some point, had communications with Michael. Actually many people did? I do feel your pain at this terrible loss, and all of our pain. (In the last couple of years of Michael's life, there were actually many "imposters" who took advantage of people online, and there is really NO way to tell, in the end?)

(edit) I decided to edit this a bit. But Susie, you do seem to be in distress, and I hope that you are ok?

I am concerned about your remarks about "mutually agreed upon charities." I sense that you have some legal experience? Then surely you should know that a "charity" to be legitimate, must have a 501 (c) 3 designation, in order to be able to collect donations that are not taxable? Further, the only LEGITIMATE charities having to do with Michael, are managed through the estate, as per his will. If you are actually trying to collect money about this, then eventually, that could cause you some problems!

I DO wish you all the best, and that you can find peace with all of this?

With that said, I think this is the most amazing thread on the board. It's so wonderful to read all of your speculations, and deep, DEEP, thinking. I look forward to reading the next posts?

 

[Lily]

:fear:

I know how you feel :wtf: lol

This thread at one time was something interesting, intriguing, imaginative and in some instances the discussions were pretty intense, beautiful, silly at times and fun...and now??? the positive energy is off and it's just nonsensical.

 

[Ape]

Sorry. I just wanted to clarify what was often confusing and frustrating for me and thought that others might benefit from it as well. Maybe I'm wrong. I know it was off on a tangent and not with the spirit of this thread but it keeps coming up and making people uncomfortable so for me the best way to deal with that isn't to beat around the bush (hope I didnt do that) but to try to understand because maybe I'm misjudging without seeing the whole picture. I wanted to know why Susie kept posting them here. So I asked. I did so in the thread instead of private because I thought others felt how I had so maybe we could spread some understanding and help each other out somehow but I didn't want to do that while feeling annoyed so I gave the benefit of the doubt and asked with compassion when I felt that sincerely. I've had great talks with Susie in chat in the past. I don't know what else to say.

This thread does seem to go best when we don't speculate in WHO that love in the dark might be and is kept somewhat at a distance from reality. It felt strange even when his ex-wives got brought up in the thread because that made it feel too real and a bit like we were invading his privacy and I think that's why susies letters feel strange in here because if it is him (or not) it begins to feel too much like prying. It's not always comfortable in this thread nor in this fan world. Where should the boundaries be drawn? What do we believe? Is it ok to speculate? Is it gossip or is it just discussion about a man we all admire and care about?

What is the show, and what is his life? Is it one and the same? How much of that "dazzle dazzle" is him ("simply Michael Jackson") and how much is purely the entertainer "MICHAEL JACKSON"?

 

[Sdeidjs]

Susie, I am SO sorry. Really, I am. But, this thread is about fantasy, and deciphering song-lyrics, and writings, and it's about romance. I'm not exactly doubting that you, at some point, had communications with Michael. Actually many people did? I do feel your pain at this terrible loss, and all of our pain. (In the last couple of years of Michael's life, there were actually many "imposters" who took advantage of people online, and there is really NO way to tell, in the end?)

(edit) I decided to edit this a bit. But

Susie, you do seem to be in distress, and I hope that you are ok?

I am concerned about your remarks about "mutually agreed upon charities." I sense that you have some legal experience? Then surely you should know that a "charity" to be legitimate, must have a 501 (c) 3 designation, in order to be able to collect donations that are not taxable? Further, the only LEGITIMATE charities having to do with Michael, are managed through the estate, as per his will. If you are actually trying to collect money about this, then eventually, that could cause you some problems!

I DO wish you all the best, and that you can find peace with all of this?

With that said, I think this is the most amazing thread on the board. It's so wonderful to read all of your speculations, and deep, DEEP, thinking. I look forward to reading the next posts?

Thank you for sharing, and for your concern, but with all do respect;

I have been to the self taught School/College of Hard Knox AND College/Universities of Higher Education to present.

I am "very well" aware of the "legalities" and "proper protocal" of Ohio/California Probate Court and the United States Legal/Business System.

Suzanne M. Deeds
sdeidjs@aol.com

PROFESSIONAL SUMMARY STATEMENT

 

[Lisha]

Anyone who finds the need to post repeatedly their "credentials" and anything else that would "defend" them or give them statue before others there is usually something going on that is not quite right.

Susie, I can't seem to get you to understand that the more you post in such a way the less credible you become. I know you are intelligent, but for some reason you are not able to assimilate this simple truth.

Maybe you can understand this saying and how it might apply,

"Less is more."

The less you post here about your accomplishments and the less you post about any association you may have had with Michael Jackson, the more you will be respected.

And the more you contribute to this thread in ways that has caused this thread to flourish all along, in the ways that AllForMJ, Moddie, SoS, Ape, and others have modeled...the more you will be respected. Because then we will feel you are more of a part of this thread family and not here for your own agenda (even if you feel it is representing MJ's wishes as well).

 

[Lorraine]

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