MP what you said about her waking up and realizing that she loves him (which I imagine she already knew lol) made me wonder what it must feel like to wake up and realize that HE loves/loved HER Can you 'imagine?
All of you have stimulated lots of food for thought :brow:
If the current "she" (yes, if there is a "she") is, as the song Fall Again and other songs suggests, is someone from the past, who "ran away" as Fall Again and other songs also suggest, she too had to be uncertain at the time (since he has so many questions it shows that not a lot of two-way communication was going on) and perhaps back then, at the height of his career she felt that even if he was in her life for a millisecond, that she wouldn't matter to him and felt that he'd quickly forget about her if she quickly left, and perhaps never would have expected to hear about herself in his songs which could partly explain why it took so many songs for him to "get through" (although I'm not sure I buy the idea of him thinking he was clearly communicating to her either).
When looking at what kind of person would "up and run away" from him of all people, I can only imagine a person afraid of something, and since MJ is as far from being a monster as a person can get, I can't see her looking him in the face and doing that so I am going to assume that it wasn't quite the way it seemed or felt to him at the time.
All that to say that if she has now seen herself in music since the releasing of One More Chance, it had to have been a surprise to her, demanding her full attention on, as MP said, trying to distinguish, not only her feelings, but his "messages" in the music and whether they're even meant for her and which are and which are not.
Michael's talent for sounding like he's talking to one person has been apparant from day one, so I agree that it would take a whole lot more than the usual attention for her to get to a point of KNOWing that he's talking to her.
Another thing she'd have to distinguish at this time is whether perhaps he has been singing to her primarily to "complete the past" just so that he can move forward with his life and/or whether perhaps even he didn't realize that was what he was even doing at the time that he was making the songs. To me, a song seems to have the same effect as a photograph. Just because a person looked or sounded like that at the given moment, doesn't mean they will always and everyone knows that what happens a lot of times when a person has left another without warning is a human need for closure.
If MJ has just been in need of closure and has received it then what MP and others have suggested about him moving on would seem a possibility, given the fact that "she" is undoubtedly middle aged by now and someone he doesn't know in the same way that he knows people he interacts with and who are his physical 3-D companions throughout his days.
MJ is surrounded by beautiful, eligible, qualified, young women who can easily give him those other ten children to make the 13 he said he wanted years ago and may still desire, in order to carry on his legacy for the 'immortality' we all know he desires to create in the world.
If that is the case she, along with everyone else who loves him (especially if she is truly his 'Ben-friend') would undoubtedly rejoice at his happiness, even if it takes her a while to get her "life back". I'd think someone in her position in a case like that, would be in need of closure too. Especially if one of the things he 'got' in getting his closure was that she didn't realize anything until now. Yes, MP, its gotta be painful, I concur.
If, on the other hand, since having a family and coming of age since he set that (13 children) goal, (which it seems he could have had by now if he wanted them because nothing stopped him from having the ones he has) and he does still feel as he felt when he released songs like Fall Again and the woman in question is anything like him in ways and values that attract people to eachother (eg., spiritually inclined, creative, exuberant, lively and fun, old fashioned) then by her being spiritually inclined she is probably seeking God in all her trials and dealing with what often goes with that which is possibly a fair amount of sufferring too, because God said that "in the world, you will have tribulation".
Another thing is that one thing about men generally is that relationship problems a lot of times, cause them to focus more on career goals, whereas women tend to get "paralyzed" into resolving problems of love. It could be difficult if not next to impossible for her to focus effectively on her "here and now" and her own goals whilst revisiting the [pain of] the past, (hers and his) and trying to distinguish his communications of the "present". If she is "old fashioned" like he is, and only wanted to be with him, then she may be treating his absence like old fashioned women do who have lost a mate. They often live without anyone. It is a different matter for a woman to live without a man than it is for a man to live without a woman. He can have numerous surrogates at every turn whereas it can be unadvisable for a female to have surrogate men in her life because often, it eventually involves a price that a chaste woman would not entertain "paying" and may avoid altogether which leads to a limited, limiting life.
Speaking of career, if she is primarily a creative type like he, plus has "personality", then her strong suit could easily be communication and if that is her field, she also might feel utterly vulnerable to once again, the "help" of men, because it often comes with a "price" and I don't think MJ's done any songs to help with that lol. Men as mentors for women can be a tricky thing so she might would be having some issues in terms of career as well, no matter what field she's in.
It seems though that (unlike the beautiful lyic in the song IJCSLY says), they obviously can live without eachother because they have, with greater or lesser success.
If she has spent energies she needs for surviving, on trying to distinguish all the confusions that MP brought up, there's no telling the price she's had to pay for not being fully engaged in her personal "here and now". One has to be fully "present" to simply go to work everyday, pay bills, handle responsibities to family, friends, etc. and I doubt anyone wants to hear, "hang on, I have to listen to this song again and again" :lol: At some point I'm sure that everyone would be looking at her like: :errm: It seems that if she has a lot of people relying on her to keep her full attention on the "here and now" then either she's not paying MJ very much attention at all or her she's skating on thin ice in her every day life.
Perhaps that's one of the lessons this relationship has had for both them. That God is the only one who will see each of them through even though they inspire one another from a distance, to know that as a human here on earth, they individually, are not alone, that there is a twin soul, who understands.
Michael's reliance on God was strengthend and is seeing him through to victory and so the same will undoubtedly be true of her in the end, as "all things work togethr for the good of those who love God". Even with a mate in a person's life, reliance on God is everyone's lesson at the end of the day.
oh well my 2 cents.
I guess this is good a time as any for a song ...
Enjoy
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aDSh5wUtXt4&feature=related
http://www.mp3lyrics.org/b/bette-midler/from-a-distance/
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