Personally, I love the wait. It shocks me that I love the wait of the new MJ era when I am naturally an "impatient" person by fault. I guess that I chose to wait because I still like surprises. I still like to know what MJ has in store for the fans and public. I still want to know people's reactions to what MJ will show us.
I have thought about how the new CD will sound like. Will it sound like his previous classics or another version of Invincible or trying to "fit in" to what is the norm in music? MJ is an innovator and a musical genius so how would that all play out in a industry that is so full of untalented, forgettable music acts? Will MJ do the norm or stand out? We would assume that he would because he always does. However, what if he does something that is the norm that we would not normally see him do? I rather focus on waiting for the CD and thinking of the possibilities of where MJ would take his music life journey instead of literally complaining about the wait of the CD.
I still believe that his CD will drop by the end of this year. (I am being positive.
) It can't come out by the end of May or the beginning of June because a single would have been out by now. So, I like this calm before the storm.
I remember the days of the hype of the Invincible CD (1999-2002) and I remember being a member of the KOP board when that board was meaniful. I remember the various "insiders" LTTW, sugar rose, Shawdowdancer, cartman, etc. (Yeah, I put them out there because I can. ) I remember the long threads all about the CD, how MJ was going to be promoted, and what songs were going to be on the CD. We all wanted so much news about it. Many fans (excluding me) befriended these "insiders" because those fans wanted the exclusive news. Those times were exciting, it really was. However, I do not think we saw what was going to happen after it all died down. When the mess happened with Invincible, it was very disappointing. I was really hoping that something can happen. I remember when I was a member of the current version of the KOP board and this poster, who is a buddy of mines, believed that those insiders came on the boards to sabotage Invincible. (it was the poster's opinion.) When I look back at it, it kind of made sense. MJ wanted to keep things private and I do not think he knew until he was told that these people that were posting on the boards, were telling his fans secrets of the CD. We all know MJ loves his privacy so it must have hurted him when he found out about it. Also, those posters never surfaced again when the uncalled for trial happened. I assumed that they were fans of the man and been around the man. So, when the man was down, where were they? It all came into retrospect in the end. So, I support the silence and the fact there are no "insiders" and no news on the CD. I like the fact that unlike Rodney, Will is not talking to every single media person about the CD. If he does talk to the media, he knows that he can only say what he is suppose to say. With Rodney, he did not know when to shut up and you noticed, regardless of the rumors, that Rodney might not be working on the new CD. So, I like the quietness.
And I know from experience, u'll never stop wanting stuff from MJ. He'll suck you right back in. Right when I thought i was done with MJ fandom and all that...he pulls me in again. Once a MJ fan always a MJ fan.
That is the truth. During the lack of promotion of Invincible, I was actually angry with MJ. (Which is hard for me to even admit because I can never get angry with Michael.) This was the CD that was finally going to have music that was great and wonderful. I felt cheated because as a fan, I am supporting him and I waiting for stuff to happened, but there was nothing. It was all bickerness and do this rally, and get mad at that fool Tommy Mottola, and the media trashing him like he killed someone. It was just too much for me at that time. I been through 1993 and the era of the questionable marriages, but this was something else. I just decided that maybe I should stop being a fan. Then, I noticed myself going back to the boards, still liking the man and talking to his fans. I felt a bit selfish when I realized what I was doing or attempting on doing. I slowly got to understand that being a fan is a choice, not a chore. You either love the man or you do not. Yeah, that dangling of Blanklet and the Bashir mess angered me a lot because MJ knows better, but usually musicial geniuses have issues and we all have issues so whatever. Mike makes mistakes and I can't damn him for that because I always make mistakes. LOL. So, I have decided in 2002, to be a true blue fan like I was back in the day. The trial made me an even stronger fan. In a lot of ways, I am glad that I went through that period of doubting my fanhood because I had to make a choice to be on his side or not. I believe in the saying that if you have nothing to believe in, you will fall for anything. That statement is very true and I am glad that I made the decision of supporting Michael and not the decision of trashing someone based on total bull----. Also, I was like 18 years old, so I was young and naive. That is my excuse. LOL.
I also remember Michael mania. I think for each fan that have experineced that time, it is different for them. For me, it was the Bad and Dangerous eras. I remember a time when everyone, literally, were fans of the man. I remember a time when I did not feel "ashamed" of being a fan. I remember when I was in the 3rd grade back in 1992/1993 when this boy that I went to school with did his MJ moves in the talent show or talent assembly. (I cannot remember what they were called.) I remember when everyone had Moonwalker and when I was in high school how it seems that everyone had or seen Moonwalker in some point in their lives. I am glad that I remember that time and have experieneced it. I am sorry for the members who did not experinced that time. You guys could have experienced that time but the media was busy trashing him. So, that is not any of you guys fault. I hope you guys will when his new music comes out.
