Maria, I'm so sorry to have missed this thread for such a long time. I guess I now know why I was drawn to check this part of the forum.
From personal experience, I can sympathize with you about what you're going through. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.
I don't know how things in your life are going now, but I do pray that they are better and will get better. Your mother must be a good person and you're an awesome daughter for putting your life on hold. I wish there were more love like this in the world between children and their parents, butt here isn't, which makes your story all the more touching.
God Bless you both and I will be praying for you... You will get through this and so will she. Keep The Faith and never stop believing. If you need or want ANYthing at all, please message me, OK?
I love you.
Cassandra
Michaholic...Thank you so much for your prayers and support.
As you so well say,my mom is a good person.In fact,she is an amazing person that fought all her live to make her children be someone.
Yes i agree that there should be more love between parents and children.It is the most beautiful bond we can have,the love i feel for my mother is so strong and unconditional,that i would do anything to save her.
My life now does not resemble to what it used to be before my mom beomes sick.In 2006,before june,i was working and saving money to go to USA and be with my boyfriend.
Then on the 23rd of june,stain john's night,my mom was fighting for her life in a ICU,and i was praying that she would make it,because i couldn't see myself without her.
For 15 days she was fighting death.On my birthday,in july,i was allowed to go to ICU and be with her,because she kept calling for me.It was a day to forget.But one thing that gave me strengh,was turning 33 back them and thinking about Jesus.he died with 33 years old,and i was going to the worst momento of my life at 33.I remember i spent most of the time praying.But My mother only came home in August and with lots of problems.She can't walk for herself,she has double vision,and even her behaviour is affected.There only 2 things we could do...either my mom would go to home,or i would quit my job to take care of her.I quit my job to take care of her,and since then untill now,it has been lots of ups and downs,i was weak lots of times,i needed help several times,but there's not a moment i regret and i would do all again if needed.
In the end of 2008,i found this part time job as a english teacher that i love,and thank God i can save a bit of money.I only work 2 days a week.But those 2 days,are my best theraphy.
(of course in the mean time,i take care of my mother 24/7.).
Hopefully in the end of this year i will be able to go to see my boyfriend.But of course it will all depend on my mom's health.
Thank you so so much for caring,and offering help.
Believe me...it is because of tthe people in this forum,that i can still have faith,that i can still have strengh.You all here care and support much more,than my real family.
All my love
Maria.HUGS
She just can't move without crying... She's been wanting to kill herself, but I don't let her be alone to do it... I lose so many nights of sleep sitting next to her while she sleeps, making sure she's still breathing... I know what you're going through... This is my third time, but for my Mom, there's a bit more hope. I know what she's going through isn't quite the same, but it's comparible, so I especially feel closer to you, sweetheart.