blue_eyed_belle...thank you so so much for your post.Even though what you said was not new to me as you said,it was good to read it.Yes posting here helps way much more than i can say.This community,cares way much more about me and my mother thanmy real family.
I feel sorry because of my mother that misses her family...But i learned the hardest way that we can't force others to do something that they don't want.If they are forced to do it,they do it so wrong.
Michaholic...your idea of a nurse is not possible for 2 reasons mainly.
first,my mom would not like a stranger to take care of her things for her.
second,it is very very expensive,andthere's no way i could afford such a thing.
movingcoolcat...how can demand my family or anyone to help?
When we have a family that simply dosen't care,that ignores completly someone,unless my mom is in the hospital,because it is very thoughtfull to go to the hospital when a relative is there,how can i ask or demand whatever?
I do know that i must take care of me if i want to take care of my mother.
I do my best to take care of me.But it's about to make 3 years in june that i stopped living for myself,and started to live according to my mother's needs.
I don't regret aminute what i am doing for her.She is the person i love the most in this world.I only wish i didn't feel so tired.
I am talking multivitamines everyday.But i guess that medicins can't make miracles.Or at least help me as much as i want.
"Being nice, and being kind is good. But sacrificing yourself- your life, and your health is not being good. There has to be a balance"
Can you please tell me how do i find the way to change this?how can i make the balance?because anytime i try to ask for help,i am ignored,avoided and even criticezed.
My family doctor is waiting for the results of the exams that i will make to have another talk with my brothers and my father.As much as i love what she is doing,both me and her know that it is a waste of time because noone cares or listens to what my doctor says.
The only way i see it,is to go somewhere and leave my mother to her luck.
i could never do something like that.It would make me worst because i would never rest or have peace,knowing that my mother is not well.
I appreciate very much everything you said because it is so true.
Like you say,the reality of things is something i am the only one to know,and believe me it is not nice or easy to deal with at all.
You are right when you say that i am alone with everything.But you know what?better alone than with someone that makes things even worst than they are.
Also,i woudn't trade my friends in here for anything.As sad as this can seem in a way,it is here that i get the strengh and help i need.
My mother has a lot of ups and downs,right now she is waiting for the results of her breathing proofs that should have come today,but for some reason that i can't understand,didn't.
I already felt sad,mad,frustrated,and it didn't help at all.(not that i thought it would).
All iwant to say to you and everybody in here,is how thankfull i am for all the love,support and prayers.I truly feel that if it wasn't it,i wouldn't be here in this world for a long time now.
