I am so sorry for the people who lost their family and friends in that awful day, but Michael's death is devastating to me. I cried like have never cried before in my life. It was as if someone yanked my heart out of my chest. Michael was a gift to humanity that reached into our very heart and soul through the message that he gave us. It was one of hope and love and light. It was a message that urged us to do right by each other. Until now, when I think about him or what he suffered, I will cry like a baby. I don't want how I could get rid of the pain, I missed him everyday. :weeping:
You described well how I feel. I have never felt something this horrible in my life. And after loving him with all my soul for so many years, I always knew that if I lived to see the day when I turned on CNN to that news.... that I would be destroyed, shattered, utterly devasted. I couldn't imagine how I'd have gone on. And man did I have that right, from that first horrible moment I collapsed onto the couch. OMG, no. So personally, MJ being gone is
definitely more impactful. My God, it is. The world is not the same and never will be without Michael here with us. I still have moments when I can't believe this is reality. :no:
That said, I can see that for some 9/11 is at the top of the list because it was a great loss of life and was
such a shock (like MJ for us) and because of the actions that it spawned (more death, more destruction, fear, religious hatred, on and on). As for the shock part, I mean
America being attacked like that? It was like being thrown into an alternate and insane universe for people across the world. In fact, I realized this summer that 9/11 and MJ dying are similar in that respect. It's like one moment you're suddenly thrown into a parallel universe, thinking this simply
cannot be reality, any second you're going to wake up. Remember the people jumping from the buildings and the chaos? Especially watching the towers fall to oblivion. It's history to us now, but jeeez, at the time
for months afterwards it was like
impossible. How could that happen?! That doesn't happen! Even in post-apocalyptic movies the steel is just
bent, but it remains standing! It's like MJ being gone in that respect... it was just not
comprehensible. Someone loved by soooo many, someone so wonderful, someone about to see us in London can't just be fine one minute and dead the next! I honestly had moments when I believed it could be possible that the sheer outpouring of love for him could bring him back, like revive him by some magic. Seriously. I had the thought. Who else has ever been loved by so many, so intensely at the time they crossed over? NO ONE. And we couldn't save him? Shocking again.
Yeah, so, sorry for rambling onto a weird tangent, but MJ and 9/11 ... jeesh, they're both up there at the top. But for me
personally... it's losing Michael :weeping: