^ Ah, Neeve, that
is a terrible dream
:hug: I had a similar one a couple of months ago, that he was somehow alive but then was going to die soon.
I'm kind of right there with those of you who say they feel unspiritual and/or disconnected today or this week. It's hard to meditate or take good care of yourself when all you want to do is punch a wall! :angry: But like I said before, that's one time when we need to do those things most. So I'm sending you all :heart: and :angel:
P.S. Sorry... venting rant warning.... I always wonder how we're supposed to take it ("you create your own reality", "you get IN what you give OUT", "ask and you shall receive", "The Secret", etc) when we are totally positive and happy and feel we're doing what we're supposed to do and just gushing love and positivity into a project (of any kind) and then it turns out to be our unexpected downfall in the end. It's like if you start a business with total joy, just knowing for certain that it's going to work out, trusting that the Universe shall provide, you do all the hard work and pour your heart into it, never doubting a thing and then something outside your control goes catastrophically wrong and destroys everything. Just using that scenario as a example because it happens to people everyday. I mean, how do you
take that? I don't buy that it's still all your fault. I mean, think about Michael... joy in motion, wanting to give all the love to children, to the world... and then ... you know what happened. That's an extreme case. How do we
take that? Over the years the only answer I can come up with is that it's some
lesson, some tribulation you and the universe have set up for yourself
on purpose that will somehow improve your soul growth or help others in the long run. You can't learn the tough stuff in a state of continual bliss... hardship teaches you the most? This too shall pass? Maybe the lesson is that you're NOT in as much control as you believe. Maybe the lesson is that you ARE, but you apparently still completely suck at the creation end of reality :lol:, like the "monster from the id" is still in control. Maybe the lesson is to survive with
love still inside, despite getting screwed by circumstance or mean people who suck. Or at least, that's what I always tell myself
I don't blame a deity for smiting me or whatnot. I guess I always believe it's some stupid plan. Hope I'm right in the end, or some sh*t's going DOWN on the other side when I get there:lmao: *just kidding*