Bee
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@Amy: That just teared me up. How amazing.... :heart:
I was really stressed and only made it in 1 minute left, so didn't have much...I actually feel worse now. Listened to an instrumental called Prayer For Peace (found it on the web a while ago, it's sort of an outtake thing for Dangerous?) to calm down and hold my ankh-necklace to get some comfort. Really strange how this necklace is becoming so 'important' to me. Anyways, so I looked at this picture where Michael looks actually quite sad but really pure...and just overthought all that I've seen in London. Trying to realize everyone doing this at the same time, trying to envision...but I was just too stressy to get deeper unfortunately.
When I was done I felt bad all of a sudden....not only for Michael but also for the point I'm at in my life now. Just wish I could feel some LOVE...like, real love...finally have a lover etc. Not only giving, but getting that admiration in return...all these insecurities about myself came up again. Ugh. I'm living my life the best I can and all that...what am I doing wrong? After 20 years I'm still not there where I want to be on several subjects. Ah well, that's a whole other topic though so won't go that road I guess.
Funny though, Amy, how you asked for everyones negativities to go away and yet here it comes piling up on me! Maybe needs to pile up before I can 'throw it away'? Hmm.
Sooo yeah...not much for me here.:no:
I was really stressed and only made it in 1 minute left, so didn't have much...I actually feel worse now. Listened to an instrumental called Prayer For Peace (found it on the web a while ago, it's sort of an outtake thing for Dangerous?) to calm down and hold my ankh-necklace to get some comfort. Really strange how this necklace is becoming so 'important' to me. Anyways, so I looked at this picture where Michael looks actually quite sad but really pure...and just overthought all that I've seen in London. Trying to realize everyone doing this at the same time, trying to envision...but I was just too stressy to get deeper unfortunately.
When I was done I felt bad all of a sudden....not only for Michael but also for the point I'm at in my life now. Just wish I could feel some LOVE...like, real love...finally have a lover etc. Not only giving, but getting that admiration in return...all these insecurities about myself came up again. Ugh. I'm living my life the best I can and all that...what am I doing wrong? After 20 years I'm still not there where I want to be on several subjects. Ah well, that's a whole other topic though so won't go that road I guess.
Funny though, Amy, how you asked for everyones negativities to go away and yet here it comes piling up on me! Maybe needs to pile up before I can 'throw it away'? Hmm.
Sooo yeah...not much for me here.:no: