New info from The Michael Jackson Tapes: SB: But I'm a big believer in marriage. So, when your relationship with Lisa started to fall apart was it very hard? Your idealism about the family, everything you believed in building the intimate family you always wanted, especially b/c you knew...
MJ: I wanted children and she didn't.
SB: She felt she had her kids.
MJ: Yeah, and she promised me that before we married, that would be the first thing we'd do was have children. So, I was brokenhearted and I walked around all the time holding these little baby dolls, and I'd be crying, that's how badly I wanted them. So I was determined to have children. It dissappointed me that she wouldn't keep her promise to me, you know?
After we got divorced she would hang out with my mother all the time.:scratch: I have all these letters saying, "I'll give you nine children. I'll do whatever you want,"and of course the press don't know all these stories and she just tried for months and months and I just became too hard hearted at that point. I closed my mind on the whole situation.
SB: So she thought maybe you could get back together?
MJ. Uh huh.
SB: But children were a major, major issue?
MJ: Of course.
SB: She had the kids and that was it.
MJ: She had hers and I wanted us to feel like we all were one big family and have more. Just...my dream is to have nine or ten children, that's what I want.
SB: You're still very young. Do you think that will happen?
MJ: Yeah.
SB: But it means getting married again.
MJ: Yeah.
SB: Are you happy to do that?
MJ: Uh huh...or adopt.
SB: Is it possible Michael, that you're attracting the wrong kind of girl b/c of your celebrity?
MJ: It's hard. That's why it's hard for me. It's hard. It's not easy for celebrities to be married.
SB: Do you think that you could only really marry celebrities so that they don't need you as much?
MJ: That helps in my opinion. And they understand what you go through. They've been there.