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Goodnight Michael

Tomorrow will be for you too.
I wish I could tell you how much I long for both of you (the three of you, actually) to walk this earth again. I miss you. I miss her. I miss him. I miss you all.

And I love you. I love you, I love you, I looooveeee you!!!!!!!

one more day
one more time
one more sunset...
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My Serenade

Your heart is like an island
I wish to have discovered before
Your voice is like an ocean
Where I never want to find the shore


Your heart beat is the music
That soothes me to sleep
Your bright smile in the memories
I will forever keep


Your breaths are like a breeze
Spreading love all around
Your dreams could embrace the sky
Without lifting a foot from the ground


Your strength embraces me
Like a majestic mountaintop
You're quietly in the distance
Pure love lifting me up


Your eyes are deep enough
To look in, till the end of eternity
Your faith is strong enough
To shine on the Worlds beauty


Your laughter is my serenade
Brings me smiles when I grieve
You're my trusted tree of life
To whom I'll always cleave
 
Michael, my sweetheart, I love you and I miss you terribly. I wish you were here with me. :cry: My love, I am getting ready for bed now, because my eyes are very tired, and I know I need to get some rest, but just know that I love you with all my heart, always and forever. Goodnight, my love, and I will be thinking of you.
 
Back Where I Belong

When I awoke this morning
Thought everything was a dream
Looking for you beside me
Alone, I held in my scream


Memories rushed in again
You were no longer living
Your soul left your body long ago
Without you my heart is grieving


Days are spent sleeping away
Nights searching for reasons why
Not finding comfort anywhere
I never got to say goodbye


It all happened without warning
You left on that cold June day
This memory will never leave me
Now to be with you I pray


When again we reunite
The angels will play our song
You will hold me in your arms
Finally back where I belong
 
Michael, my love, I am sorry that I didn't tell you goodnight on here last night. But you know I always say goodnight to you whether I say it here or not. I went to Church this morning and thought of you. I do hope you are okay, sweetheart and living it up in the glory of God. I love you. I really do. With all of my heart. Forever more. For all eternity. With every breath I take. With every fiber of my being. I am yours, completely and for all eternity. :heart:
 
Michael, my love, I am feeling extremely dizzy and weak right now, I feel like I can hardly concentrate. I am going to get ready for bed now. I really hope to dream of you and me together tonight. Goodnight, my love, I love you truly, madly and deeply. Always, and forever.
 
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I love you... and I still don't know how deep this love is, for it doesn't know an end.
Till we meet again. I miss you so much. I have hope. But even so... waiting hurts so much :cry:
 
Echoing Screams

Lost and alone no where to go
Many months now have passed me by
Days and nights they've moved so slow
Seeing your face wanting to cry
For so long your death I denied
Watching them tuck you in the ground
Yelling for you with no reply
Screams echoing the only sound
 
Michael, my love, I have to keep this a little short tonight because I am not feeling well. :cry: I feel so alone without you, and I really want you here with me. Please come and meet me in my dreams tonight. I need you, and I love you so much. Goodnight, my sweet love.
 
Without You

Doesn't matter where I turn
The ending is always the same
Heartache and pain at every turn
Guess I just can't play the game


Trying to find joy in little things
Some days it can't be done
No smiles to see upon my face
This fight of sadness won't be won


Feelings that dwell inside of me
Not knowing when they'll surface
Turning everything upside down
Releasing all their blackness


Sitting and wallowing in self-pity
Is something I try not to do
Sometimes it takes control of me
All I think about is life without you
 
Michael, love of my life, I can not believe it is 11 months without you. Words can not describe truly the sorrow I feel, the heartache and misery without you, my love. I am lost without you. There are not enough words to describe the grief that dwells within me. There are not enough words to describe the void in my heart and how much it aches without you. I miss you so much and I always will. You are the only one I have ever truly loved and cared about and you always will be. Well, my lovely one, I am so tired right now, and it really isn't that late now, but I should get ready to go to bed. I love you so very much, and I would just love to be able to spend time with you. Maybe you can come and visit me in my dreams so I can see you then. Goodnight, Michael. I love you more than you will ever know, always, and forever.
 
I am tired of hiding the pain.
I am tired of pretending I am fine, when I am not.

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Michael my eternal sweet L.♥.V.E. I can't believe it has been 11 horrible months now. And nothing has really change for me. Since that horrible June night when I had heard the most worst news ever about you. My depression is so bad now that I can't even handle listening to you like before. It was this afternoon where I had spent a good 20 minutes of listening to you. When I had started to really cried over you. I probably spent a good hour of really crying over you. I couldn't help it my L.♥.V.E. Which is why I can only now handle maybe just 3 songs of yours at the most. There have been a good couple days where I don't listen to you at all. Only because I just find it so to hard to listen to you now. And I just so very badly want to go back and to be able to watch and listen to you like I used to but I can't. And I just really miss seeing and listening to you so extremely much now. But the one thing I did appreciate is you coming to visit me last night in that dream I had of you. But it was just another dream where I had wish it had lasted forever. Because it seems like whenever I have a wonderful dream about you. It just makes me want to be with you more and more anymore. Because I just want to be happy so badly again and you really were my happiness Michael. And it has been almost a year now since I was last happy. All I do anymore since that horrible day is sadly and miserably think about how much I truly miss you. And just wish for death to come to me so I can finally be happy again. I really do try and not to think about it too much Michael. By drowning my deep pain and sadness in to computer or video games. Especially my Sims games which has been one of my biggest comforts since that horrible day. But that really does only last for so long until I am back missing you terribly. So goodnight and sweet dreams Michael my Eternal Moonwalking Angel of L.♥.V.E. I really do truly forever L.♥.V.E. and miss you and I always forever and a day will. ♥:heart: :wub:
 
Alone

Sitting alone again this night
Not another person is around
Feeling silence overtaking me
Not hearing a single sound


Loneliness seeps into my heart
Tears running down my face
Needing someone with me tonight
Comfort of knowing I am safe


When I'm all by myself
Thoughts in my mind race
Thinking of times with you
Trying to find a happy place


The quite really pains me
When nothing is what I hear
Needing the sound of your voice
Being alone my biggest fear


Trying to get through the night
Just knowing nobody is there
Waiting on the sun to rise
I hate feeling this despair
 
Oh Michael, my love, how I wish I could be where you are right now. For you to hold me and then I could tell you how much I love you. Not a second goes by I don't wish I were with you, to hug you, to tell you how much I love and care about you. Please be in my dreams tonight my love, so I can have a wonderful sleep tonight with thoughts of you. Here is a kiss, and I pray that God sends you my love. I love you, and goodnight! :heart:
 
Moments Whisper

In a vision, do I see you love
beneath clouds, white bird soar
time be held within my heart
awaiting the one, I adore

Ink whispers my undying love
wind howls a salty taste
Oh my, precious darling dearest
there be no time to waste

Moments tick against sunlight
half-past four, upon clouded sky
water ripples thirsty waves
deep breaths, shaken sighs

Come home to me, my love
over high water, raging sea
for without you my darling
there simply is no me
 
Michael my love, I love you endlessly! I love everything about you, your eyes, your smile, everything! I miss you so much it breaks my heart. Just like your song, I wanna be where you are. I am really tired right now, so I know it sounds like I am rambling, but I love you truly Michael. I can't say that enough. Goodnight, my love, I will dream of you. :heart:
 
Yesterday's Laughter

Where is yesterday's laughter?
It seems to have slipped away,
leaving me sitting in silence,
only memories of those days.

Todays are filled with sorrow,
looming dark with pain and fear.
Thoughts of happiness eluding,
with no one to dry my tears.

Tomorrows lost their promise,
grim future for the weak.
All my dreams died with you,
now everything looks bleak.

Yesterday, today, tomorrow,
their turmoil etched on my face.
No laughter left inside me,
disappeared without a trace.
 
Michael, my love, my one and only, I thought of you all day today as always. I never stop thinking of you Michael. I think about you all the time, I wonder how you are, I dream about being with you, just hanging out, you holding my hand, us hugging each other, etc. I wish so much I could just have moments like these with you, and it really breaks my heart. My heart aches for you. Sometimes, I just feel so empty, like I am lost without you. I love you so much, more than words can explain. Goodnight my love, I will be dreaming of you. :heart:
 
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