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Goodnight Michael

The Magic Of A Dream

The first time we talked I knew,
That you would be there for me.
Feelings of unknown pleasures,
Wanting to stay by your side, so I could see.

We talked untill the sun rose in the sky,
I felt like I had come home.
A feeling of peace and happiness,
Knowing in your arms is where I belong.

As you held me tightly in your arms,
With your hands gently smoothing my hair.
Kissing away my worries with your sweet lips,
I could feel the wonder of magic in the air.

I wanted to stay forever in this place,
Of unseen pleasure, a place of total bliss.
With you staring into my loving eyes,
Never to leave the warmth of your kiss.

All good things must come to an end,
Waking, I remember, you're not here.
I was not embraced in your arms,
On my lips just the taste of a tear.
 
I miss Michael.
I miss him so, so much.
This week I helped a dear friend to make her dream come true and meet her all time favourite band during their farewell tour. Her happiness was mine and for a second I felt that would have been me... and I wanted to enjoy her happiness to. It was a difficult moment, but seeing her happy was also a way to healing.

I miss Michael so much. Every day. All these days. All these months. All these months. Another 25th as come... another one of the many we will face.

I just wish I could hold him and tell him that I am so grateful to him, that I love him so openly and that I just wish him the best, to tell him I trust him, I respect him; to tell him he makes me happy with his music and dreams and dances and passion. To see his smile, to feel his love.

I can't believe I am here writing this. I can't believe. I can't believe it :no: I love Michael every day, every single day.
 
Golden Meadow Dream

If love is what you're looking for
It's in this heart of mine
you are the one I will adore
Until the end of time
I'll wait for you to come to me
When the stars are shining brightly
I'll wait for you
I'll wait for you
I will always be your lady


Falling forever in loves embrace
Under mellow moonlight
Luminous beams light up your face
To fulfill passion's night
Hold me tight now don't let me go
Being together hearts aglow
Hold me tight now
Hold me tight now
Alone in a golden meadow


Waking realizing just a dream
Your gone no longer here
My joy replaced with silent screams
On my pillow a tear
Please come for me take me away
To a place where you'll always stay
Please come for me
Please come for me
Can't live without you one more day
 
Michael, my sweet love. All I got to say is that I miss you very much I wish that you could come back, you must be sick of me saying this but I can't help it. I miss you really badly, life is moving on but everything is different since you are not here anymore. I love you till the end of time. I need to go and get some rest now. I want to wish you the most sweet dreams and goodnight, my love. I'll be thinking of you, and I hope you'll be in my dreams.
 
Michael today as always I had spent it missing you so extremely much. And I still can't believe that at 6:30 tonight is going to be exactly 9 months since I had gotten the worst news ever about you. And my pain and my deep sadness over you is still just as bad as it was then when I had gotten the most horrible news ever about you. I am starting to cry now just thinking about how much I still miss you. And how badly I want you to come back us. Especially since you really are the only one that can forever take away the pain, sadness, and the depression that I still feel and that I still am in over you. Nearly every single day since that horrible June day I have cried over you. Cause I still miss you way more than words can ever describe. I am still in deep mourning over you my dearest L.O.V.E. because I wear all black now. Black pants and a black t-shirt with a picture of you on it. To show that I am still am very much in mourning over you and I forever will be. I have spent nearly 30 years of my life of truly loving you. And I knew the pain of losing you will be intense. But I didn't know it was going to be this intense for me. It is just absolutely horrible being forced to live in a world without you in it. A world without you in is a world that I could never imagine living in. Because it was something I didn't think I was ever going to live to see. But now that I am and it is nothing but absolute torturous hell. Always having to spend each and every single horrible day always knowing exactly where you are. I just so badly wish I could go back to the way it used to be. Where I was always happy knowing you were somewhere in the world doing something. But that happiness that I once had is forever gone. And has been forever replace by sadness, misery, and depression. And I still have insomnia problems because of it. Which is why I am not going to bed tonight. I just feel too sad and too depressed to want to sleep. Even though sleep still is the only thing since that very horrible June day when I had gotten the news about you. That has ever brought me great comfort. I just wish I could sleep for all eternity. That way I will never again have to feel that horrible pain of me missing you so extremely much. I will be asleep and be with you where I still so badly want to be now. So goodnight, sleep forever well, and forever have the most sweetest eternal dreams my Eternal Angel of L.O.V.E. I will always forever and a day miss you. But I will always L.O.V.E. you more and more until very end of eternity and beyond that.
 
Oh, Michael...
Dear, sweet Michael...I miss you like crazy... You mean so very much to me, and I still can't understand you are in heaven now. No. NO! You are right here in my heart, but oh how I wish you could be really here :weeping:
It's about bedtime and I wish to see you in my dreams.
Goodnight, my darling angel, sleep tight. I love you.
 
I know this is our place to leave our words to our beloved Michael, but today... being another sad 25th... the ninth... my thoughts and prayers are also with all of you, my dear MJ family around the world. May his love be always alive in our hearts, where he is safe and happy.

I love you and I thank you for all your support and help through these times of pain.

LoveU+
:hug:

Paola
 
Michael, I hope you're okay wherever you are. It's not getting any easier, my love. I still cry for you every day. I'd do anything. I wish I could travel back in time. I'd never leave your side, I'd do anything and everything to keep you safe and happy and alive. If I was by your side I'd never let anyone hurt my precious angel. I feel so helpless. I wish you were still here. I can't handle this pain anymore. :weeping: Please know that I love you with every fibre of my being. I am yours Michael. I'll never leave you. Never. Sweet dreams, my love.
 
*Billie Jean* said:
Thank you, Paola! That's so sweet of you! :huggy:
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awwww, my dear Billie... I have been here with you just for some months and I see your pain every day. I hope time will help us to discover new ways to cope with this sadness in a better way. Thanks for being here and for loving Michael so much.
Abrazos para ti :hug:
 
Michael I can't believe its been 9 horrible months now since you forever left us. 9 months I had spent mostly crying over how much I truly miss and L.O.V.E. you. There is a poem that has been a favorite of mine ever since you forever left us on that horrible June day. And every single time I think about that poem I still just so badly wish that it will come true for us.

If Tears Could Build A Stairway

If tears could build a stairway,

and memories a lane.

I would walk rigt up to heaven

and bring you back again.


No farewell words were spoken,

No time to say "Goodbye".

You were gone before I knew it,

and only God knows why.


My heart still aches with sadness,

and secret tears still flow.

What it meant to love you-

No one can ever know.


But now I know you want me

to mourn for you no more;

To remember all the happy times,

life still has much in store.


Since you'll never be forgotten,

I pledge to you today-

A hollowed place within my heart

is where you'll always stay.


Of all the tears we have cried over you during these past horrible months. Really would be more than enough to make a stairway to Heaven just so we could bring you back again. And Michael I also know that you still don't want us to be still mourning for you. But it really can't be helped. Especially with me where on most days the tears just comes on so suddenly. That I really just can't help but just cry over you. I am still very much in deep mourning over you. And I always forever and a day will be. Which is why I am going up to bed real soon my eternal L.O.V.E. to try and get some much needed comforting sleep. Since last night I was up the entire night just really sadly thinking about you. So goodnight and have sweet eternal dreams my Eternal Moonwalking Angel of L.O.V.E. I will always forever and a day L.O.V.E. you more and more until the very edge of eternity.
 
Dear Michael I love you and I miss you so much.


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PCR said:
awwww, my dear Billie... I have been here with you just for some months and I see your pain every day. I hope time will help us to discover new ways to cope with this sadness in a better way. Thanks for being here and for loving Michael so much.
Abrazos para ti :hug:
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Paola, you are a very sweet person. :huggy:

The past 9 months are nothing but a blur of pain and tears. I don't know about you but everyday I feel like I'm waiting for something. In the back of my mind I keep thinking I'm going to wake up from this. Nine months have passed and my brain still cannot live with the unimaginable truth, nor can my heart. I will NEVER accept what has happened. I'm no longer "living" -just surviving each day. :depressed:

*Abrazos para ti amiga*
 
Goodnite, Sweetheart, Goodnite

From far away I imagine your voice
Soft, calming soothing my fears
Scared, alone darkness surrounds me
Your words shield me, silently I hear

Wrapping me in warmth not known
A place I never want to leave
Safe secure from pain, love abounds
No longer do I have to grieve

Nightmares can not find me here
Within the safety of my mind
No one can take my thoughts away
Locking the door, me they no longer find

Across the universe I hear
Soft echoes filled with love's light
Carried to me on Angel wings
Goodnite, sweetheart, goodnite
 
Michael, tonight I am speechless, I really don't know what to say, I am so emotional. :weeping: My candle for you has been burning for two days, yesterday and today. I miss you so much. This morning I said a prayer for you and my eyes filled with tears, it brought me back to the June 25th, 2009. I can't believe it has been 9 months, it feels like yesterday. I will never forget that horrible day in my entire life. I am going up to bed now, my love. I just wish I could sleep forever. Goodnight, my sweet love.
 
Today was just painful because my heart was hurting like crazy and I almost felt like breaking down in school today but I didn't because then I would make a fool of myself. Michael, I CANNOT believe it's been 9 months since you passed away. It feels like yesterday!!! I really hope God is taking care of you because you deserve it after all the pain you went through being on this earth by the stupid media people. They don't know what they're talking about!! Goodnight, sweetie, and just remember I love you.
 
I've spent the last hour crying I could not stop the tears. Its been a while since I let it out. It often gets bottled up, the pain. It still hurts very badly. I am going to go to sleep now. Michael I love you very much, miss you like crazy :cry:
 
Michael I have cried more than a few times over you today. Cause I just miss you so extremely much. After all of these horrible past months and I am still crying over you every single day. And a lot of the times it can't be helped because the tears just comes on so suddenly. I know when that horrible 1 year mark comes I am going to be a real mess. Which is why I just might stay in bed the entire day and just sleep that horrible day away. So I don't have to think about it. That's what I mostly did during that first horrible month without you. Sleep really was my most biggest comfort then as it still is now. Which is why I need to go up to bed now because I am just so very tired. Goodnight, forever sleep well, and have eternal sweet dreams my Eternal Moonwalking Angel of L.O.V.E. I will always forever and a day L.O.V.E. you more.
 
My sweetest angel, goodnight, please bring me sweet dreams and be my guardian angel tonight. I love you and miss you, for always and forever!
 
Take Me Away

My love please come take me away
Where pain no longer lives
Where colors are bright no longer gray
Our love we can relive
Waiting for you to come for me
Together the sun we can see
Waiting for you
Waiting for you
Praying for you my final plea



My love please come take me away
I've been waiting for so long
Back in your arms to always stay
Hearing your loves sweet song
Joyous longing to fill my heart
Never again will we depart
Joyous longing
Joyous longing
Waiting so long for you sweetheart



My love please come take me away
Hold me in your embrace
Need to feel the suns warming rays
To touch your handsome face
Please take my hand, holding it tight
Lead me from darkness to the light
Please take my hand
Please take my hand
Fly away with me to new heights
 
Michael, my heart is full of pain and sorrow, I would do anything to bring you back, my love. I miss you more and more every day. I can't be happy until I meet you again. My life doesn't seem worth it anymore. I can't see through these last nine months of pain. How do I cope? Please tell me. I just want to be with you. Nothing in my life can replace you. How do I fill that deep hole in my heart that you left. Everyday and night I cry for you and I pray for God to let you come back. You're irreplacable in so many people's lives. I know you're safe and happy but I don't think I can do this without you. Please come and hold me tonight, I need you so much right now.

I'm so sorry Michael if I'm not being strong enough and I'm letting you down. I love you so much Michael, more than I ever thought was possible. I will fall asleep crying and thinking of you my sweet love. Goodnight, my Angel. Please take all my kisses with you. :weeping:
 
Michael I had one of my more worst days today. I had cried over you so much today. Thankfully that nearly 2 hour nap that I had really helped take my mind off of you for a little while. But whenever I wake up I always end up feeling the same as always. I so badly wish you could come back and forever get me out of this deep depression I still am in over you. I just miss being happy so much. So goodnight and forever sweet eternal dreams my Eternal Moonwalking Angel of L.O.V.E. I will always forever and a day miss you. But I will always L.O.V.E. you more and more until the very edge of eternity.
 
Carried On A Breeze

Night breeze carries you my love
Bright moonbeams in your hair
Firelight kisses, waiting lips
Unite two souls, answered prayers

Aching for your loving touch
Cradling warmth, embracing arms
Sleeping tucked within your heart
Dreaming safely away from harm
 
Today has been tough, I've had a lot of tears today. I can't keep doing this to myself. I miss you so much. I want you back. Where are you now my love? I need you, I love you. I can't stop crying. I can't breathe without you. When will my heart stop hurting, my tears stop falling, and the pain come to an end? It's not getting any easier. It never will. Michael, I love you more and more each day. I love you more then words could say. I would give my life to have you back. I've never felt such pain and I don't know what to do. Please, hold me tonight while I dream of you. I want you, I need you. I can't take this pain any more. I want to be in your arms. :weeping: Goodnight, my sweet love. I love you, always and forever!
 
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