JoanMJ
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Re: How did you learn MJ had passed away?
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I couldn't believe it. I just sat there for few minutes feeling numb and in disbelief. Then i remembered i still had an 8 hour shift to do which sucked cause the last place i wanted to be at that moment was at work. I still couldn't believe it till i got home and watched all the coverage on tv. Then little by little it started to sink in. Every time they showed the little graphic with "R.I.P. Michael Jackson" it felt like i got kicked in the stomach. I stayed up till about 4 or 5 am watching MTV's marathon of his videos wondering why this had to happen to Mike...
Ahhh man....no doubt. That's how it was with here too. I just didn't wanna believe it at all, no matter what I'd read. And then I was there at work trying to keep my game on point and do what I had to do...but then I saw the stretcher....s***.....I ALMOST lost it. But instead I just got up and went outside to smoke a cigarette. It wasn't until later on at home that I faced it and.......well.....it wasn't pretty when I got home, I'll say that much.
But for real.....it took me a while, like a week or so maybe? to really grasp what had actually happened. I know I stayed "in shock" for a minute.....but after awhile I just broke down....real talk now.....I never really cry....but facing the loss of MJ at such an early age....all those memories of dancing (more like jumping lol) on my bed back in '83-'84 with my "Beat It" jacket on came rushing in and facing that the fact that he's now gone here on earth....well....it just was too much to handle and I'll admit it right here and right now.....I balled. I cried my eyes out as many of you have and as many millions around the world did. Most won't even admit it. Most are like "hell no....I mean...yeah he was great, but I didn't cry or nothin'." Bulls***. A lot more people cried than will admit. I guarantee that.
Lord. Good Lord in heaven. I miss Michael. About 20 some years ago I promised myself that I would see him live in concert before I died. I never thought that Michael Jackson would die BEFORE me. Man.....it sucks.
God bless you, Michael Jackson. Thank you so much for all the memories and all your music that will live forever. I know that I will meet you in heaven with God and Jesus one of these days. I know that.
I feel ya...I mean im man enough to admit yeah i cried. I was able to hold on for some time after his death, but the memorial at staples center...the end with Paris and then when they put that spotlight on the empty stage with just the microphone and mic stand...that was it, i broke down I mean MJ was more than just a fav artist of mine, he was an idol to me. With all the bad and evil in the world, he was the proof that GOOD people exist. And kinda like you with the Beat It jacket, i started flashing back to when i was 9 years old and i asked my mom if i could get some loafers like MJ had lol Once i had those bad boys on, i rolled up my pants and performed 'Billie Jean' for my fam ha ha good times I also made the same promise to myself that i would see MJ in concert the first chance i got and with talks of the 'This Is It' tour possibly coming to the US i thought to myself, "I don't care if it's in New York, I'll fly out there to see him!" lol I think about it now and it's just real depressing that now it'll be forever just a dream...