Despite all the pain and despair, Merry Christmas to you, Michael. This is the first Christmas Day that you are not here with us. I miss you terribly. Sorry, I can't hold my tears. I really try, but I can't. Please forgive me. I feel lost, I feel empty without you. I wish I could do something to bring you back. I wish so much that you come home for Christmas to your beautiful children, to your family. This is my only Christmas dream. Not without tears in my eyes, but I smile for you, my Love. I love you always and forever. I miss you. :weeping: