Merged: Psychics channel Michael

[xo_lola_xo]

Zenab I can only imagine what that must have felt like for you. Maybe it's a message from the spirit world somehow ? My thoughts and prayers have been with them every day and continue to be there for them in the hope that it somehow, miracously, it takes away a minute portion of their pain and grief. I would have gladly died in Michael's place so these little angels could still have their daddy with them!

I wonder what the message could be.

Also, I would rather die in Michael's place too than to have seen the world grieve on June 25th. It was the only day I asked God not to ever let me see.

 

[MJJLaugh]

I wonder what the message could be.

Also, I would rather die in Michael's place too than to have seen the world grieve on June 25th. It was the only day I asked God not to ever let me see.

What would you need from your father to have a better relationship with him ? Give that to him first! I do not know anything of your relationship with your father, nor is it any of my business, but ages are pretty meaningless when it comes to wisdom and forgiveness. It is not always the oldest one that is the wisest one. We don't know why we chose that particular family to reincarnate in, but it is often the child that teaches a lesson to the parent(s), if there is openness in their hearts and willingness to look at their children as entities with a(n old) soul.
My parents suffered a lot with my sister who was on all the drugs and alcohol there is available to mankind. Through a loving message from one of her siblings she found the power within herself to kick all her bad habits and become clean and sober. I'm so proud of her! We never got along at all!!! Now, we are finding our way back to each other through mutual respect and affection even though the differences remain. It is easy to love someone who is so similar to ourselves but we are tested in our love-capacity with these people that really bring out the worst in us. My parents are very religious and my sister is not, but they found the compassion in their hearts to visit her boyfriend in jail with her every week for two years. They have mellowed and are now more open-minded than ever towards popmusic, Michael Jackson, everything that matters to us kids, while they have only ever listened to classical music and they are nearing their 80's. While some older folks grow less flexible every year, they are getting more flexibel, because they are very spiritual, loving parents and they practice what they preach without ever becoming patronizing. I love them so very much! Its wonderful to see what can happen when you place your trust, love and compassion time and time again in a struggling child. Nobody is perfect, they aren't either and they know this of themselves and accept it.

Okay, this became a much longer post than I intended. I hope it is somehow useful to you in finding a key in dealing with your father. Life is short, you know. Everything we take for granted today, may not be there tomorrow. That is not something to get scared of, it is a given and we just should do our best and treat others around us the way we want to be treated.

GIVE WHAT YOU WANT TO RECEIVE.

Love and hugs!

 

[CaptainEoLove85]

Michael was in my dreams last night. I hope you don't mind if I share it with you all. He was wearing a fedora, aviators and a beautiful red military jacket. He was sitting in Neverland, at the foot of the stairs giving an interview. It was a big event at Neverland, Michael had some sick children over and he was giving an interview. They asked him what he does when the children cry (they assumed Michael was silly all the time and wouldn't know what to do). He kinda giggled and then said "they do cry, but then I just become the hunter gatherer. I'm the hunter and I gather them up and they stop crying" then he giggled some more and smiled sweetly at the interviewer. (I know that's not what a hunter gatherer type is lol, but I guess he meant it in a more literal way). Next he was sitting in a chair and watching an adult at a help desk or something. They really needed Michael at the help desk but he just sat in the chair giggling, so I said, "you are such a lazy bones, get up!" But he just turned his head to the side and slyly smiled :lol:
Then I woke up, I noted this down so I could remember, but then I was like in a meditative state..I was at a table with Michael, and he asked me if I wanted to visit a hospital with him. And I got scared and said "why, what for?" and he said "To see the children, what d'ya think for?". And that was it.

Sweet dream. :wub: It's so nice to see Michael all smiley and giggly isn't it?

I had a dream last night regarding my father which related to Michael's children. You should know that my father and I do not get along. At all. Anyway, in the dream, he left for London for a few weeks and I wanted to text "I miss you" to him but I was hesitant because we aren't close and then I found out that my mother sent him that and for some reason, I got upset with her. Soon after, in the dream, I was thinking to myself that although I say/feel that I don't love my father, if something happened to him, I would care but it wasn't me thinking it to myself, it was more like a voice saying it to me but it was disguised in my voice. Does that make sense? Anyway, suddenly, I remembered Michael's children and I saw them for a brief moment and suddenly, their pain of losing Michael was afflicted upon me. No, I didn't imagine it; I actually felt it - it was afflicted upon me. And let me tell you, it was extremely painful. It was so hurtful that it was physically painful. I can't describe it.

Let's just pray for Prince, Paris and Blanket.

Hmm, maybe it was your higher self speaking to you about your father. Oh, I can't imagine how difficult this week must be for Michael's kids. I'm sure they need some extra love and prayers right now.

Hope everyone's ok. :huggy: I know this week is probably going to be agonizingly long. I wish I could skip it too.

 

[xo_lola_xo]

What would you need from your father to have a better relationship with him ? Give that to him first! I do not know anything of your relationship with your father, nor is it any of my business, but ages are pretty meaningless when it comes to wisdom and forgiveness. It is not always the oldest one that is the wisest one. We don't know why we chose that particular family to reincarnate in, but it is often the child that teaches a lesson to the parent(s), if there is openness in their hearts and willingness to look at their children as entities with a(n old) soul.

My parents suffered a lot with my sister who was on all the drugs and alcohol there is available to mankind. Through a loving message from one of her siblings she found the power within herself to kick all her bad habits and become clean and sober. I'm so proud of her! We never got along at all!!! Now, we are finding our way back to each other through mutual respect and affection even though the differences remain. It is easy to love someone who is so similar to ourselves but we are tested in our love-capacity with these people that really bring out the worst in us. My parents are very religious and my sister is not, but they found the compassion in their hearts to visit her boyfriend in jail with her every week for two years. They have mellowed and are now more open-minded than ever towards popmusic, Michael Jackson, everything that matters to us kids, while they have only ever listened to classical music and they are nearing their 80's. While some older folks grow less flexible every year, they are getting more flexibel, because they are very spiritual, loving parents and they practice what they preach without ever becoming patronizing. I love them so very much! Its wonderful to see what can happen when you place your trust, love and compassion time and time again in a struggling child. Nobody is perfect, they aren't either and they know this of themselves and accept it.

Okay, this became a much longer post than I intended. I hope it is somehow useful to you in finding a key in dealing with your father. Life is short, you know. Everything we take for granted today, may not be there tomorrow. That is not something to get scared of, it is a given and we just should do our best and treat others around us the way we want to be treated.

GIVE WHAT YOU WANT TO RECEIVE.

Love and hugs!

Wow.

Thank you for the advice. Well our differences are major, we grew up in different countries, we belong to different religions(though he doesn't know it), I'm a student/musician, he's a lawyer. We are from different worlds. . And I seem to never please him. The biggest problem is that we just do not communicate, I tried but it just got awkward. I hope that one day he will change as he watches me grow and live my life my way and I hope he sees that I'm not as wrong as he thinks. It puzzles me how some parents treat their children and it puzzles me how my father treats me. Aren't children blessings? They get so happy when their child is born but as they grow older, some parents become blind and they fail to see the good side. He makes me feel like I'm a demon. I try to communicate with him but it's impossible. Would you believe that he hasn't read a single song or poem of mine although I've asked him endlessly? He just doesn't get it.
I don't think it can change.

Hmm, maybe it was your higher self speaking to you about your father. Oh, I can't imagine how difficult this week must be for Michael's kids. I'm sure they need some extra love and prayers right now.

Maybe. Hmm and yes, I'm worried about the kids.

 

[mjbunny]

Hi everyone :heart: Cool that a couple of you had MJ dreams :angel: I'm sorry, but I'm just... don't have the ability to ... I don't know... breathe? (I mean to say participate in the thread much.) I feel incredibly sad, needy, and overwhelmed by all the focus on Friday ... the emotions, the fact that it's a big travel day then for us and hb keeps adding more and more 'stuff' to take or make when I just wanted it to be peaceful, all the television specials, things I've read about the whole accident/murder issue, Katherine's book, MLP... everything. I just sat there on the couch last night alone for hours, until 7am, fits of horrendous crying, fits of wanting to beat the ish out of something or someone (?), ...F*&K! :tickingtimebomb :nooo: Can't we just skip forward to July? I don't want June 25th to exist. Can't we just skip that date???? From now on???? Can't we just have August 29th... at least we can try to be happy and celebrate on that day. And then if we did jump foward magically a week... it's then July...and that's over a year... and I feel so disconnected, no MJ dreams, nothing... what if it stays like that now? These are the thoughts torturing me. And I'm falling apart inside... I didn't know I'd fall into this like this ... :no: I don't know what to do, you know. I'm sorry, I'm rambling :doh: I'm gonna try to find a movie or something to watch, to try to forget for a while... (Sorry for bringing anyone down. I'm really not myself the past two days :boohoo: It just hurts so damn much and I'm losing my grip on how to handle it )

 

[xo_lola_xo]

Hi everyone :heart: Cool that a couple of you had MJ dreams :angel: I'm sorry, but I'm just... don't have the ability to ... I don't know... breathe? (I mean to say participate in the thread much.) I feel incredibly sad, needy, and overwhelmed by all the focus on Friday ... the emotions, the fact that it's a big travel day then for us and hb keeps adding more and more 'stuff' to take or make when I just wanted it to be peaceful, all the television specials, things I've read about the whole accident/murder issue, Katherine's book, MLP... everything. I just sat there on the couch last night alone for hours, until 7am, fits of horrendous crying, fits of wanting to beat the ish out of something or someone (?), ...F*&K! :tickingtimebomb :nooo: Can't we just skip forward to July? I don't want June 25th to exist. Can't we just skip that date???? From now on???? Can't we just have August 29th... at least we can try to be happy and celebrate on that day. And then if we did jump foward magically a week... it's then July...and that's over a year... and I feel so disconnected, no MJ dreams, nothing... what if it stays like that now? These are the thoughts torturing me. And I'm falling apart inside... I didn't know I'd fall into this like this ... :no: I don't know what to do, you know. I'm sorry, I'm rambling :doh: I'm gonna try to find a movie or something to watch, to try to forget for a while... (Sorry for bringing anyone down. I'm really not myself the past two days :boohoo: It just hurts so damn much and I'm losing my grip on how to handle it )

Try not to sweat it. It is a very hard time and I know how you feel. I just want to go back to 2008 and stop in time. I'm scared because I don't want the 25th to come yet I don't want to go past it because then it will soon go to two years...three years...

I'm just scared but Michael will revisit us. Don't worry.

 

[Bee]

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[darlingdear]

Asedora - That's so lovely of you to donate to the children. :heart:
Cool that things are synchronizing in your life.

Zenab - Sorry I skipped your post about your father. I'm sorry to hear your relationship with him is not great I'm not sure what else to write here but I hope things begin to slowly work out between you two, over time :hug:

Mrs.Music - Nice lyrics

Major hugs, mjbunny. I am trying desperately not to think about Friday. It creeps up on me at night though or quiet times during the day. I know that in the coming days I'm going to lose it though, I can feel it. I nearly did today, a breeze brought in the smell of summer air, and I was listening to Michael. Arg. How my heart ached at almost re-living last summer.
I've organised a busy day Thursday so I don't sit at home thinking about the next day .

We're all here for each other other. I'm sending each and everyone of you love and strength for this coming week. I just wish, with all my heart Michael was back here . But since that wish hasn't been answered yet (still ray: for that one, ), I just wish June would be over with, right now.

 

[MJJLaugh]

Hi everyone :heart: Cool that a couple of you had MJ dreams :angel: I'm sorry, but I'm just... don't have the ability to ... I don't know... breathe? (I mean to say participate in the thread much.) I feel incredibly sad, needy, and overwhelmed by all the focus on Friday ... the emotions, the fact that it's a big travel day then for us and hb keeps adding more and more 'stuff' to take or make when I just wanted it to be peaceful, all the television specials, things I've read about the whole accident/murder issue, Katherine's book, MLP... everything. I just sat there on the couch last night alone for hours, until 7am, fits of horrendous crying, fits of wanting to beat the ish out of something or someone (?), ...F*&K! :tickingtimebomb :nooo: Can't we just skip forward to July? I don't want June 25th to exist. Can't we just skip that date???? From now on???? Can't we just have August 29th... at least we can try to be happy and celebrate on that day. And then if we did jump foward magically a week... it's then July...and that's over a year... and I feel so disconnected, no MJ dreams, nothing... what if it stays like that now? These are the thoughts torturing me. And I'm falling apart inside... I didn't know I'd fall into this like this ... :no: I don't know what to do, you know. I'm sorry, I'm rambling :doh: I'm gonna try to find a movie or something to watch, to try to forget for a while... (Sorry for bringing anyone down. I'm really not myself the past two days :boohoo: It just hurts so damn much and I'm losing my grip on how to handle it )

MjbunnyYou will have MJ dreams again, I'm sure of it. Don't overanalyse sweetie, that will only make it worse. Sending you lotsa sisterly love ( but not like Amygrace's dream, thank you very much - no offense!). Big hugs for you. Just wait until MLP, I have a feeling it will be extraordinary, you'll see! You helped start all that, and now contemplating the sick kids MLP on saturday. Michael knows about this, I'm sure of it, and he's so proud of all of us, I can feel it in my heart!. :heart:

Madonna - Miles Away[/B]
I just woke up from a fuzzy dream
You never would believe the things that I have seen
I looked in the mirror and I saw your face
You looked right through me you where miles away

All my dreams they fade away
I'll never be the same
If you could see me the way you see yourself
I can pretend to be someone else

You always love me more miles away
I hear it in your voice when you're miles away
You're not afraid to tell me miles away
I guess we're at our best when we're miles away

So far away so far away
So far away so far away
So far away so far away
So far away so far away

When no ones around and I have you here
I begin to see the picture it becomes so clear
You always have the biggest heart when we're six thousand miles apart

Too much of no sound uncomfortable silence can be so loud
Those three words are never enough when it's long distance love...

You always love me more miles away
I hear it in your voice when you're miles away
You're not afraid to tell me miles away
I guess we're at our best when we're miles away

So far away so far away
So far away so far away
So far away so far away
So far away so far away

I'm alright
Don't be sorry
But it's true
When I'm gone
You'll realize that I'm the best thing that happened to you

You always love me more miles away
I hear it in your voice when you're miles away
You're not afraid to tell me miles away
I guess we're at our best when we're miles away

You always love me more miles away
I hear it in your voice when you're miles away
You're not afraid to tell me miles away
I guess we're at our best when we're miles away

Haven't watched the video yet but after reading these lyrics I want to hear this song too. I'll watch the videos later.

Asedora That is special and sweet that kind of synchronicity. Everything falling into place harmoniously, it doesn't always happen like that.

 

[Asedora]

mjbunny, my hugs for you :huggy: I know it is so hard for you and I share your pain.
Please ,try not to think about June 25th the way ppl usually think. There is NO time on another side and you know that. This date simply does not exist for him, but it does exist for us. June 25th is just a date in OUR dimension and life is like an illusion.
We all will have to go one day because we are guests here but for now I believe we have to do something positive to honor him and to keep ourselves busy at the same time.

Asedora That is special and sweet that kind of synchronicity. Everything falling into place harmoniously, it doesn't always happen like that.

I know it feels special.It is not just a donation, it is KIDS related. I took like it was a message from Michael and this is what he wanted maybe me to do cos it was synchronized with this thread and my own wish in less than 2 hours I have thought about it. Also, a black girl who talked to me has a son and her son's birtday happened to be on the same date as my son's birtday. Weird.
Plus it close to June 25th which is
the date in material world connected to material events.
I truly believe that sick kids are one of Michael's main concerns still on another side and it will never change.

EDITED: Somebody said: If it 3 or more coincidences for one event take it as a message. So, I did.

 

[amygrace]

Hey Harmony Hut. How is everyone holding up? mjbunny I see you are having an extra hard time...I'm sorry hon. I'm with you and Mrs. Music in just not even having the energy to really participate in here this week. Sorry everyone. I just feel so melancholy when I think of Michael I am trying to keep my mind on other things. Anyway just wanted to check in. Sending love to you all. :group:

 

[Mundy]

Hi everyone.

I've been lurking. Feel bleh, read the posts but I just don't have the... something to join in a conversation or reply to anyone's posts. I read things that I agree with or want to add something to but I don't even know what to say so I quote, half type up a reply and close the page :doh:

I'm gonna try to meditate tonight. I have a story to tell and maybe/hopefully it will be more interesting if I get anything from the meditation. I'll explain tomorrow. Gonna go to bed now.

I'm thinking of you all. Love, strength and hugs to everyone :heart:

 

[PaceMioDolceCuore]

Hi everyone.

I've been lurking. Feel bleh, read the posts but I just don't have the... something to join in a conversation or reply to anyone's posts. I read things that I agree with or want to add something to but I don't even know what to say so I quote, half type up a reply and close the page :doh:

I'm gonna try to meditate tonight. I have a story to tell and maybe/hopefully it will be more interesting if I get anything from the meditation. I'll explain tomorrow. Gonna go to bed now.

I'm thinking of you all. Love, strength and hugs to everyone :heart:

I'm like that. I start thinking about something someone wrote and then I just click the window away.

I feel like most here, and MJBunny, I'm with you on the crying bouts. I didn't do any of that last year, so I guess it wants to come out now. We're literally crying at the same time "tonight", you at 7 I at 1am.

Maybe it'll get better but right now I'm just trying to get through the days (and nights)
I know that it's not unusual for grief to make a real comeback for many people, but it's another thing to experience that for yourself.

So, to everyone hurting, :better:

 

[mjbunny]

:angel: & :hug: to everyone. Like most of you, I think of replying and then I can't find the oomph to do it, so sorry for not mentioning anything specific. Just thanks all of you for being here still. :hug: I know we're all in it together I watched the movie The Little Prince tonight and actually felt better by the end, although you'd think it would make one sadder. Felt a bit of warmth along the side of my face earlier and it was comforting, because to my knowledge I only feel that from Michael (although maybe it's an energy thing in general? It started to happen last fall for the first time.) MJJLaugh ... lol about your reference to amygrace's kissing dream. Thanks for your pm, ModAlert. Sorry if I can't reply right now. :tired: Well, I am soooo exhausted, girls. Heading to bed in a minute. Goodnight and may we all find some good dreams, because Lord knows we need them .... :angel:

 

[MJJLaugh]

I had little snippets of Michael dreams that I remember: we were both lying on sunbeds ( Huh ??? I can't be in the sun either - white girl with dark spots that get darker in the sun) and we saw each other and got up at the same time and walked towards each other like there was a magnetic pull. We both smiled and then I woke up......aaarghhh!

Michael was coming over and there was going to be a dinner and I had a LOT of cleaning up to do because everything was so messy, and I tried to start to clean up and I only made it worse, I was so stressed out because Michael was coming and I wanted everything to be just perfect. Talk about trying too hard and not being yourself anymore......

Finally real MJ dreams again, ( that I can remember!!)

Sending love, strength and tranquility to all of you! :heart:

:angel:

 

[CaptainEoLove85]

Mjbunny, :hug:

These past couple of weeks have been so bizarre for me because I'm feeling exactly the same way as last year. At that time just before the dreadful event, I was all nostalgic and watching old TV shows from when I was a kid. Now I find I'm doing exactly the same things this week, and I didn't realize that until a couple of days ago. I'm not even doing it on purpose. It kind of freaks me out. It's like a mega deja-vu. :mello:

But I don't want to focus on this right now. Need to Xscape...

 

[8701girl]

I had a mj related dream last night. I dreamt that i was on the internet and watching a clip of mj, it was him performing a song from the bad era. And i was chatting with u guys and i saw a lil smiley thing - it was two lil figures having a sword fight.....:blink: it was werid..

 

[xo_lola_xo]

It's Tuesday, 3 days to go...

I'm scared. I keep blocking it. I'm scared of the pain.

 

[darlingdear]

^ I know. Exactly what I was mulling over last night

I lost it last night when going to sleep. I just cried so hard. I read the most disgusting article on Michael before bed. Really, really disgusting. That made me so angry, that people are still attacking Michael, writing all this ish about him. I just felt so sorry that Michael still has to deal with this!
I just wish the rest of the world would see what a beautiful person Michael is.

I feel numb today. No energy to do anything.

:huggy: :huggy: and :heart: to you all

p.s. I'm glad Michael came to a couple of you in your dreams :angel: Wonderful :heart:

 

[Tinker_Bell]

Hi everyone,

I havent posted anything here in ages, and today I just felt like sharing my feeling, didnt know where else to post it, so I came to think of here.

I cant believe one year has passed, and we are 22 june, I cant help but thinking what Michael did exactly today a year ago, when he was practising on the stage of Staples center, that in few days from then, his casket would be there, the very same stage.

I know we all are going through this in our very own way, and Im sorry if Im saying things to put more pain in your souls, but I dont have anyone else to talk to about this. I feel so sad, I feel so sad and I cry, my husband is trying his best to support me, but I dont wanna put this pain on him since he is going through his own hard time at work. We are moving into a new house this 1st of July, getting the keys now, been looking for furniture, planning to have a baby, but all this time, at the back of my heart, i feel sad, i just feel so tired, and so ..like...a flat tyre.

I dont know what to do on Friday, i didnt send any flowers to Forest Lawn, I didnt send any cards, I dont wanna do anything, I just feel like my entire energy is rushing through me. And today i woke up, telling myself, ok lets not think about this, lets just take the day as it comes, Michael is happy, he is smiling, he is not in pain anymore, then I log in to facebook to see the Justice4Mj site, read about that stupid journalist Andrea Peyser and her article on the NY post, " The freak of the week"...whyyyyyy....why would she go through all that trouble to lie...lie lie lie. I dont understand these people, Im praying Michaels kids will never read anything like that.

anyway, im just drained...I wanna skip this Friday...

much L.O.V.E. to you all

 

[8701girl]

Yeh i read in my local paper today that mj's " deepest secert" was that his soft wasnt his "real" voice.....please dont tell me somethin i didnt know u dumb journalist! :lol:

Seriously, these dumb reporters just report the same crap hoping in their stupid fantasies that ppl will care......hate to break 2 them but ppl dont really care anymore bout it. They are totally over it, well the ppl i know do.

 

[darlingdear]

Tinker_Bell - I'm doing the same thing as you. Torturing myself over what MJ was doing this time a year ago, that's what made me cry like crazy yesterday.
:huggy: for you.
I read that NY post article too. disgusting.

 

[amygrace]

Hey girls :group: I'm glad some of you are having Michael dreams. :wub: I think I dreamt of him last night but I can't remember. I only remember the nightmares. :doh: I've been doing the same thing too...thinking about what he was doing exactly one year ago...omg, if only we could go back and stop what was to come. :weeping:

I don't know how you guys can read those nasty articles... it hurts so much to read anything bad about him, especially right now. Ugh. Why must people still attack him, WHY? How low is this world, really? I wish we could all just run away with Michael and live in our own world. (sigh)

Anyway, much love and strength to you all today.

 

[mjbunny]

Hi everyone :hug: :angel: I hope everyone's coping ok today, or better, or something. This is for each of you: :heart: :heart: :heart: :heart: :heart: :heart: :heart: :heart: :heart: :heart: :heart:

Finally real MJ dreams again, ( that I can remember!!) Sending love, strength and tranquility to all of you! :heart: :angel:

Yay Still no MJ dreams for me (seems the last one was clear back on June 3rd?), but after I got offline very late last night (or very early this morning, depending how you look at it ... around 7am my time), I'd been laughing about something goofy that popped into my head and suddenly a flood of wonderful energy appeared all around me and intense warmth all along my face .... oh, Michael!!!! You're there! Thank you! Thank you!!!!!!!! :wub: And you know what? I haven't really been deeply sad since. I ended up with a crazy case of the giggles afterwards, like in some kind of bliss and thinking to myself, "Am I high?":lmao: Saw myself in the mirror and my eyes were all sparkling and I thought, so that's what I look like when I think of Michael :blush: I was hoping I would come in here today and find that everyone had an MJ dream or something. I wish it were so, really really wish it. I mentioned and thought of you gals and hoped everyone would be visited in some way. :flowers: And again, a part of the 'convo' with Michael went like this... you don't need to be so sad, we're never separate. We're one. Always. (Thanks for the reminder, Michael. Sorry for being so needy and always needing reminders. I'm really trying to understand. I just wish I could hold on to that feeling, that I-just-got-hugged-by-MJ feeling, all the time. I hope this hangover lasts a while ... ok a long while, considering... ~sigh~)

These past couple of weeks have been so bizarre for me because I'm feeling exactly the same way as last year. At that time just before the dreadful event, I was all nostalgic and watching old TV shows from when I was a kid. Now I find I'm doing exactly the same things this week, and I didn't realize that until a couple of days ago. I'm not even doing it on purpose. It kind of freaks me out. It's like a mega deja-vu. :mello:

Hmmm. :hug: I've found myself watching a lot of movies, I think as a form of escapism. That and sleeping a lot.

I had a mj related dream last night. I dreamt that i was on the internet and watching a clip of mj, it was him performing a song from the bad era. And i was chatting with u guys and i saw a lil smiley thing - it was two lil figures having a sword fight.....:blink: it was werid..

The sword fight is odd, lol, but at least it was an MJ-related dream :hug:I wonder if the smiley was representing fans in general bitching with each other?

It's Tuesday, 3 days to go... I'm scared. I keep blocking it. I'm scared of the pain.

I know. We know. :mello: :hug:

I lost it last night when going to sleep. I just cried so hard. I read the most disgusting article on Michael before bed. Really, really disgusting. That made me so angry, that people are still attacking Michael, writing all this ish about him. I just felt so sorry that Michael still has to deal with this!
I just wish the rest of the world would see what a beautiful person Michael is.

Oh God, I know. You must've read that psychotic rant in the New York Post. W.T.F. :bugeyed Just read it a minute ago. What a blackened heart this woman must have. (Not to mention the complete inability to do the most basic of research :angry She's a perfect example for the dictionary definition of "hater". Have you ever wondered how it is that some of the most vocal and vicious haters are women, too? What's up with that?! Diemond, Allred, Disgrace, this Andrea person, etc. :no:

I dont know what to do on Friday, i didnt send any flowers to Forest Lawn, I didnt send any cards, I dont wanna do anything, I just feel like my entire energy is rushing through me. And today i woke up, telling myself, ok lets not think about this, lets just take the day as it comes, Michael is happy, he is smiling, he is not in pain anymore,
anyway, im just drained...I wanna skip this Friday...

Oh, hi Tink :hug: I think we can all relate to the bolded sentence above. I wish we could just jump forward to July already.

Yeh i read in my local paper today that mj's " deepest secert" was that his soft wasnt his "real" voice.....please dont tell me somethin i didnt know u dumb journalist! :lol:

I find this on my youtube vids sometimes, people saying things like, "Wow, his voice sounds so different here!" And I'm like... huh??? :lol: You doofus, compared to what? The '84 Grammy's? :smilerolleyes:

Hey girls :group: I'm glad some of you are having Michael dreams. :wub: I think I dreamt of him last night but I can't remember. I only remember the nightmares. :doh: I've been doing the same thing too...thinking about what he was doing exactly one year ago...omg, if only we could go back and stop what was to come. :weeping:

I don't know how you guys can read those nasty articles... it hurts so much to read anything bad about him, especially right now. Ugh. Why must people still attack him, WHY? How low is this world, really? I wish we could all just run away with Michael and live in our own world. (sigh)

I have this fantasy sometimes that he somehow comes back via a miracle (ok, it gets a tad creepy-religious, so what) and no one can f*ck with him ever again because everyone's just like... :bugeyed whhhaaaat??? He can just wave his hand and shut them up (with love, of course ). And those who truly love him can come stay at Neverland (how ALL of us fit, I'm not sure, but somehow lol) and we all work together with the skills we're each good at to create a new world that doesn't suck, all the while living in some kind of amazing love commune with MJ. :angel:

 

[amygrace]

I'd been laughing about something goofy that popped into my head and suddenly a flood of wonderful energy appeared all around me and intense warmth all along my face .... oh, Michael!!!! You're there! Thank you! Thank you!!!!!!!! :wub: And you know what? I haven't really been deeply sad since.

Aw that's so lovely! Glad it lifted your spirits so much. (well how could Michael NOT?) :wub:

I have this fantasy sometimes that he somehow comes back via a miracle (ok, it gets a tad creepy-religious, so what) and no one can f*ck with him ever again because everyone's just like... :bugeyed whhhaaaat??? He can just wave his hand and shut them up (with love, of course ). And those who truly love him can come stay at Neverland (how ALL of us fit, I'm not sure, but somehow lol) and we all work together with the skills we're each good at to create a new world that doesn't suck, all the while living in some kind of amazing love commune with MJ. :angel:

Shut them up with love. :lol: That's awesome. Very nice fantasy that I dream up myself sometimes. "create a world with no fear, together we'll cry happy tears" ...oh to dream. Pleeeease God can it come true, pleeease? ray:

 

[darlingdear]

mjbunny - I'm glad to hear about feeling that Michael energy :angel: Must of been nice to feel! Glad you are feeling somewhat better now

 

[mjbunny]

This might sound a bit random, but I suddenly felt I should post:
:heart: Michael loves you! :heart:

 

[Bee]

^

:huggy: :heart:

 

[darlingdear]

I love that.

It's strange, it's almost like I was supposed to watch that you know? It wouldn't let me pause or mute that vid. I know it's a technical fault, but it's weird how you felt you should post that and it wouldn't let me do that..almost like my attention needed to be there, so to speak? Like I had to watch that right away, no interuptions..

Michael, I love you too. With all my heart :heart:

 

[CaptainEoLove85]

Good to hear you've been uplifted a bit by Michael Mjbunny

Sorry to bring more sadness to the thread (I'm actually feeling ok right now. I just feel a need to write this) but last night was purely awful. I felt so much grief, it was like I was sick. I wanted to go to bed early because it got to a point where reading or watching anything about Michael was overwhelming me with sadness. I don't ever want to feel like that again, where I feel like I can't do anything related to Michael without getting upset. So I went to bed crying, but I couldn't sleep because my family was being noisy downstairs. So after just lying there for a while, I decided to brave listening to MJ on my iPod. I cried from the first couple of songs "Why You Wanna Trip On Me" and "Man in the Mirror," but then afterward the music cheered me up and it felt good. Then I tried going to sleep again. I think I did fall asleep or went into that inbetween state, and had some dream I can't remember. I woke up and started to cry again and my family was still making noise So, I just stayed up and listened to more music, and I sat there staring at my Captain EO poster. His smile seems to get wider when I look at it. Optical illusion? And I spent a while talking to Michael and that helped. I eventually stopped crying and finally got to sleep.

Oh yeah, and about that journalist. I didn't even get angry about it. It's just so absurd and ridiculous, that you can't take it seriously. But I did send her an email (respectfully) calling her out, on her credibility. I don't expect a response back, but it was worth a shot. So much hate these people have and likely brainwashed by money. They lead such sad lives. :no:

Sending out lots of hugs to everyone trying to get through this week. :huggy: