darlingdear
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Just wanted to say, I love this thread and you guys, so much :heart:
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Just wanted to say, I love this thread and you guys, so much :heart:
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I was going to tell this story the other day (don't think I have in the past) and relates to the "is this real?" theme.
So I was IN THEIR CAR, live, REAL TIME as it happened while I was sleeping.
Guys I need a break for a while. To be honest, I have put my life on hold for the last 10 months.
Just wanted to say, I love this thread and you guys, so much :heart:
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Then today in Amsterdam I saw the movie "Remember Me" and there was a dead brother called Michael. I saw a new tribute magazine with lots of pictures called "Remember the King - The Final Tribute" and I had to buy it.
I guess it depends on what "moving on" is to each individual. Moving on doesn't have to mean forgetting someone and pretending they never existed. These months have been very tough. I remember last fall for a while I was thinking of just putting AWAY all my MJ stuff... just AWAY... because I felt I was going crazy with all the pain and reminders. I was thinking how when I'd break up with a guy I'd been with for ages and was so heartbroken that the only thing that worked was to just pretend they never existed. No pictures, no thoughts... just stay entirely away from anything to do with them. I had thoughts back then that maybe this would be my only way of dealing with Michael now, for my own sanity. But that thought hurt so badly I realized there's no way. And why should I??? I know that I don't need to. Michael is also so much JOY to me. I'm not going to discard years of joy and love and inspiration and his legacy (because so much of it is up to us) because of this pain. So that's where I went with that line of thinking/feeling. It has to all be integrated somehow for me, especially being in an MJ couple. Michael will always be in our home, there's just no way around it. (And I don't want a way around it.) I've needed these months of Michael 24/7. Really needed them. I don't know how else I could've survived (possibly literally?) without still feeling that joy and without having all of you to share with :hug:
Oh me too because everyone lives all over the darned planet, lol. Friends moved away, then I moved away and I live in another country now :doh: My mother is often worried about me, saying that I'm too isolated, but I honestly don't feel that way. I've got my hubby, who's my best friend, and I talk with you guys all the time and friends and family back home via emails and phone calls... I just feel ok with the situation, weird or not. I don't how I'd survive with the internet. I hope it never goes away via pole shifts or wars or attacks. I would seriously freak out! I'm not planning to leave MJJC, no. But last night I was feeling all... God, is there something wrong with me? Am I just dragging things out? But I feel alright today, so I guess it was just a mood. In the end, MJ has been part of my life for 26 years now, so why should that change? I wasn't always "active" in the fan community, but Michael has and always will be part of my life in some way.
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Mundy said:Guys I need a break for a while. To be honest, I have put my life on hold for the last 10 months.
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I am honestly a bit worried about the future because the idea of "no MJness" is a scary prospect. Think about it in 30 years? Will there be forums, exchange about his art and music? Will people care? Do you know what I mean?
There was MJness in my life since I was 12 years old- the last 10 months were hard, very touch, I didn't even realize at first how much I have changed as a person dealing with simply missing him and how much this man has meant throughout my life, to so many people.
I am worried not so much about the immediate future but worry longterm.
me and rips me to shreds, the thought of living out the next 50 years without him living alongside us. I have confidence that sooner or later all of us will meet at another place when we won't be here anymore either but until then I will miss him everyday, every week and every year.
Hello lovely ones,
Flor - I kinda like Robert Pattinson too..:blush: I dunno what it is, but there's something there..
:clapping: Great post! And you made some very good points here. I also think that while one would normally assume spending too much time on the internet instead of in the 'real world' is not good for you...but we do so much more than just gawk at photos of Michael or debate which songs are the best. :lol: As you said we have a chance to really go in-depth with people, express ourselves, develop compassion, learn to love more and engage each other in such a way. I've become a better more loving person socially when I'm off the board, just from being here. I've gained some important insights and tools to use in life just by observing conversations on this board!Modulation Alert said:I honestly think that people need to give themselves credits, also on a forum. Just look at this thread, people used the form of written communication to not only express themselves but also communicate and understand others. How often do people get such an chance at in-depth communication like that? People are actively engaging and seeking for compassion, try to communicate and are expressing themselves- there is a lot of interaction going on- that is of value.
Aw, you should try making time for it again! And you did Egyptian paintings? :wild: I'd love to see those!darlingdear said:amy - I miss painting :sad: I used to do it all the time. The last major thing I did was some Egyptian paintings lol. I would lovee to see this painting you're working on!
... This MJ is/was the Archangel Michael idea is like what that group of JW's back in the 80's. It doesn't feel right to me at all, but it's an interesting concept. From myunderstanding, angels (if there are such beings in the traditional sense) do not incarnate as humans, but I guess some groups see it differently.
Yes. Divinity in motion :heart: "Well, you never know" is one of the best quotes for living life by, actually, lol Then there are the MJ/Christ and MJ/Krishna theories... Or if we go down the route in some way, I guess one could say why must a spiritual figure be someone else? If we were to consider someone a spiritual figure, like take Michael for example... why would he need to have been an angel or Jesus or anyone else? Why not just himself?Well, you never know, there was/is somethin' different about that guy ...
Thanks guys for your opinions on the gates thing lol, pretty much what you say I was leaning towards Glad that little boy is alive though, it's a pretty amazing feat.
And mjbunny on the Pendulum thing. I might skip using it then, I was just perusing that chapter and got curious about them.
That's interesting about hearing APoM, and then feeling that wave of love :heart:
amy - Aw yay, I'm glad you had a dream about MJ. Doesn't it just put you in the best of moods :wub:
One of my art projects way back when I was like 16 was Egypt. We did a whole ten weeks on this, drawings, research, paintings. It was awesome!! My final piece was Egypt and Picasso's style fused. So bright colours, the way he drew people. The Egyptain Eye of Protection was the focal point of it, cos I became obsessed with that lol. I wish I could find it! I think it's in the attic..:scratch:
On the subject of that thread that mjbunny posted..not sure what to make of it tbh. I thought that angels are angels and cannot be human? Or maybe that's a mystical, mythical approach? It's interesting to read though, but imo, no.
... omg... that was WEIRD. While I was writing that last sentence... "why not just himself" our neighbors dog barked loudly and it echoed and I swear to God it sounded exactly like the dog said, "MICHAEL" :lol: I'm not kidding, lol. Then he continued barking normally. *Checking Ears*
When you find it, will you pleasepleaseplease post a picture? I would love to see it, the fusion sounds so cool!
I remember giving a seminar speech on the Egyptian Monarchy's Dynasties and so on, my stuff is on an attic on a different continent but I'd love to see you picture.
Ever since seeing MJ in that Egypt connection I got quite the obsession with the Eye of Horus myself. I wished I had better photoshop skills, because I would love to create a poster with MJ in his Remember The Time get up and something with Horus, Isis and the Eye of Horus- unfortunately I only know how to edit photography stuff, I have no clue how Amy for example fuses stuff like MJ Krishna with the colors...
Sorry to hear those people ditched you, but hey....if they can't deal with who you are and Michael being a part of that, then they're not worth being your friends right? You deserve the best! I hope you're not feeling like you should give up on that part of yourself because of them or anyone else who doesn't understand you. People should take you for who you are, and I hope your mom will start to worry a bit less. Maybe talk to her about that? Hang on. :better:I understand how u feel, if it wasnt for mjjc & the internet i would properly go nuts. All of my friends that i used 2 hang out or the ones that i grew up with, have totally ditched me out and they dont talk 2 me anymore.
Im getting the feeling its cuz with mj dying & everything i feel so not myself anymore. And its something that they dont understand or want 2 understand.
And i feel isolated cuz i cant just go out and hang out with friends wheneva i want 2 cuz my mum tends 2 worry bout me alot. Thats why i come here at mjjc for comfort & love.
Great post! :angel: Those parts completely count for me as well, I've never learned so much so quickly the past months. Like just reading along here already gives me so much new insights and gave me the chance to go deeper and therefore I've also learned so much more about myself. It's quite odd when you're standing still and think about that, I really became a different person on some areas through all of the happenings but only in a good way. We are able to share so much thoughts here, so spread around the world and at the same time we're so close in the thoughts....it's amazing and I've never felt like wasting time here at all. Michael also made me fall in some sort of spiritual path since and that made me love him even more. I guess everything happens for a reason. I'm grateful and will always be. :heart:...
The minute I knew of MJs passing I found myself on a heavy, heavy spiritual path, an intense crash course I didn't anticipate. And it's not always an easy path.
While most people will think spending so much time online could mean something negative it was the opposite for me because I was able to learn and process so many things online.
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Just look at this thread, people used the form of written communication to not only express themselves but also communicate and understand others. How often do people get such an chance at in-depth communication like that? People are actively engaging and seeking for compassion, try to communicate and are expressing themselves- there is a lot of interaction going on- that is of value.
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I also have truly understood for the first time in my almost 30 years that there are some things that time will NOT mend and his passing and the circumstances of it are such an example. He and his art have been a huge part of what formed me to be who I am, I am not joking.
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I saw that thread and thought that people would immediatly go and be like 'oh here we go again don't be so nuts'....lolol, wonder how long it takes.:smilerolleyes: Interesting vids though.Ok, if you want to get all "creepy-religious" lol today... check out this thread: http://www.mjjcommunity.com/forum/showthread.php?t=90467
Aw, good to hear you had that dream! :huggy: Definitely want to see that painting when it's finished, yeah! Cool! I've painted a lot in the past too, I hate how I am now soooo lacking time and space for doing everything like that kind of stuff. Bluh. Painting can be so comforting, I love doing it. :happy:I am in the BEST mood this morning because I had the BEST night last night while finishing my painting...and to top it all off, I dreamt of Michael!!! Omg I hadn't seen him in my dreams in FOREVER. I can't say anything more other than it was sooo wonderful and I love him so much!!! :wub:
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Anyway, I have some finishing touches to make on it and then I will surely share it here...I really want you guys to see it.
LMAO. That's hot. :lol:omg... that was WEIRD. While I was writing that last sentence... "why not just himself" our neighbors dog barked loudly and it echoed and I swear to God it sounded exactly like the dog said, "MICHAEL" :lol: I'm not kidding, lol. Then he continued barking normally. *Checking Ears*
Haha... that makes me think of the movie Hook. At the part when the vibe starts to get all eerie and the dog starts barking...woof! wook! hook! HOOK! :lol: Seriously cool though.omg... that was WEIRD. While I was writing that last sentence... "why not just himself" our neighbors dog barked loudly and it echoed and I swear to God it sounded exactly like the dog said, "MICHAEL" :lol: I'm not kidding, lol. Then he continued barking normally. *Checking Ears*
Ohh I hope you find it! That sounds like an awesome fusion indeed.darlingdear said:One of my art projects way back when I was like 16 was Egypt. We did a whole ten weeks on this, drawings, research, paintings. It was awesome!! My final piece was Egypt and Picasso's style fused. So bright colours, the way he drew people. The Egyptain Eye of Protection was the focal point of it, cos I became obsessed with that lol. I wish I could find it! I think it's in the attic..:scratch:
From what I've come to understand, Angels are just highly evolved souls...like "ascended masters". I've also read and agree with the concept that they didn't start out with wings. People that saw them initially mistook their large auras for wings and so portrayed them that way. And as it goes with the collective consciousness...all that energy put into believing it creates it. And so Angels developed wings for themselves because that's how the collective envisions them. Just as Michael can shapeshift and show himself as any age he wants, Angels can give themselves wings. That's all how I see it anyway. Back on the main point - I still think that once a soul has evolved that much, that they don't come back to Earth to reincarnate.darlingdear said:On the subject of that thread that mjbunny posted..not sure what to make of it tbh. I thought that angels are angels and cannot be human? Or maybe that's a mystical, mythical approach? It's interesting to read though, but imo, no.
If you have photoshop, play around and experiment! That's how I started out. You can get the hang of it!Modulation Alert said:I wished I had better photoshop skills, because I would love to create a poster with MJ in his Remember The Time get up and something with Horus, Isis and the Eye of Horus- unfortunately I only know how to edit photography stuff, I have no clue how Amy for example fuses stuff like MJ Krishna with the colors...
I love it! The fact that it's the sheet music for HTW makes it extra cool and special.Mrs. Music said:Today I've worked a bit further on a tattoo I want to get placed, I've drawn this music key and a part of the sheet music for Heal The World around it. I wanted something related to Michael but not so obvious and something to do with music, so there ya have it!
From what I've come to understand, Angels are just highly evolved souls...like "ascended masters". I've also read and agree with the concept that they didn't start out with wings. People that saw them initially mistook their large auras for wings and so portrayed them that way. And as it goes with the collective consciousness...all that energy put into believing it creates it. And so Angels developed wings for themselves because that's how the collective envisions them. Just as Michael can shapeshift and show himself as any age he wants, Angels can give themselves wings. That's all how I see it anyway. Back on the main point - I still think that once a soul has evolved that much, that they don't come back to Earth to reincarnate.
Posting this question here too, because wowww, there is a cool picture at the beginning of part 1 of that "MJ Archangel Michael" video series (part 1: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vgRtGuU-6KM) Such a beautiful picture. :angel: I want to find this art in full resolution. Does anyone know where it's from or where I might find it in better quality? (And this interview is actually kinda interesting, even if I'm not convinced of their theory or that every tiny thing has some meaning to it... like him dying in L.A., the City of Angels. I've thought of this as well, but MANY people die every day in L.A., so what would that really mean.). I can just see it now... my house in the future will be covered with strange spiritual-themed MJ art, lolol. People will come over and think we're really, really strange :lmao: