Merged: Psychics channel Michael

[mjbunny]

Morning, lovelies :heart:

Was dreaming something about Michael very early this morning, but it faded so fast I couldn't hang onto it. I woke up for just a minute or two and when I did I saw a pattern in bright sunlight (the sun had just risen) on the wall beside the bed that kind of looked like a spine. I thought, "Ah, kundalini energy, yes. Got it, you guys " and then went back to sleep. So I wonder what I'd been dreaming, lol. Something meaningful, I guess?

In a later dream my husband came home from work, but he wasn't just my hubby, but like Michael at the same time. Like the two had merged together into one :wild: lolol. And he said his upper leg muscles were really sore because of work. So he stood there in boxers while I massaged his thigh muscles :naughty: LOL. Just a thigh and hamstring massage, I swear! :hysterical:

Yes, this is a good point. This poor lady was wiping her eyes today sitting in the court room. No one parent has to bury the child. This is just against the nature. I saw her picture today on TMZ. She always looked much more younger than her age but this time it is different. I dunno, it is maybe just a picture. I hope God will give her support to go through this hard time. This trial will be very difficult for her. :angel:

Yeah, I'm worried about her too. Said some prayers for her last night. That's just too much to take... all of this, especially at her age now I think we're realizing even more now how they're going to rip MJ's character to shreds ... again I am so not looking forward to this, yet at the same time I just want to get it over with. Know what I mean?

Hello everyone :hug: I hope you´re staying strong for Michael through these though times :heart:
I watched a little bit of the streaming... And oh, I felt soo sad I was crying so much yesterday, and I couldn´t stop. The tears just came flowing out as I kept playing We´ve had enough .... Arrgh, I´m tired of injustice.. I hope you all are okay :heart: L.O.V.E

Hi Tink:hug:Yesterday was certainly not easy, no

Im trying to hold on and be strong. I ask God to give me strength because some days I am so tired and sad. And I know so many MJ fans feel the same. :hug: I really wish I could hug each one of you. I am praying every day that justice will prevail :angel:

I did make a video tonight, it took my mind off of things. and brought me comfort. I love escapism and creating videos allows me to do just that :wub:

Ohhh, that was such a sweet video :wub2: (I couldn't see the other one you posted because... Sony blocking content ) I'm right there with you on sad and tired. If it weren't for each other, how the heck would we survive this? (Again... thank God for the internet.) :heart: :group: :heart:

 

[8701girl]

Yeah, I'm worried about her too. Said some prayers for her last night. That's just too much to take... all of this, especially at her age now I think we're realizing even more now how they're going to rip MJ's character to shreds ... again I am so not looking forward to this, yet at the same time I just want to get it over with. Know what I mean?

Im deeply worried bout mrs jackson too

 

[Bee]

I did make a video tonight, it took my mind off of things. and brought me comfort. I love escapism and creating videos allows me to do just that :wub:

Aaaww...love that video Shayla! Very beautiful. :wub: Gosh he's so full of magic...:angel:

In a later dream my husband came home from work, but he wasn't just my hubby, but like Michael at the same time. Like the two had merged together into one :wild: lolol. And he said his upper leg muscles were really sore because of work. So he stood there in boxers while I massaged his thigh muscles :naughty: LOL. Just a thigh and hamstring massage, I swear! :hysterical:

Great, the cola I was drinking almost came out of my nose reading this! :lmao: Thanks. Lol. But oooh interesting..your hubby and Michael in one form. Very very nice, hahaha. Hope you had fun in the dream.

Yeah, I'm worried about her too. Said some prayers for her last night. That's just too much to take... all of this, especially at her age now I think we're realizing even more now how they're going to rip MJ's character to shreds ... again I am so not looking forward to this, yet at the same time I just want to get it over with. Know what I mean?

Yeah that's what's got me worried as well...I am glad that Janet was there yesterday, I hadn't expected her there. I hope she's somehow involved with raising PPB as well, for some reason I feel comforted to know that she would take care of them....really hope that's the case. At least they got a big family to support each other and I hope they won't let rumours and negativity shred them apart.
About MJ's character - we can't really do anything about it....people are making fun now already saying 'oh he died from a Coca Cola addiction, I'm gonna call my friends to say they shouldn't be drinking to much of that'. For f*ck's sake! :smilerolleyes: It's all gotten back to that level again. But we'll be the ones to keep his legacy alive, we've come so far and so many people opened their eyes after his death, I'm sure at least the half of those people if not more will keep on standing by his side. At least we know the truth...no one can take that from us.

If it weren't for each other, how the heck would we survive this? (Again... thank God for the internet.) :heart: :group: :heart:

Amen. :huggy: :heart:

 

[amygrace]

Hey girls! How are you all? Hopefully better today than yesterday. I'm doing better myself...new day new energy. Hugs to everyone :group:

Shayla - your new video is beautiful! Thanks for sharing that. :heart: Thanks for sharing the other moonwalk one too! Made me smile.

In a later dream my husband came home from work, but he wasn't just my hubby, but like Michael at the same time. Like the two had merged together into one :wild: lolol. And he said his upper leg muscles were really sore because of work. So he stood there in boxers while I massaged his thigh muscles :naughty: LOL. Just a thigh and hamstring massage, I swear! :hysterical:

:lol: ...NICE. A massage certainly wouldn't be all I would do though...:shifty: I mean hey, he was your husband right?! :cheeky:

I think we're realizing even more now how they're going to rip MJ's character to shreds ... again I am so not looking forward to this, yet at the same time I just want to get it over with. Know what I mean?

Ugh...yes. Just reading that I felt my heart ache again. And I can't imagine how tough it must be on Katherine too...she is such a strong woman but you can't just see the pain in her eyes. I'm praying for her.....the children...the family...Michael... :sigh: I wish we could just switch realities

If it weren't for each other, how the heck would we survive this? (Again... thank God for the internet.)

Ohh I know...I'm SO grateful that we all can lean on eachother... I don't know what I'd do without you guys. :group:

 

[Tinkerbell2]

Im trying to hold on and be strong. I ask God to give me strength because some days I am so tired and sad. And I know so many MJ fans feel the same. :hug: I really wish I could hug each one of you. I am praying every day that justice will prevail :angel:

I did make a video tonight, it took my mind off of things. and brought me comfort. I love escapism and creating videos allows me to do just that :wub:

I hope you enjoy this too:
[youtube]Re5ot3X4FcU[/youtube]

:huggy:

Oh wow... I LOVE that video :heart: Thank you for sharing :angel:

 

[CaptainEoLove85]

Hello, I'm still feeling tired and drained from yesterday. Oh, I know poor Katherine. It breaks my heart every time I see her. Still sending my prayers to all of the Jackson family. I just can't even imagine what they're going through right now.

And then just watching TMZ after the whole ordeal, it was completely absurd. I couldn't watch anymore.

I think Michael was in part of my dream early this morning. I was lined up with other fans to meet him and give him a hug, but I don't think I ever got to meet him.

Im trying to hold on and be strong. I ask God to give me strength because some days I am so tired and sad. And I know so many MJ fans feel the same. :hug: I really wish I could hug each one of you. I am praying every day that justice will prevail :angel:

I did make a video tonight, it took my mind off of things. and brought me comfort. I love escapism and creating videos allows me to do just that :wub:

I hope you enjoy this too:
[youtube]Re5ot3X4FcU[/youtube]

Thanks for that video. I love it. :wub: After what happened yesterday I just felt the need to watch happy Michael videos for a while, and it helped a little.

Hugs to everyone. :huggy:

 

[mjbunny]

So I see it's still fairly quiet here today. I listened to radio shows about consciousness and stuff, then watched some TV... needed an escape from it all, I guess. One show on TV tonight was a documentary called Starsuckers about celebrity culture and the media screwing everyone over for money (http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1510934/). Before that hubby and I talked a lot about Michael. He was boiling about Ed Chernoff on GMA and I'm still kind of upset about everything, also about the way some acted yesterday (hate, "murderer!", "true fans" talk, etc), about the media calling fans "crazy" and going on and on with that "killed himself" BS :angry: and then there are the hoax folks who were tweeting "FreeMurray" last night . Aghgh. ...

Ok, I think I'm gonna piss myself off again if I keep thinking about it all, so nevermind...

Asedora - Strange dream. Made me think of trying to get somewhere (connected with Michael maybe?) and having problems due to some conflict inside. Yeah, or maybe just a story. Seems pretty symbolic though, right?

:lol: ...NICE. A massage certainly wouldn't be all I would do though...:shifty: I mean hey, he was your husband right?! :cheeky:

Amygrace - :lol: Yeah, but my intentions seemed so darned pure at that moment, and then I woke up. Dammit :doh: lol

 

[Mundy]

Hey guys. I just wanted to drop in and say hi. I hope everyone's ok.

I Just found a song in the back of my diary that I wrote about Michael last October so I'm gonna work on that for a while.

Sending my love to all of you :heart:

 

[mjbunny]

Oh yeah, now I remember something else I was going to say. Early in the morning on April 5th a coronal mass ejection from the sun hit Earth and we've had a solar storm going on since then. We haven't had much like this for a couple of years, actually, because the solar cycle was in the quiet period. Remember when I posted about reading how intuition, dreams, etc are affected by quiet or stormy geomagnetic fields? We've had a very physical reason (the court date) to feel all messed up since yesterday, but I wonder if this storm has anything to do with it http://www.swpc.noaa.gov/rt_plots/kp_3d.html I think I'll start watching this more closely. Just to see if there seems to be something to it.

 

[mjbunny]

I was looking through some old poems of mine and found some that make me go "whoa", because I could've written them about Michael (and maybe I did on some level... I often can't remember everything I was thinking back then and he's certainly always been an inspiration). This isn't one of the best ones, but it immediately made me think of Michael :angel:

My Angel, My Light

I close my eyes and drift away,
The speakers release that song, our song, into the room,
It fills my heart with memories from another place,
A world where once I had you,
A time when once I touched you,

And your soul I feel this time as well,
It's still you - my friend whose kisses quenched,
Whose loving touch could always soothe my spirit,
I can still hear it in your voice,
I can still feel it in your words,

And while we've changed so many times,
Nothing in your eyes has told me differently,
And when I close mine I can feel your sweet love,
My heart wells up with joy,
My soul is filled with peace,

So I lie here, lost in music,
But truly lost in you, for so strongly I feel you now,
You awaken within me joy and hope... but mostly love,
Love for you, my angel, my light,
And love for all the world. :heart:

 

[raz2911]

mjbunny that poem is beautiful :heart:

Ryan.

 

[amygrace]

So slow today!
I have nothing psychic or spiritual to add but I wanted to share with you guys some photos I just took of my new Michael-Krishna print!

I took the art from that one girl and designed it up the way I liked...then ordered an 11x14 print of it. Isn't it lovely? :wub:

I had a dream with MJ mother Katherine involved. In my dream I knew that MJ passed away and Katherine invited me to visit his grave She said it is OK for her if I will visit it. It was like she likes me a lot and she wanted me to be there. In my dream it looked like it was a privilege and I was very thankful.

Aw ...nice that you had the privilege of going with them though. Not sure if there's a meaning to the dream overall.

We've had a very physical reason (the court date) to feel all messed up since yesterday, but I wonder if this storm has anything to do with it http://www.swpc.noaa.gov/rt_plots/kp_3d.html I think I'll start watching this more closely. Just to see if there seems to be something to it.

Interesting...wondering what all it's really affecting too. Thanks for the link.

So I lie here, lost in music,
But truly lost in you, for so strongly I feel you now,
You awaken within me joy and hope... but mostly love,
Love for you, my angel, my light,
And love for all the world. :heart:

Isn't awesome when you look back in your archives and find some real gems you forgot about? Lovely poem...this last part was my favorite. :angel:

 

[PaceMioDolceCuore]

So slow today!
I have nothing psychic or spiritual to add but I wanted to share with you guys some photos I just took of my new Michael-Krishna print!

I took the art from that one girl and designed it up the way I liked...then ordered an 11x14 print of it. Isn't it lovely? :wub:

Nice music corner, Amy! I like it!

I think I'll somehow have to put Horus and MJ together in frame over my piano- my music corner does have MJ sheets displayed next to Mozart sheets.

 

[amygrace]

Nice music corner, Amy! I like it!

I think I'll somehow have to put Horus and MJ together in frame over my piano- my music corner does have MJ sheets displayed next to Mozart sheets.

Thanks! My music corner would look a lot cooler but I'm hoping to move soon so I don't want to waste time doing it up nice. Horus and Michael would be lovely! I definitely want to do some Egyptian style stuff with Michael in my decorating too... will have to think about that more once I move.

In real life I REALLY love his mother. I do not know why. For some reason I feel very connected with her in spirit. . She is my type of person I would feel comfortable to deal with.

Aww, well that explains it. :heart:

 

[MJstarlight]

wow that is gorgeous Amy! I love how you choose Red as the background. Red and Black were Michaels favorite colors!!! :wub:

 

[xo_lola_xo]

I had a dream that a woman was offering me biscuits and I was eating them and they were yum. I'm gonna go look up what this means :lol:


Woman
To see a woman in your dream, represents nurturance, passivity, caring nature, and love. It refers to your own female aspects or may also represent your mother.


Sweets
To see or eat sweets in you dream, represents indulgence, sensuality, and some forbidden pleasure. Perhaps you have been depriving yourself of some joy or pleasure. Alternatively, it may symbolize your rewards. This dream symbol may also be a metaphor for your sweetie or the special someone in your life.

 

[Bee]

I had a dream with MJ mother Katherine involved. In my dream I knew that MJ passed away and Katherine invited me to visit his grave She said it is OK for her if I will visit it. It was like she likes me a lot and she wanted me to be there. In my dream it looked like it was a privilege and I was very thankful.

Aw that's really sweet! :angel:

Oh yeah, now I remember something else I was going to say. Early in the morning on April 5th a coronal mass ejection from the sun hit Earth and we've had a solar storm going on since then. We haven't had much like this for a couple of years, actually, because the solar cycle was in the quiet period. Remember when I posted about reading how intuition, dreams, etc are affected by quiet or stormy geomagnetic fields? We've had a very physical reason (the court date) to feel all messed up since yesterday, but I wonder if this storm has anything to do with it http://www.swpc.noaa.gov/rt_plots/kp_3d.html I think I'll start watching this more closely. Just to see if there seems to be something to it.

Very interesting, let us know when you found some more info! I do feel strange lately, it's like it's all coming back again. I just woke up with this homesick feeling for Michael...weird, didn't wake up like that for months and I was missing him so bad yesterday as well. Maybe it's also because of the court stuff though.
Also read there was an earthquake again, this time in Indonesia....the world is so trying to tell us something.

I was looking through some old poems of mine and found some that make me go "whoa", because I could've written them about Michael (and maybe I did on some level... I often can't remember everything I was thinking back then and he's certainly always been an inspiration). This isn't one of the best ones, but it immediately made me think of Michael :angel:

Beautiful, right on. :heart:

I have nothing psychic or spiritual to add but I wanted to share with you guys some photos I just took of my new Michael-Krishna print!

Whoa awesome. Looks very nice! And cool you're gonna move, are you changing cities as well or..? Good luck with that!


Okay - I just woke up from a dream where I was constantly running away for a big brown snake, I was crawling on closets and stuff. Though it did almost bite me. It was all in a house and I was with my parents, my dad held the snake for a while. When I asked for it, the snake could change forms and so I saw him going flashy and white and bam, there was a dog...loool. I remember thinking 'only if Michael told me it was safe I would've trusted him to come close to that snake, no one else'. Because I knew how he had taken care of his snake. Then I woke up, after thinking that. :lol:
Just searched it up, dreaming about snakes can mean you're becoming aware of your spirituality. A snake is a symbol for change and transformations. Dogs are a symbol for friendship, love and trust. Hmm...so the change is gonna come? Or something? I hope so. Can't really get the message out here, also because dreaming of a snake can mean negative things as well. Hmmm.:scratch:

Not so much interesting on Michael to add further! Seems all kinda low these days. Would be logical though with so much going on.
I bet Michael has his 'head' full of stuff. Have a lovely day y'all! :huggy:

 

[cyberjackson]

Hey everyone, long time no see. I've missed you all.
MJstarlight, great video! Always good to see sweet vids like that.
Mjbunny, I liked your poem. Keep up the writing.;D
Mrs.Music, hey chicky hope all is well with you.
Amygrace, that photo is pretty cool. It's different, unique, and pretty sweet.

I haven't been watching the news or tweeting. A TON of shit has been going on, so I haven't been ya know.. paying attention. I haven't been myself lately. I feel very disconnected from everything..and spiritually empty. :worried: You know when eople say bad things come in 3's? Well mine has come in like 8's and shit! I miss Michael so much, and I miss having a happy family. Sometimes life just doesn't look nice. I am wondering if God is up there. I never thought I would ever say those words.:boohoo: Things keep getting worse and worse. Nothing good has come out of anything that has been happening. I need a miracle or something. I miss being happy and feeling alive. I feel so lifeless. I am finding it hard to cope with things.:teary_eyed: I feel alone, frustrated, and scared.

Sorry guys, this is why I haven't posted much lately. I don't like to sound negative. Like I said, I need some sort of miracle or angel...

L.O.V.E to you all.

 

[Bee]

^ Honey! Good to see you popping in here. Sorry to hear you feel so bad, I know all too well about it myself unfortunately. Really really really hope everything is gonna be better and brighter for you from now on. Don't lose the faith - and remember Michael would be proud of you for going on strong. I hope that miracle is gonna come for you. Much strength & love! :huggy: :heart:

 

[TarinJade]

So slow today!
I have nothing psychic or spiritual to add but I wanted to share with you guys some photos I just took of my new Michael-Krishna print!

I took the art from that one girl and designed it up the way I liked...then ordered an 11x14 print of it. Isn't it lovely? :wub:

Very lovely...especially with the guitar next to it! Beautiful frame too.

 

[8701girl]

Ohh I know...I'm SO grateful that we all can lean on eachother... I don't know what I'd do without you guys. :group:

I feel the same way.

 

[mjbunny]

So slow today! I have nothing psychic or spiritual to add but I wanted to share with you guys some photos I just took of my new Michael-Krishna print!

Haven't read the rest of the new posts yet... just saw this and lol, that is so cool and beautiful And crazy, because... something I ordered from Berndt Offerings just arrived this morning... AND I replied to an email from my mom with that big long list of things in common with Krishna (like the gopis, etc) and a link to the MJ Krishna art pic. Oh man, not more coincidences :rofl:

 

[mjbunny]

I do not know. It seems to me that it is good that I did not visit his grave because he is kind of alive for me in spirit. This is why I went to a different direction?Mjbunny your poem is beautiful :angel:

Oh, thanks about the old poem :hug: (and to Ryan, Amygrace, Bianca, Cyberjackson and if I'm forgetting anyone :heart. Asedora, that dream interpretation seems right on with the later part to me as well, yeah... about going a different direction. Like to go to a grave is sadness and focusing on the physical and death, but there's another direction with cute kitty cats?

Thanks! My music corner would look a lot cooler but I'm hoping to move soon so I don't want to waste time doing it up nice. Horus and Michael would be lovely! I definitely want to do some Egyptian style stuff with Michael in my decorating too... will have to think about that more once I move.

Ooooo, me too, Amy and ModAlert! Something Egyptian would rock. I don't think my skills are up to snuff for something big and amazing, but maybe someone will be inspired at some point? Souldreamer had the coolest siggy pic a while back, with MJ as pharoah :cheeky:

Also read there was an earthquake again, this time in Indonesia....the world is so trying to tell us something.

And I just read that Rio is having the worst rains in their history. It's flooded, mud slides everywhere. And one of the first things that popped into my head was that scene from '2012' when the Jesus statue on the mountaintop collapses :mello:

I remember thinking 'only if Michael told me it was safe I would've trusted him to come close to that snake, no one else'. Because I knew how he had taken care of his snake. Then I woke up, after thinking that. :lol: Just searched it up, dreaming about snakes can mean you're becoming aware of your spirituality. A snake is a symbol for change and transformations. Dogs are a symbol for friendship, love and trust. Hmm...so the change is gonna come? Or something? I hope so. Can't really get the message out here, also because dreaming of a snake can mean negative things as well. Hmmm.:scratch:

Hmmm, I'd say dogs represent friendship and trust only if that's your personal experience with dogs. If you're afraid of dogs, for instance, then they're not going to mean that to you at all. Interesting about the other part...so in some way you could say that if the snake represents spirituality, you'd trust Michael's word on it? If it represents something scary, you'd trust it only if Michael said it was ok. And if the snake represents something else snakelike that I won't mention? :lmao: Sorry, Freud invaded my primitive little mind for a split second :naughty: :lol: Since you were wary of the snake, maybe you're a bit scared of some inner spiritual ability, who you are inside, etc? The fact that you asked it to change and it did sounds like YOU have the power to make it what you want. And then it turned into a dog, so something presumably less threatening... so there's another way to look at what scares you? Another way to approach it? You can tackle the issue directly or as if it's a dog, whichever way you choose?

Interesting about the SNAKE as well, because it's also representative of kundalini energy. Just yesterday I wrote that I woke up from a dream at an odd time and looked at the wall and saw the light pattern in segments, like a spine on my wall and I said, "Ah, kundalini!" It made total sense. I'd been dreaming something about Michael, but can't remember what. Then this morning I wake up at nearly the exact same time, the only 5 to 10 minute period where the sunlight makes that pattern on the wall. (And this is too early for me to wake up, so I just fell back asleep both times.) So snake... kundalini... interesting.

I haven't been watching the news or tweeting. A TON of shit has been going on, so I haven't been ya know.. paying attention. I haven't been myself lately. I feel very disconnected from everything..and spiritually empty. :worried: You know when eople say bad things come in 3's? Well mine has come in like 8's and shit! I miss Michael so much, and I miss having a happy family. Sometimes life just doesn't look nice. I am wondering if God is up there. I never thought I would ever say those words.:boohoo: Things keep getting worse and worse. Nothing good has come out of anything that has been happening. I need a miracle or something. I miss being happy and feeling alive. I feel so lifeless. I am finding it hard to cope with things.:teary_eyed: I feel alone, frustrated, and scared.
Sorry guys, this is why I haven't posted much lately. I don't like to sound negative. Like I said, I need some sort of miracle or angel...

Ohhh, I wish there was something we could do :hug: That really sucks. I agree that sometimes the sh*t seems to come in way more than 3's. Yep. You know, that old saying "this too shall pass" is so true, though. It has to. It won't last forever. Nothing does here. I know those are just words, but there's truth in them. Put your headphones on and blast "Keep the Faith" over and over while I send some positive energy your way. I hope things start going better right away :hug: :angel: :heart:

 

[cyberjackson]

mjbunny -Ohhh, I wish there was something we could do :hug: That really sucks. I agree that sometimes the sh*t seems to come in way more than 3's. Yep. You know, that old saying "this too shall pass" is so true, though. It has to. It won't last forever. Nothing does here. I know those are just words, but there's truth in them. Put your headphones on and blast "Keep the Faith" over and over while I send some positive energy your way. I hope things start going better right away :hug: :angel: :heart:

Thank you for the love and positive energy. :flowers: It's nice to have friends that listen and know how to comfort. I feel like I am slowly going insane. I definately don't feel like "the Sarah" I used to be. I feel like everything has taken its toll on me. I am starting to understand how things can push someone to the brink od not wanting to live. Not that I am going to take me own life or anything. I just feel worthless and helpless all at the same time. I know I have my health, but I am feeling ill all the time because of things that are happeneing to me lately. I don't even want to go outside or go out anymore. I feel like I am turning into a recluse. I go to work, and then home... and that's it. I don't like leaving my flat (apartment). I wish we could all meet up sometime. That would be so cool.

Mrs.Music -^ Honey! Good to see you popping in here. Sorry to hear you feel so bad, I know all too well about it myself unfortunately. Really really really hope everything is gonna be better and brighter for you from now on. Don't lose the faith - and remember Michael would be proud of you for going on strong. I hope that miracle is gonna come for you. Much strength & love! :huggy: :heart:

Thanks Mrs.Music. I found out some more crazy twists on what's been going on with my family. I'll PM you later about it. Let's just say that I have a very disfunctional family! My poor mom and grandma..:no:. I am just so deep in depression it's not even funny.:sad2: It's so hard to smile or to be happy with anything. Like I said to mjbunny, I feel so worthlesss and useless. I was so hoping that 2010 would have some goodness about it and be better than crappy 2009. It's just hopeless at this point. The other day I just wanted to die. I know I shouldn't say things like that but I'm only being honest in how I have been feeling. I hope you are doing ok and much love to your mom and family. I'm glad there are people who understand me. Much love..and hearing that Michael would be proud is actually comforting. Thanks hun.:huggy:

 

[cyberjackson]

Hello everybody!
This morning I woke with a strong feeling that I want Michael back. This is the same feeling like I had back in July. I remember , back in July I was thinking that if all ppl will pray real hard, God will bring him back. I truly believed that we could do it. It was very naïve, I know
The spring morning was so beautiful today. There was no wind, the air was clear and it is real warm outside. It feels like the nature is preparing for another “dance of life”. I told myself: I want him back to this world! I want this dream to come back! I want him to see it, i want him to be a part of it!

Then I ended with tears again…. .

:better: I know how you feel...

 

[Louise.]

cyberjackson - Hun, sending positive vibes your way. :better:

Asedora - I know the feeling.

I'm feeling really "blah" today. Not sure why, just having one of those days I guess. I had a dream with Michael in last night, and then I wake up feeling happy, and then bam, you realise it's only a dream.

*sigh*

Hugs to everyone. :hug:

 

[mjbunny]

Hi Louise! :heart:

This morning I woke with a strong feeling that I want Michael back. This is the same feeling like I had back in July. I remember , back in July I was thinking that if all ppl will pray real hard, God will bring him back. I truly believed that we could do it. It was very naïve, I know The spring morning was so beautiful today. There was no wind, the air was clear and it is real warm outside. It feels like the nature is preparing for another “dance of life”. I told myself: I want him back to this world! I want this dream to come back! I want him to see it, i want him to be a part of it! Then I ended up with tears again…. .

Oh I've said it before and will say it again... I really had this bit of faith inside in the few days after that there could be some miracle, like suddenly Michael is alive and well and everyone's like :bugeyed:wild: I thought, if LOVE can do something, if it has power, surely the amount of love for Michael could overcome death! I was almost waiting for that news, you know. And then... :no: I guess that was a crazy and desperate hope, and I'm not saying he was a messiah figure, just that sooooo many people love him, truly love him. Couldn't that do something??? But now I figure... maybe it was meant to be. Maybe once over there he didn't want to come back. Maybe he was just exhausted of it all. Maybe he could see/remember the plan and knew it was for the best (the best in that way in which we can't comprehend it at the moment). Ugghhh.

This morning the last dream I remember was that a huge party was going on (at my old high school?) It was a huge event that everyone would attend. Some costume party. But I couldn't go until quite late because I had committed to participate in "Hands Across the World". I couldn't seem to get into my costume, hubby left for the party, everyone was laughing and having a good time, heading to the party. At this point I kind of thought... ah, it's just a party. And if I miss it? Not really that big of a deal, I guess. :mello: I stayed with others to hold hands (while lying down on a giant bed, lol) to somehow make a stand for the world somewhere a block or so away from the party. But we fell asleep! I woke up at something like 2:45 in the morning still holding hands with people :doh:, but the party was still going on. Weird. I guess it meant that I feel like I might miss "the party" by trying to heal the world/do what's right / make a change? But to go to the the party required putting on a costume... i.e. not being yourself, hiding your true self. I chose to just be me and join the cause. However we fell asleep, so I guess there's a danger of "falling asleep" metaphorically (give up, forget the reasons, etc). Or it meant we must fall asleep and hand it over to a higher power/higher selves? But I think it's the former. :scratch:

Thank you for the love and positive energy. :flowers: It's nice to have friends that listen and know how to comfort. I feel like I am slowly going insane. I definately don't feel like "the Sarah" I used to be.

:hug:

 

[mjbunny]

^ When I wrote that, a song on my player ended and Lightning Crashes by Live (which I didn't even realize was on here, since it hasn't come up for ages) began. Just kind of... weird. (Or I'm just making it weird, lol. In any case, it's a great song )

 

[mjbunny]

It was the same with me. I was waiting and checking news every day hoping that he will come back. I was thinking that it has to be miricle and ppl love him. And yes i still believe that love can do something like that but it has to be the right time. With Michael it was too late imo

It's so tough to think of that, right? Like what were you doing when he was ... leaving us. And we didn't know. No idea :boohoo: I had a very strange experience that morning involving Michael that I believe was like a goodbye (sorry if I want to keep that as one of my special private things), but I had no clue at the time what it meant. It would've been like 9:30pm June 24th in L.A. at that moment. Then later that day for me I listened to Michael, nothing but him, all day long nonstop (and that's very rare to not mix it up a bit). Then for around 20 minutes or so that evening I got really shaky for seemingly no reason. Like I vibrating. I didn't feel anything was wrong somewhere, but my body was shaking. It was weird enough to note. That would've been sometime around 10:20-11:00 am in L.A. But I didn't know what was going on None of us did. Could it have made a difference? The thought is a moot point now, though...

 

[Bee]

Hmmm, I'd say dogs represent friendship and trust only if that's your personal experience with dogs. If you're afraid of dogs, for instance, then they're not going to mean that to you at all. Interesting about the other part...so in some way you could say that if the snake represents spirituality, you'd trust Michael's word on it? If it represents something scary, you'd trust it only if Michael said it was ok. And if the snake represents something else snakelike that I won't mention? :lmao: Sorry, Freud invaded my primitive little mind for a split second :naughty: :lol:

Well I don't know if I found the dog comforting or scary in my dream, I've been really afraid of dogs but not anymore since I have one myself. I guess you're right about trusting if Michael said it's okay/gives his word! That's what I kinda got out of it too. At least I've learned so much of him in those subjects that I do trust him like that. Hmmm.

LMAO @ 'snakelike'....yeah it was a long brown snake (!) and guess what his petname was...Mike Jr!!!!! :shifty: HAHAHAHAH. Shiieeet. :lmao:
(I have to admit that when I typed out the dream I said something like "I would only trust Michael to handle the snake" and I was like....ahem, that could quite possibly be read wrong, and there it is...looool.)

Since you were wary of the snake, maybe you're a bit scared of some inner spiritual ability, who you are inside, etc? The fact that you asked it to change and it did sounds like YOU have the power to make it what you want. And then it turned into a dog, so something presumably less threatening... so there's another way to look at what scares you? Another way to approach it? You can tackle the issue directly or as if it's a dog, whichever way you choose?

Yes I've been thinking lately how 'scary' it actually is how spiritual I am, that I've grown so much in it and also that sometimes I doubt my abilities. Guess you're right on with these interpretations, makes a lot sense....you never fail to give some new insights! Thanks!

Interesting about the SNAKE as well, because it's also representative of kundalini energy.

Hmm I just read that Wikipedia page, interesting...I've had painshocks just yesterday in that part of my back that is described, I always get that when I'm stressed out and so on. Started when I was little, sometimes I can't even get up...it's weird 'cause it's not like...in my muscles or something, or that I can find the right place to massage it and it'll go away. It's not really 'physical' or something, does that make sense? I just need to lay down completely still, relax my mind and wait till it's over which can take so long. I was telling this to my mum yesterday 'cause I've had it often when I was a child as well and I remember one time my dad was SO angry at me and I got that pain again so I laid down on my bed and he got back again and pulled me off the bed...and the pain got sooo heavy. So...that's interesting that I read this now...could have nothing to do with it at all but funny coincidence nontheless. :lol:

Thanks Mrs.Music. I found out some more crazy twists on what's been going on with my family. I'll PM you later about it. Let's just say that I have a very disfunctional family! My poor mom and grandma..:no:. I am just so deep in depression it's not even funny.:sad2: It's so hard to smile or to be happy with anything. Like I said to mjbunny, I feel so worthlesss and useless. I was so hoping that 2010 would have some goodness about it and be better than crappy 2009. It's just hopeless at this point. The other day I just wanted to die. I know I shouldn't say things like that but I'm only being honest in how I have been feeling. I hope you are doing ok and much love to your mom and family. I'm glad there are people who understand me. Much love..and hearing that Michael would be proud is actually comforting. Thanks hun.:huggy:

Oh gosh....I'm soooo sorry for you. That is so awful, I can understand how you can feel a recluse and not even see any worth in living anymore. Good you also realize there's no solution to 'giving up' though. It's probably all a big test of life...you'll get through and you'll get out of it much stronger, try to keep that in mind...it's hard to see that now, but you will. And not just saying Michael would be proud to comfort you, but because it's true...keep believing that, always. (Pst, hidden link! Lol.) I'll see your PM coming, feel free to let it all out hun! I'm there. :better: :heart:

And yeah it would indeed be so cool to meet up physically instead of psychically (hey I got the words right Amy!) someday as well. Too bad we're like spread across the globe and not really close either, haha. But who knows, maybe some meet up or anything in the future will create an opportunity for at least some of us if not all. :angel:

I'm feeling really "blah" today. Not sure why, just having one of those days I guess. I had a dream with Michael in last night, and then I wake up feeling happy, and then bam, you realise it's only a dream.

Had the same thing this morning, totally sucks. Hope you'll get better through the day. :huggy: