Gunjan
Proud Member
I miss you.
Awww.It seems every time a guy tries to chat me up, it just makes me so sad that they never seem on the same wavelength as me. They're so hung up on society's standards and views on maturity, dating, gender roles and age - things I don't connect with at all. This scares me to death, that I won't ever find someone to spend my life with because I'm afraid what I want may be unattainable. And it's such a shame that that's how it is. Michael, you were everything I wanted in a guy and the sad part is - anyone that's not you just feels like settling...
I don't know that I've ever cared for anyone the way I care for you. Not just love, something else - I can only liken it to what a parent must feel for their child - this deep empathy, feeling every little thing you feel. An overwhelming need to give you everything you need and desire, to make sure you're happy. Wanting to just hold you in my arms and tell you it's all going to be alright while I rock you to sleep. I've never felt as defensive and as protective over anything else in the world, especially since you left. Sometimes it seems that with each day that passes, it only gets harder. I hope, with all of my heart, that a part of you is still out there somewhere - grinning so wide, just howling, screaming laughing, so incredibly happy in a way you couldn't have even dreamt up. I love you forever.
MJ, please give me an answer please sending your message through my dreams, I have questions about the meaning of "This is it" song. Is important for me to clear it out, or else it will forever stay a mystery. Where you are now there is no postal adress to write the letter to. I wish I could have an adress to write a letter to Heaven.