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Two months on from that awful day in June when we found out our hero, our Michael, had died...

I was wondering how people are feeling now. Has the reality sunk in? Is it any less painful? Is it easier to listen to his music now than last month?

And what have we learned? About the man, his vulnerabilities, his choices?

So much has happened in the last two months. So much has changed. His popularity is bigger possibly than at any time for the last 20 years, his legacy is assured.

And slowly, though all the lies and the scandals, the truth about Michael is coming out. How does it make you feel?

Michael, two months on, still not buried but his soul, his legend, his magnificence shines brighter than ever before....
 
I was coming round to accepting that Michael had gone. But then yesterday's news hit that Michael was killed and it's like June 25th all over again :( Just hurts more now :cry:
 
Sugarsiri said:
I was coming round to accepting that Michael had gone. But then yesterday's news hit that Michael was killed and it's like June 25th all over again :( Just hurts more now :cry:
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I feel exactly the same. Just lately I hadn't feel so empty about it all, and was starting to gradually feel at peace. Then I saw the news last night, and I'm just feeling completely awful all over again, and like you said, it felt like 25th June all over again. All I've been thinking about today after seeing the news, is how he should still be here. :(
 
2 months on..
the pain is still there. The sadness is still there. The tears are still there,
every night. I've been to Londen, I was supposed to see Michael in
concert on august 10. I was there, but Michael was not, and I can't
describe how much that hurt...
I am 35 years old, en been MJ fan since I was 13. (1987) Michael
gave me the most beautifull days of my live when I saw his concerts
in Rotterdam en Amsterdam. (3 in total). I am even angry with myself,
why haven't I seen him more often? Why not go to more concerts..
I could have seen him more times.. a stupid thougt maybe, but I
am angry with myself for not going to more concerts.
I have never been happier than at a Michael concert, those are the
most beautifull memories I have, and I cherish them. Michael has given
me so much love, more than anyone.
I miss Michael so much, it hurts. I love him from the bottom of my heart.
And I am very thankfull for everything he has given us, and happy I was
able to experience al the magic. I will never forget.
Today is a very sad day..
 
Louise. said:
I feel exactly the same. Just lately I hadn't feel so empty about it all, and was starting to gradually feel at peace. Then I saw the news last night, and I'm just feeling completely awful all over again, and like you said, it felt like 25th June all over again. All I've been thinking about today after seeing the news, is how he should still be here. :(
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He should be. The injustice of it all is killing me here. It's so unfair. This should have never happened.

I've been through some truely horrendous things in my lifetime, but I have NEVER felt more heartbroken than I do now. It physically hurts. Like a heavy pain in my chest, agonising. I actually think this is making me ill.:(
 
everytime i try to acknowledge myself that mike is gone...
and adapt life without him...
I fail...
i don't know, i just can't!
i can't say it so sad but life goes on...
no my life can never go on without my sweet michael...
without my angel...
it's impossible...

i'm just trying to find ways to meet him again, nothing else is in my mind any more...
 
That feeling that he will return suddenly. I don't know how to accept this..It makes me cry sometimes..especially when I read news of those who hurted him and are still hurting him..
His Children are stark reminder of Michael..I don't want to go through this torture he went through..It is all about the Money..
 
in time it'll heal right? but i think time stop for me since then.

i don't really remember anything i did for the last 2 months.
and june 25th seems like it was just yesterday.
 
I don't know. I have good and bad moments. Sometimes I feel like I'm going crazy.
 
Sometimes I still feel like he's still here, especially when I listen to his music or watch videos, but when I stop, I'm brought back to that unfortunate reality that he isn't here. In fact, I don't like saying that he isn't here. :(

Honestly, I'm still sad, but I've been getting angrier and angrier since June 25th, especially with yesterday's news. That just officially pissed me off even more and made everything even worse. It also kinda felt like June 25th all over again... I mean, homicide?! Deep down, I always kinda believed that it could turn into a homicide case, but to now have it confirmed... :(

He's still supposed to be here. :cry:
 
2 months on... and I wish we could go back 2 months and save him from what was about to happen poor Michael :( Maybe he is better off out of this nasty corrupt world :( I really hope he has found peace now bless him.

The truth needs to come out, we need justice for Michael.
 
I have good days and bad days. Today is a bad day, both because of the news reports that have come out in the last 24 hours, and the fact that it's the 25th, marking two months.
 
I can't say I feel better.I'm still dumbfounded and probably the shock of his death will never pass.It gets sadder as days go by...I'm listening to his music easier now,but when the music stops,you realize he's gone.sad...the sadness will never leave.
 
I am still sad. Everytime I listen to his music, in the back of my mind I find myself wondering what he will do next, and then I remember. :( That is the hardest part. Remembering that there will be nothing new anymore. Just remembering.

It gets a little easier every day though...it's just part of the healing and growing process though...
 
Im doing OK. Somedays are horrible. Some days I cry from morning to night off and on. When I watch his concerts, movies, interviews and sad songs I burst out with no control over myself... Other times, as with reading this Dr Murray scandal, I feel calm, collected and angry and just want to solve this case. Depends on what Im doing. If Im watching and thinking about Michaels voice and his laugh then I really cant control it.. But when I watch this ''crime case'' unfold I become very cold and collected and act like a robot like this is a murder case Im trying to solve and that there is no time for emotions.

I let my feelings go at night... Thats when I watch his interviews.. listen to his inspiring songs.. watch his memorial and cry myself to sleep...
 
I cried tonight for the first time since he died. At schoool we have been practicing for a tribute show we are doing in memory of him,,and when i came home i have been playing heal the world over and over,it made me cry like a baby :(
 
Exactly 2 months ago, our world fell apart...
They took him away from us due to money, greed and selfishness.
I realize he's gone, but I still can't believe it.
 
Like most of us, I have good days and bad days - had a bad few days last week.

Today started off pretty crap. I've been doing night shifts at the hospital this week and managed to get into a full on row with some bastard of an anaesthetist about yesterdays news,which led to a formal caution. WHAAHAYYYYY!!!!!

This evening I was really pissed off and couldn't sleep because there was a big thunderstorm and it had been raining heavilly, suddenly the sun came out and there was a beautiful double rainbow that stayed for about half an hour. I felt very peaceful when I saw it.
 
I've been on an emotional rollercoaster. I haven't cried each and every day; but I've shed tears from time to time. The funny (peculiar) thing for me is when I heard the news of Michael's death June 25th, I didn't cry...not because I didn't care (I've LOVED the man since I was a little girl in the 1970's) but because I was just so shocked and numbed by it all. I didn't start crying until maybe a week or so later. Even now I still cannot cry; but I'm hurting everyday over Michael's passing. Right now he should be in London bringing the house down with his performances with his children seeing their father in action on stage working his audience in a frenzy. Michael should be here continually raising his children, watching them grow up. He should be having another chance at love---this time with the RIGHT woman. He should be continuing enjoying Family Days with his parents and brothers, sisters, nieces, nephews, cousins. He should have been reaching his 51st birthday this weekend.

Believe it or not, despite how I feel, I'm still able to listen to Michael's solo music as well as his music with his brothers as the Jackson 5 and Jacksons. In fact, this past weekend, I watched the entire 1992 Dangerous concert when he was in Bucharest, Romania and for that time, I was able to escape to when Michael was still with us. I was jamming and bopping my head and was mesmerized seeing him perform. For me, hearing his music and seeing footages of him performing is a relief and a joy for me---not a heartbreaking torment. Makes me remember why I always loved him from afar. But after the music is off the harsh reality of Michael being gone at the hands of no-good people, is here once again.

I'm saddened but I'm mostly angry--which is maybe why I cannot cry. Sometimes I don't even want to watch TV regarding Michael's death. This beautiful man is dead and the people (they're not good enough to be called 'people' in my opinion) who contributed to his death and/or turmoil over the years are still walking around, benefiting from his demise. I'm so very angry that if I could reach through the TV screen to choke them I would.
 
last night I cried, I didn't know they were coming.... that news yesterday hit me as well. Today I am just sad.... I don't know how I'll handle Michael's birthday :( For the last month i was doing okay! But... like I said.. the news... grrr it just makes me sick that these greedy people had to kill him. :(
 
Sugarsiri said:
I was coming round to accepting that Michael had gone. But then yesterday's news hit that Michael was killed and it's like June 25th all over again :( Just hurts more now :cry:
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yes me too I feel exactly the same way...:cry:....I think I feel worse now because I was waiting, even though I knew the results would be what they were I was just hoping that maybe Michael wasn't murdered. The stuff that Murray did to Michael is just so wrong. To think that Michael was given drug after drug just kills me inside. :cry::cry:
 
i still feel very sad,,,,especially after learning how lonley and lost he felt....makes me cry all over again...
 
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