I was babysitting my 2 and 5 yr old grandsons at their home. My son came home from work and was acting very odd. One of the first things he said was "mom, would you like a cold beer?". I thought that was such a strange question/comment, I thought wth?
My grandsons and I had been watching Elmo videos, so I hadn't heard anything. My son then said "Michael's on life support and they don't expect him to live". I just went numb in disbelief, and we turned on the tv in the kitchen, and all the major networks were announcing his death. He kept asking me "are you okay?". Well, I drank that beer he offered me and then went home. As much as I was having a hard time digesting the fact that Michael was indeed dead, the thought kept running through my head how this would affect so many fans, ultimately knowing that many of them would be potential suicide victims.
The finality of it all really didn't sink in right away, it took days and days of watching everything on tv, and reading on the board, for it to really hit me that he was indeed gone forever.