New Fan and Thoroughly Addicted to Everything About This Man!

[Lacra]

Whew... I have so many feelings and so much to say lol. Let me attempt to express myself...

I only really read the first handful of postings yet, but your opening posting already made me smile so much. I love when I see new fans, it just really makes me happy!

But like...will this ever end? Because I'm 33 years old and I did not sign up to fall in love with a celebrity at this age lol. Especially because I truly am not someone who has ever obsessed over celebrities in my entire life. Seriously. This is not normal for me at all.

HAHA! For me it always was kind of normal to have phases where I obsess over certain things, but when it's about celebrities, nothing ever touches the level of Michael. Will it end? Hmmm. For me personally, it always comes back in phases. I was already a fan when I was a child, but I stopped paying attention to him for a while when I was a teen.

Then, in 2004 I started getting back into him. And from that moment on I was obsessed. Since 2005 I was active in the fandom, and there were only short times when Michael wasn't really my focus. Since 2005 he is always there. But my new super OBSESSIVE phase started again in 2019. Listening to other music still feels like a waste of time, and 2022 is almost ending. Will it EVER END? WHEN WILL THIS PHASE END OMG!

I'm someone that seeks comfort in the things I already love. Instead of watching the newest show, I will probably rewatch my favorite show. It's the same with Mike, I'm not really getting tired listening to him. At least not for loooong periods of time.

So that's a good question - what is it about Michael Jackson, you guys?

He is the whole package for me. Everything about him interests me. I just don't get tired thinking about him. At the moment I mostly focus on buying MJ books. If I listen to music? Probably MJ. If I read a book? Probably MJ. There are people I know that know about my love for him, but I just can't talk about him as much as I want to, Not even with other fans online. Most of the time my husband has to suffer when I can't keep my MJ rants to myself.

After a lifetime of media propaganda telling me this man wasn't attractive, I am stunned on a daily basis by how ridiculously hot he is. He is insanely sexy and my mind and body can't comprehend it. I could literally write 1,000 words just about how attractive he is, but I will spare you all lol.

I don't know if this is a controversial opinion, but I really dislike it when other fans are getting weirded out when fans gush about Michael and his sexiness. The whole world gets brainwashed into thinking he wasn't attractive, because they focus on certain things on him. This is why I support every MJ simping that I see. (and of course, I simp too ) LET THE PEOPLE SIMP AND GUSH IN PEACE!

Please understand I am in my early stages of fandom. But since I've never felt this way about anyone else, I'm genuinely just baffled by how passionately I feel about him. I have cried for him multiple times, so pained by his pain I can't stand it. So much undeserved suffering. Ugh. But on the other hand, he fills me with the most complete joy and has inspired me so much to pursue doing good in the world and embrace my creativity (which I have neglected for too long). In short, I just feel so blessed to have developed this totally unexpected obsession with him. What a talented, beautiful, sensitive, force of nature wrapped up in such a fantastically compelling and lovely human being.

I still feel like this almost every day. I cry so often because of this man, it's insane. He really touches my soul. I know that it's probably super weird for other people, because I'm also old, and most people think that should be a teenage thing, but for me it just never stopped! I really came to this planet with the plan to stan this man forever, lol!

Personally, most of the time I avoid talking about the negative stuff about Michael with people online, even fandom spaces. I only really talk about certain negative things with my husband. For me it's just really hard having certain discussions with someone, when you know that this person has a complete different way of thinking, or certain other opinions about things. It's easy to offend other fans, and to be honest, it's also super easy to offend me about other things. I guess we all, or at least A LOT OF US are super protective about Michael. I know that was already a thing in his life with the people surrounding him, so that makes me laugh. But anyway, so many of us have a really deeper connection to him, even tho we maybe never met him. It's just how we humans work.

It feels good to say that you kind of have a "real life" person that is like a super hero for you. All the wholesome stuff about Michael doesn't even HAVE to be true, it's still working! He was clear about his message! Having Michael Jackson as a role model is amazing, you can focus on so much positive stuff! Having an MJ picture in my room, where just looking at him reminds me of certain values? AMAZING! I don't really have that with other things. Of course you CAN have that with other things, but as I already said ... MJ is the WHOLE package, so focusing on HIM includes ALL the interesting and important stuff I want to obsess about at the moment, lmao.

I am mostly posting this just to share my feelings about him because where else can I go this crazy but a fan forum! haha

But in all seriousness, I really just want to GUSH about him and I'd love to be joined by anyone else who feels like straight up GUSHING over him too!

MY KIND OF PEOPLE

 

[staywild23]

I only really read the first handful of postings yet, but your opening posting already made me smile so much. I love when I see new fans, it just really makes me happy!

Yay!! What's so funny is I wrote that back in March and I am SO much more intense now than I was then. I had no idea what was coming for me lol.

HAHA! For me it always was kind of normal to have phases where I obsess over certain things, but when it's about celebrities, nothing ever touches the level of Michael. Will it end? Hmmm. For me personally, it always comes back in phases. I was already a fan when I was a child, but I stopped paying attention to him for a while when I was a teen.

That's understandable! I have always been obsessive about things, but I have rarely been obsessed in any way with a celebrity. I was obsessed with Bob Dylan for many years in my 20s and I still deeply adore and love him. But that is literally the only thing I can compare this too and this is definitely more intense. As I was describing it to my family, who all seem shocked that Michael has taken over my obsession with Bob, Bob Dylan has my mind and Michael Jackson has my heart lol. My heart will always win over my mind, basically anytime

Then, in 2004 I started getting back into him. And from that moment on I was obsessed. Since 2005 I was active in the fandom, and there were only short times when Michael wasn't really my focus. Since 2005 he is always there.

Just curious... is this because of the trial?

But my new super OBSESSIVE phase started again in 2019. Listening to other music still feels like a waste of time, and 2022 is almost ending.

And was this because of LN? lol

Will it EVER END? WHEN WILL THIS PHASE END OMG!

You know what's funny? At this point I am so thoroughly immersed in my addiction that I don't even want it to end... I want to stay insane forever

I'm someone that seeks comfort in the things I already love. Instead of watching the newest show, I will probably rewatch my favorite show. It's the same with Mike, I'm not really getting tired listening to him. At least not for loooong periods of time.

I understand exactly what you mean. What's interesting is even during the height of my love of Bob Dylan, I still listened to other music. I listened mostly to him, but other stuff too. I was very interested in exploring his influences, for example. While I am very interested in exploring Michael's influences in the same way, I can honestly tell you I basically have not listened to any other artists the entire year lol. I just... I don't know what it is. I cannot get enough of Michael Jackson. I can't get enough of his voice and the way he makes me feel. I just feel a constant craving for his voice and his energy and his spirit and everything else. It's wild. I am not sick of him at all and I can't imagine that happening. I genuinely feel addicted to his voice. Like certain styles of his songs, or a way his voice breaks at a moment, idk. Sometimes I just want to freak out because I love it so much I sound crazy.

He is the whole package for me. Everything about him interests me. I just don't get tired thinking about him. At the moment I mostly focus on buying MJ books. If I listen to music? Probably MJ. If I read a book? Probably MJ. There are people I know that know about my love for him, but I just can't talk about him as much as I want to, Not even with other fans online.

Oh God, I relate to this more than you can possibly imagine. I never, ever grow tired of thinking about him, wanting to talk about him, having curiosities and interests in him. I just cannot get over it. I can talk about him probably all day long lol. It's so strange! I find him completely fascinating. I have written on several threads that I want to write books about him because I genuinely am so filled with interest about him it seems like I should at least channel this into something productive lol.

Most of the time my husband has to suffer when I can't keep my MJ rants to myself.

God bless understanding husbands lol. I have one too! Is yours a fan at least?

I don't know if this is a controversial opinion, but I really dislike it when other fans are getting weirded out when fans gush about Michael and his sexiness. The whole world gets brainwashed into thinking he wasn't attractive, because they focus on certain things on him. This is why I support every MJ simping that I see. (and of course, I simp too ) LET THE PEOPLE SIMP AND GUSH IN PEACE!

THIS THIS THIS

I do not at all understand why fans are bothered by it. To me, it is completely undeniable. Appreciating Michael's sexiness and simping (not a word I ever use, but I'm loving it lol) is part of my experience of loving him. I can't turn that off and I don't want to (or think I should have to). Michael was an incredibly sexy person and performer. That's part of who he was. Yes, he was someone who embraced innocence and loved the purity of childhood and all that, but he was very much a man too. It's not wrong to see him as a multi-faceted adult man who was incredibly good looking and used his sexuality and sexual energy in his performance style. I feel like I'm just appreciating him for all that he was!

Also, I know some people's issue is with the fact that he has passed away. But I don't really understand why that's a problem either. I can't wrap my mind around this idea that if someone is dead you aren't supposed to find them attractive anymore. That's like saying you aren't supposed to enjoy someone's music because they are gone. Like, it's just another way of appreciating him. The only way I can see someone finding it offensive is if they just find sex offensive. Maybe I'm missing something. I don't know lol.

I still feel like this almost every day. I cry so often because of this man, it's insane. He really touches my soul. I know that it's probably super weird for other people, because I'm also old, and most people think that should be a teenage thing, but for me it just never stopped! I really came to this planet with the plan to stan this man forever, lol!

This seems so consistent with everything I hear from longtime fans and it's certainly consistent with my fandom experience. I find that I genuinely love Michael in a way that feels similar to how I love people in my life. Like, my love for him is intensely personal and real. I feel like I can feel his pain inside of me sometimes. I think part of this is being an empath (as I suspect a lot of Michael's fans are - hence feeling like such a kindred spirit to him). But part of it is just that Michael was extraordinary and I don't think people like him come along very often in life. I saw a comment on a Youtube video the other day that said something like, "If you ever get depressed remember that in all of human history you existed in the time of Michael Jackson." And I swear to God, I feel that way. I feel so lucky.

Personally, most of the time I avoid talking about the negative stuff about Michael with people online, even fandom spaces. I only really talk about certain negative things with my husband. For me it's just really hard having certain discussions with someone, when you know that this person has a complete different way of thinking, or certain other opinions about things. It's easy to offend other fans, and to be honest, it's also super easy to offend me about other things. I guess we all, or at least A LOT OF US are super protective about Michael. I know that was already a thing in his life with the people surrounding him, so that makes me laugh.

I am exactly the same way. I am extremely protective of Michael and very sensitive about criticism of him, when people (especially "fans") lack compassion for him or overly judge him, and of course all of the major stuff. I learned a lot about the allegations because I couldn't let them go and they were eating away at me. Since I came to believe in his innocence I never looked back. I don't really want to explore that more. I really can't talk about his death at all, either. I am sure some day I will deep dive, but I can't handle those conversations. Anyway, I'm with you fully. I just avoid the negative stuff. I am a very positive person, anyway, so when I see people being overly negative it turns me off.

It feels good to say that you kind of have a "real life" person that is like a super hero for you. All the wholesome stuff about Michael doesn't even HAVE to be true, it's still working! He was clear about his message! Having Michael Jackson as a role model is amazing, you can focus on so much positive stuff! Having an MJ picture in my room, where just looking at him reminds me of certain values? AMAZING! I don't really have that with other things. Of course you CAN have that with other things, but as I already said ... MJ is the WHOLE package, so focusing on HIM includes ALL the interesting and important stuff I want to obsess about at the moment, lmao.

I love all of this. I agree with everything you said. He is a huge inspiration to me. He brings out the best in me and reminds me of what matters in life. He's had such a powerful impact on my life. And you are right - there is SO much positive to focus on as an MJ fan!! It sometimes doesn't feel that way. Obviously, we are very sensitive about him and we cry and suffer lol. But I will always choose to be positive about him, his legacy, and remember the good as much as possible. He deserves that!

 

[DangerousGal91]

Also, I know some people's issue is with the fact that he has passed away. But I don't really understand why that's a problem either. I can't wrap my mind around this idea that if someone is dead you aren't supposed to find them attractive anymore. That's like saying you aren't supposed to enjoy someone's music because they are gone. Like, it's just another way of appreciating him. The only way I can see someone finding it offensive is if they just find sex offensive. Maybe I'm missing something. I don't know lol.

Funnily enough, you have people to this day fangirling over people like Elvis, James Dean (like you did as a teen ), David Bowie, Prince... I personally don't see a problem with this at all either, aren't we honoring these men's legacies by reminiscing about how gorgeous they were? I know if I had been in that position, I wouldn't have been offended by the idea at all. I can only speak for myself (although I do think most people agree with me), but I don't have any creepy intentions with it in any way. It's as if people assume we want to desecrate his grave or something like that?? Why would I want to do that... The man's already been too much in his life, I just want him to rest in peace and for the rest of the world to remember him fondly. And I think we all do, at the end of the day.

Meanwhile, the real grave desecrators are the vultures. You know the type of people I'm talking about.

 

[staywild23]

Funnily enough, you have people to this day fangirling over people like Elvis, James Dean (like you did as a teen ), David Bowie, Prince... I personally don't see a problem with this at all either, aren't we honoring these men's legacies by reminiscing about how gorgeous they were? I know if I had been in that position, I wouldn't have been offended by the idea at all. I can only speak for myself (although I do think most people agree with me), but I don't have any creepy intentions with it in any way. It's as if people assume we want to desecrate his grave or something like that?? Why would I want to do that... The man's already been too much in his life, I just want him to rest in peace and for the rest of the world to remember him fondly. And I think we all do, at the end of the day.

Meanwhile, the real grave desecrators are the vultures. You know the type of people I'm talking about.

Are people fangirling over James Dean??? That's wonderful! Lol I was so obsessed with him. I was a teenager and I volunteered at the local library over the summer and they had all these VHS tapes of old movies. So I rented all of his and I was IN LOVE with him. I think I put pictures of him in my locker at school.... in 2003 LOL. Meanwhile, I have never been able to find a shred of attraction inside of myself for anyone marketed to me. The N'sync boys and all of those guys do literally nothing for me. It delights me to imagine people loving James Dean still!

But yes, I think it's all a part of recognizing someone's contributions. Now if you ONLY sexualize a person than that's a problem. But none of us do that with Michael. We all love him thoroughly as a human being first. But as women we want him like rabid animals.

At least, I do lol.

 

[DangerousGal91]

Are people fangirling over James Dean??? That's wonderful! Lol I was so obsessed with him. I was a teenager and I volunteered at the local library over the summer and they had all these VHS tapes of old movies. So I rented all of his and I was IN LOVE with him. I think I put pictures of him in my locker at school.... in 2003 LOL. Meanwhile, I have never been able to find a shred of attraction inside of myself for anyone marketed to me. The N'sync boys and all of those guys do literally nothing for me. It delights me to imagine people loving James Dean still!

But yes, I think it's all a part of recognizing someone's contributions. Now if you ONLY sexualize a person than that's a problem. But none of us do that with Michael. We all love him thoroughly as a human being first. But as women we want him like rabid animals.

At least, I do lol.

Oh I'm fairly certain people still fangirl over James Dean LOL I mean, he was seen as a teenage heartthrob/sex symbol during his heyday for a reason. And while I personally never really paid attention to him much, for what it's worth I certainly don't think he was ugly lol. I can definitely see the appeal, even now!

And trust me, back in 2019 when I first became an MJ fan, I'm not even sure I was really a "fangirl" yet or anything. Perhaps a little bit, but I was mostly just relieved I could finally enjoy his music without guilt. It wasn't until I dove deeper that I really fell in love with the man. "Hey, you know, there, uh, might be something about Michael... Is that weird??? " I already talked about it elsewhere, but yeah. Bit by bit I started to realize how much I actually loved him.

 

[Lacra]

Yay!! What's so funny is I wrote that back in March and I am SO much more intense now than I was then. I had no idea what was coming for me lol.

Do you remember, when you fell in love? You were young and innocent then

Just curious... is this because of the trial?
And was this because of LN? lol

I really can't remember if 2004 was because of the trial. But it must have been. The only reason I know it started already in 2004 and not 2005 is, because this year I have found an old diary entry where I already gushed about Michael in 2004, lol

And tbh, in 2019 I ignored LN on purpose. But in the middle of the year he started being on my mind again daily. It happens naturally with the death anniversary and his birthday.

You know what's funny? At this point I am so thoroughly immersed in my addiction that I don't even want it to end... I want to stay insane forever

Understandable. LOL! Same same! I just ride the wave as long as it goes and have fun with it!

I understand exactly what you mean. What's interesting is even during the height of my love of Bob Dylan, I still listened to other music. I listened mostly to him, but other stuff too. I was very interested in exploring his influences, for example. While I am very interested in exploring Michael's influences in the same way, I can honestly tell you I basically have not listened to any other artists the entire year lol. I just... I don't know what it is. I cannot get enough of Michael Jackson. I can't get enough of his voice and the way he makes me feel. I just feel a constant craving for his voice and his energy and his spirit and everything else. It's wild. I am not sick of him at all and I can't imagine that happening. I genuinely feel addicted to his voice. Like certain styles of his songs, or a way his voice breaks at a moment, idk. Sometimes I just want to freak out because I love it so much I sound crazy.

Same again, haha! You know what's a funny thought? We are so obsessed, if we would have bought Thriller back then when it came out, we would have needed to buy a new vinyl every few weeks because we would play it non stop. No wonder this men sold so many records.

Oh God, I relate to this more than you can possibly imagine. I never, ever grow tired of thinking about him, wanting to talk about him, having curiosities and interests in him. I just cannot get over it. I can talk about him probably all day long lol. It's so strange! I find him completely fascinating. I have written on several threads that I want to write books about him because I genuinely am so filled with interest about him it seems like I should at least channel this into something productive lol.

This is a whole mood. I also thought about writing a book at one point, even tho I can't write. It's just the need to talk about certain things, getting it out to the public. My alternative is making a website. But I always get distracted when I start coding. Maybe I will finish a project when I'm 80.

God bless understanding husbands lol. I have one too! Is yours a fan at least?

Not a fan, also never listening to the music. But he said he likes the music. Also, it's not like there is a point of him listening to the music on his own, it's playing here non stop. This poor man. He supports my obsession, which is really nice, haha! Some days ago I ranted that I have way too many MJ pics on my computer, but I don't have them in real life on PAPER. What if the apocalypse arrives and there is no more internet and I only have some MJ books with pics. WHAT THEN? APOCALYPSE WITHOUT MJ PICS? (We both sound truly insane now ... ) So my husband said "Why don't you print all your fav pics in these print on demand photo books?" THIS IS TRUE LOVE He also gifted me an MJ pillow last month AND some Panini cards.

This seems so consistent with everything I hear from longtime fans and it's certainly consistent with my fandom experience. I find that I genuinely love Michael in a way that feels similar to how I love people in my life. Like, my love for him is intensely personal and real. I feel like I can feel his pain inside of me sometimes. I think part of this is being an empath (as I suspect a lot of Michael's fans are - hence feeling like such a kindred spirit to him). But part of it is just that Michael was extraordinary and I don't think people like him come along very often in life. I saw a comment on a Youtube video the other day that said something like, "If you ever get depressed remember that in all of human history you existed in the time of Michael Jackson." And I swear to God, I feel that way. I feel so lucky.

Yeah, for many people Michael is like a family member in some way. This sounds weird for people, but tbh it's not that weird. We humans all seek connections and sometimes someone like Michael can be closer to us than your own family. When you know him for so long and it feels like you know him and his soul, because (you feel like) he opens up and is being vulnerable, or course we start to bond with him in some way! Also with his wholesome vibe, (most of the time, haha) it's hard not to love him. He has a special aura.

Michael: Try haaaaard to love me
me: Michael listen, it's the other way around, please stop

I love all of this. I agree with everything you said. He is a huge inspiration to me. He brings out the best in me and reminds me of what matters in life. He's had such a powerful impact on my life. And you are right - there is SO much positive to focus on as an MJ fan!! It sometimes doesn't feel that way. Obviously, we are very sensitive about him and we cry and suffer lol. But I will always choose to be positive about him, his legacy, and remember the good as much as possible. He deserves that!

The whole FAN package really contains so much suffering and pain. At least for me. It's frustrating. But a lot of this is really self-inflicted, because I tend to focus on it a lot of times. I just can't help it, it's the way my brain works. I need to dig deep into everything. I'm also an open fan online (just last month I talked to someone that said they liked MJ, but now they are ... In The Closet. ), so there is always the chance that someone will write a stupid comment while I was just vibing.

The majority of people commenting on it were mostly positive tho. So every time I think about changing up my profiles, I think about the sweet conversations I had with people that start with "Is this MJ in your pic? Aww, I like him too"

worth it

 

[zinniabooklover]

Michael Jackson Pictures

80's 90's, belts buckles and jackets, post or get your favourite Michael Jackson pictures here!

www.mjjcommunity.com

@staywild23

Here's a link - just on an FYI basis. Clearing out my bookmarks, had completely forgotten I had this thing in there. It's like a master list of MJJC picture threads. Thought you might be able to use it.

P.S. What am I thinking? Might as well FYI anyone who might want to use this thing.

@Hiker - you probably already know about it, yes?

@MacMandy90 @wendijane @OhButItsRed @DangerousGal91

 

[staywild23]

Michael Jackson Pictures

80's 90's, belts buckles and jackets, post or get your favourite Michael Jackson pictures here!

www.mjjcommunity.com

@staywild23

Here's a link - just on an FYI basis. Clearing out my bookmarks, had completely forgotten I had this thing in there. It's like a master list of MJJC picture threads. Thought you might be able to use it.

P.S. What am I thinking? Might as well FYI anyone who might want to use this thing.

@Hiker - you probably already know about it, yes?

@MacMandy90 @wendijane @OhButItsRed @DangerousGal91

Thank you!! This is one of the best ways for me to find out everything I have been missing for the last week or so that I've been off the board....

I am STARVED for Michael!! I am a ravenous woman and I need to spend some ample time staring at him lol.

 

[zinniabooklover]

Thank you!! This is one of the best ways for me to find out everything I have been missing for the last week or so that I've been off the board....

This master thread for the picture threads, lots of them are not that great and there's hardly anything on them but it's still useful, I think. Although, that said, I didn't use it much, in the end. But I love the fact that it's there.

I am STARVED for Michael!! I am a ravenous woman and I need to spend some ample time staring at him lol.

I seem to be going for words rather than photos, atm. Words, thoughts, ideas - I'm immersed in them just now.

 

[zinniabooklover]

@staywild23

Popping this over here so as not to clog up Superfan's picture thread. This is the photographer I was talking about. Dilip Mehta, born in India, raised in Canada I believe.

This is only a tiny piece. I did find something ages ago that printed loads of the photos from that session but it's no longer in my bookmarks. Of course it isn't, lol.

Anyway ...

Dilip Mehta's five nights with Jackson | English Movie News - Times of India

Dilip Mehta, a reputed freelance photographer, had spent five nights with Michael Jackson at Neverland in 1991.

timesofindia.indiatimes.com

 

[zinniabooklover]

Michael and photographer, Dilip Mehta

 

[staywild23]

Dilip Mehta's five nights with Jackson | English Movie News - Times of India

Dilip Mehta, a reputed freelance photographer, had spent five nights with Michael Jackson at Neverland in 1991.

timesofindia.indiatimes.com

Oh, this will be great!! Thank you!!

Michael and photographer, Dilip Mehta

OMG.... this photo is SO ADORABLE!!!

 

[staywild23]

Dilip Mehta's five nights with Jackson | English Movie News - Times of India

Dilip Mehta, a reputed freelance photographer, had spent five nights with Michael Jackson at Neverland in 1991.

timesofindia.indiatimes.com

OK... I just read this. You know what breaks my heart? I want all the photos. I really do deeply respect MJ's privacy. I don't think everything needs to be shared with the public. But my God. I want ALL THE PHOTOS.

I listened to the MJ Cast episode a few days ago where they interview Harrison Funk and he talked about how there are SO many photos that have never seen the light of day and probably never will, because he said he will only share them in projects with the estate or Michael's children and, understandably, there is a need for privacy. But it killed me. I so badly want to see everything lol.

 

[zinniabooklover]

OK... I just read this. You know what breaks my heart? I want all the photos. I really do deeply respect MJ's privacy. I don't think everything needs to be shared with the public. But my God. I want ALL THE PHOTOS.

I listened to the MJ Cast episode a few days ago where they interview Harrison Funk and he talked about how there are SO many photos that have never seen the light of day and probably never will, because he said he will only share them in projects with the estate or Michael's children and, understandably, there is a need for privacy. But it killed me. I so badly want to see everything lol.

It's tricky. I don't want everything released. It would just feel wrong. But I also want more. I'm not an online person, generally, but one thing I do love about it is the access we now have to resources which we didn't even know about before and, if we did, we'd never have had the chance to see them. My fave Bad era photos will always be the ones that the UK MSM used over and over since they are the ones I was seeing all the time and bonded with. But the feeling of being showered with so many awesome treasures, when you see how much more stuff is out there, when you see so many stunning images ... it's beyond belief.

There's quite a few of Dilip Mehta's photos on the board. You can Google for more - that's where I found the ones I've just posted. Where did I put them? Couple on 'signature dance moves' for sure. Er, can't remember the others. That's allowed, lol. My headache has only *just* eased off. I can finally go to bed. Yay! Actually, I posted one of the photos on Hiker's 'keep calm' thread.

 

[staywild23]

It's tricky. I don't want everything released. It would just feel wrong.

Absolutely! It's tough because I want to see so much, but I also really want to respect his privacy as a person. The constant struggle with loving him so much, I guess.

I do love about it is the access we now have to resources which we didn't even know about before and, if we did, we'd never have had the chance to see them.

I think about this all the time. As much as I wish I had lived through the 80s and would trade that experience of seeing him in real time vs. how I see him now, I am also really grateful that I have access to SO much content now. I can see footage from every tour (even if shitty). I can see more photos than were ever published. I can access interviews, his short films, commercials, snippets of his life that otherwise were not available before. There's an undeniable benefit to this.

There's quite a few of Dilip Mehta's photos on the board. You can Google for more - that's where I found the ones I've just posted. Where did I put them? Couple on 'signature dance moves' for sure. Er, can't remember the others. That's allowed, lol.

I am definitely going to Google them! I need them!

My headache has only *just* eased off. I can finally go to bed. Yay!

Oh God, I'm sorry you suffered with that all day. I hope that it's gone for good and you can get rest!

Actually, I posted one of the photos on Hiker's 'keep calm' thread.

you posted a Michael photo in the 'keep calm' thread?!?! That is insane to me lol. But photos of Michael bring you peace, whereas for me... well. Yeah.

 

[zinniabooklover]

OK... I just read this. You know what breaks my heart? I want all the photos. I really do deeply respect MJ's privacy. I don't think everything needs to be shared with the public. But my God. I want ALL THE PHOTOS.

I posted one on the Michael with animals thread, as well. It's the arty type of photo that I love - as in, Michael is more like a silhouette. So not the ideal photo for you, perhaps! It is beautiful, though.

 

[staywild23]

I posted one on the Michael with animals thread, as well. It's the arty type of photo that I love - as in, Michael is more like a silhouette. So not the ideal photo for you, perhaps! It is beautiful, though.

Noooo I actually love those types of photos of Michael. As much as I'm a wild animal about him lol I also genuinely love and appreciate his beauty and obviously his artistry. Seeing him in that context is a beautiful thing to me. I do very much appreciate this stuff. I'm going to go check things out right

 

[SmoothGangsta]

I haven't really read the rest of this thread, but I feel the OP. I got into MJ shortly after he passed (was aware of him all my life and felt a shock when he died and felt an absence when he did) and I was totally obsessed with him all through high school. Couldn't really understand how someone could make so much innovative stuff and such great art, to the point of people around me getting kinda tired of my obsession lol. Whilst my obsession has died down to appreciation at his point I still enjoy seeing others feeling the same way and diving into everything MJ has to offer.

 

[zinniabooklover]

I haven't really read the rest of this thread, but I feel the OP. I got into MJ shortly after he passed (was aware of him all my life and felt a shock when he died and felt an absence when he did)

Same. It was a tangible thing. It sounds woo woo but it definitely felt like there was a Michael shaped gap in the world and it felt all wrong. That's a rubbish way to explain it but my vocab isn't great when I try to talk about this stuff. But I totally get what you are saying here. Took me right back to those days after he died. Or months, I should say, bc I was still in that daze, even when I went to see TII in the October.

and I was totally obsessed with him all through high school. Couldn't really understand how someone could make so much innovative stuff and such great art,

Whilst my obsession has died down to appreciation at his point I still enjoy seeing others feeling the same way and diving into everything MJ has to offer.

I definitely don't feel obsessed with Michael but I've always loved him and he is massively important to me in ways I can barely understand and certainly can't explain. But I don't feel I need to. It all makes perfect sense in my head and that's good enough for me. As you say here, he has SO much to offer. Just so much.

 

[Hiker]

Absolutely! It's tough because I want to see so much, but I also really want to respect his privacy as a person. The constant struggle with loving him so much, I guess

That's always the dilemma, isn't it. As a fan you want to know everything about him, but also want to respect his privacy. I want him to share those things with me so I know it's ok