I didn't recieve help with anything except teasing at school. Tried a counselor I think 3 or 4yrs ago lasted a day. I was with a organisation called Mission Australia for 2yrs problem was had about 4 people to get help from in my 1st year was crazy then 2nd year had a man but couldn't really open up with him.
My church had a conference in April of this year & it changed everything. We went to different rooms to listen to different people speak & one women spoke about her heart ache of being abused by her father & brother causing her to loose respect in herself so she slept around looking for love. That changed me cause I could relate. This woman has given herself to Christ & is such a amazing person.
The woman I said isn't exactly a counsellor she is job access employee so there to help me get a job & sort myself. I felt comfortable with her although she is not a counselor or psychologist so opened up.
I find it easy talking over the net no idea why & I have spoken at a school some of the children I look after go to. That was amazing spoke about teasing & being respectful to fellow classmates.
I used to hate my life & even overdosed end of 2006. The amount of pills I took I should have been dead & couldn't understand why I wasn't until last year when I started back at church last year which turned my life around. I'm away from that church now & attend another but still stay in contact.
I'm always sponsoring a child or organisations & going broke cause of it lol. People always yell at me cause I put others first before myself but its the way I'am. I don't knock any religion or race because Jesus,Michael & Sara didn't.
My bf adopted 5 children (complicated story) Sara's cousins last month. Some of the children I nanny have lost parents to Aids/HIV & other things. So been wanting to Aid work for 4yrs now.
When Michael died I didnt sleep & recurring dreams about the day we met, the day I hadnt really though about since Sara died. I had forgotten that he told me "Keep up the good work" & when I thought about he didnt just mean Sara. He meant the world