@staywild23
I tried to post this elsewhere so as to not clog up this thread but it felt weird and exposing so here I am. Also, sw23, this is not a post for you to reply to. I'm acutely aware of how busy you are, this week in particular. I'm just thinking out loud and jotting stuff down before I forget.
The short answer to your question is, I don't fancy Michael but it is, of course, an evolving situation. Why do I not fancy him? Various reasons but two main ones:
1 - he's not my type
2 - he's way too beautiful
The sexiest thing I have ever seen in my life was Alice Cooper on TOTP in 1972 doing School's Out. Black clothes, black eyeliner, black hair. Wielding his sword - no, that is not a euphemism. He really did have a sword (well, a stage prop). The bit at the end, where he lets go of the girl's hair and launches himself at the camera. Nothing, I tell you, NOTHING has ever come close. I don't think I ever truly recovered, lol.
My guys are the visual equivalent of Bob Dylan's voice. So Johnny Rotten, for example. Did he look like a skinny, under-nourished, pasty-faced weasel? Yes, he did. But sex appeal? OMG. Jean-Jacques Burnel - dirty bass lines, black biker jacket, come-to-bed eyes. OMG.
The most beautiful guy I have EVER seen is Adam. But I never fancied him. Too beautiful and therefore intimidating. That's Michael, as well, I think. Michael escorting Madge to the Oscars. It's simply not possible to fancy him, not for me. I can gaze in wonder and awe and even excitement but that's it. He's just too far beyond.
Yes, it's complicated because Michael is hot as in red hot. And we all know there is something going on at the moment with the infamous photo. I'm not making this up, I have been losing it this past week like I don't know what. This reaction, it's definitely happening. In a way, I wish it wasn't. Cos it is flaming well inconvenient. Anyway, I don't fancy him but there is also some weird s&*# going on at the moment. I can carry two competing ideas in my head and believe them both. So that's where I am with this.
I did check out some clips where I could see Michael Jr and I was just like, 'oh, I see what's going on'. And that was it. Everything else Michael does is way sexier than anything going on below the belt. I'm not disapproving of anyone getting excited. I'm just saying, I don't. I think what Michael does with his arms, for example, is way sexier. I realise this isn't a very good explanation. I'm trying to keep it short, lol.
Tell you one thing that IS weird, though. I realised when I was trying to sort out my thoughts so I could try to answer your question, there's only so much I'd be prepared to say, anyway. Turns out, I want to keep many of my Michael thoughts private. I wasn't expecting that. I'm not talking wild fantasies since I don't really have them. It's more emotional than that. Is that making any sense? It makes sense in my head but looks a bit weird written down. Anyway. It's complicated and it keeps changing.
The live thing. I love TII and that was the first time I saw Michael live. I've watched a few bits and bobs from various tours None of it has made me want to watch an entire show. I love Jam at Bremen, watch it loads but have no desire to watch the rest of the show. Part of it is Michael doing stadium shows which are not my thing. I know why he has to do them, they just don't excite me. Or maybe it's cos Michael, for me, was all about the dancing and so I'm more into the videos and short films. I might be wrong, I've never tried to work it out because, of course, I just accept it for what it is. I don't fret over it so I don't try to analyse it. But I can watch Michael perform live and be quite, 'oh OK, whatever', whereas my response to him on record or in a video is off the chart. Again, it's slightly more complicated than that but that's the basic gist. Need to emphasise, none of this applies to TII. That is a whole other thing.