Yeah, all the things like scrapbooks and special items are all put away in a safe place again. Those pics were from last JulyBut we still have posters up and a couple of MJ calendars around the house.
^ I think it's maybe a secret crush
^ I think it's maybe a secret crush
Well, who wouldn't....
You should see me, I'm laughing in near hysterics.
Imagine if we do. Thank you hon. Yes, I am not posting anything cos I am in Moscow now but I am leaving soon to Canada,thanks God. My mother passed so went for funeral. Live is strange...
May God take care of her and if you need us, we are here.
A Native American outfit wouldn't look half bad. :lol:
Oh, thanks :hug: Yes, imagine if we really canWOW. It's a wonderful poem and I am IN LOVE with the last two lines :
"And we tried.
And we changed the world".
Imagine.
This beautiful poem reminds me of "But the heart said "No" " by Michael. :heart:
Am going to go read that one by Michael again now. :heart::hysterical: That outfit reminds me of the scene in Batman in Bruce Wayne's room of strange fighting outfits. This is the only clip from that whole scene I can find online:
Awww, love it girl! :heart: You're on a roll lately, really cool!Hey loves, hope everyone is having a happy Saturday!
I wanted to share (yet another) song I wrote. (getting tired of them yet?
(Funny about the 1.111th thread, wheh!)Dang......I just can't believe how weird this is to read! How can that be, that you wrote that so long ago and how extremely fitting it is now with what you're (and we're) doing! Like..meditations...the feelings..just everything.
Talking about bunnies, I had one of those weird driving-home moments again last night at like 5 in the morning/night....I was singing Michael songs, looked up at the sky seeing the sun coming up, feeling very 'connected', and WHOOPS there was a bunny running across the street. :wub:
Oh, very interesting and deep dream! Glad you got that comforting feeling. Cool about the visions. :lol:
That's exactly what I wanna have too...just something to always have with me, something Michaelish, something excentric, something with a deeper meaning and part of me. Oh, I realllllllllly can't wait to get it done now. :angel:
Oh, I wrote some similar words on my card last Christmas. :boohoo: I took a pic of it before sending, here's the part. I know what you mean about feeling 'crazy' there for a second, I had that too....but then I thought...why do I need to feel crazy? Because it's not 'normal' to feel this? To write to a 'dead person'? What is normal anyway, I'm not normal, Michael wasn't normal, the thing called love isn't normal.....it's so much more.....and then I started loathing the fact that I had fell into standardizing thoughts for a second. Yuck :lol:This made me think of the card I just mailed. When I wrote it I just let it flow. I was crying so hard while writing that, just pouring everything out, regardless of how ill thought-out it sounded. It was a stream of pure emotion
I threw all of mine away too (for a reason - didn't want to read what I mostly wrote about: trying to save my aggressive 'boyfriend') and I'm sooooo sad about that still! Gotta miss out on all those memories.
Ah well...it is what it is. I was watching the Private Home Movies last night after the Blackstreet-concert, hadn't done that in a while. (About the concert - it was realllllly cool! Teddy Riley wasn't there though, bummer! But I got a rose from one of the guys handing it over from on stage, LOL! All the girls were hatinnnn'! ) So watching that just made me relive last summer...this morning I woke up with the same feeling I used to have back then....the 'shit somethings missing'....the empty hole in your heart. Time has stopped and changed the whole world upside down. :sigh: 
My thoughts are with you and your family :huggy: I had this design:
doh and then husbunny just let me sleep through my alarm lol so I just woke up like 20 minutes ago :hysterical: So I guess I'm on Hawaiian time now? It's always morning somewhere in the world That pic of Rihanna cracked me up... that guy's look, lolol. Not having any tattoos myself, don't really know what to tell you. With musical notes I even thought it might be cool to get it just long enough to wrap around a wrist, like a bracelet. Oh sorry, that just adds more confusion, lol. Where on your neck were you planning? On the side near the ear, right? Hmmm. That could be symbolic of always 'hearing' MJ as well. But there could have been a worse history than what we're stuck with. I remember thinking back then about all the implications if the jury turned out to be morons :no:, not just our precious Michael's life (!) and plans and dreams and everthing boohoo, but his kids, his legacy, all the good he'd done (!) ... all destroyed in the eyes of history. No one like radio, TV, clubs would've wanted to play music by a convicted you-know. It would have been IT forever in the eyes of the world. Even Thriller would've been shelved. God, how horrible to think of how horrible things could have been. It makes me cry again, being back in that fear, being unable to do anything for him. I couldn't go to Santa Maria, I couldn't do anything and everything (everything!), my dear Michael, the one I've loved my whole life, was standing on the edge of the forever abyss :no: Sorry, the point was thank God that that jury was capable of thinking It just hurts so much now that this sh*t had to happen AT ALL. Why??? I would give anything to take all that away, give him happiness his last years. Does it make sense to Michael now? I hope so. I hope he understands why he had to go through it all and that it makes some kind of cosmic sense :angel: It's gonna be LOUD all up in heere! Husbunny just joked that maybe MJ will turn up in the meditaiton in soccer fan gear. You know how he loves Germany :hysterical:
Aw, I know what you mean. Hope you're doing okay for the situation, good to see you poppin' in! :huggy:
LMAO, so The Netherlands are completely moody now because now we can't sing 'schaaade Deutschland, alles ist vorbei!'. :hysterical: Nah, it's really lame that there's always this heavy competitor angryness going on between our two country's. Let's spread the loooove. :hippy:
Giiiirl, don't get me started! Being a Libra sucks bigtime, I have a strong intuition but I can doubt like crazy and go from one opposite to the other.Mrs Music - Geez, being a Libra must really suck, huh?!
I like the wrist idea and it's cool when others have it, but I don't wanna get it there...dunnow why, just don't. LOL. It's actually really gonna be in the middle of my neck...like this but then horizontal and probably a lot bigger, the size of a forefinger. :scratch:Oooh, I'm in such a dilemma. Thankfully Sils and some other girls will probably join me to the shop and I can also discuss it with the woman over there.Hope so too..........:boohoo:
Yikes, that sounds like a scary dream indeed! Maybe Michael wanted to try out how you'd react in your dream first, LOL.:cheeky:
Awww, you came back! Yay! :huggy:
... I'm still feeling unspiritual, but hopefully I'll find the path again .. L.O.V.E ! :heart: Oh, and that was beautiful what you wrote in your Christmas card. I looked at the pic )Yeah I think it's too, it was my first option....just bothers me that the skin isn't really smooth and stuff. Hope that doesn't ruin the tattoo, plus it's a place that dents a lot and so on. Maybe they can make it as small as possible so it won't be so huge also.Mrs Music - I think the back of the neck like that would be cool, actually
No problem, that's what I was asking for right.Mrs.Music, what about your wrist, shoulder or in between your shoulder blades? (sorry don't wanna be confusing you more, just adding options
Hmm I thought about in between my shoulderblades as well...but that's so...manly? Or maybe on top of my shoulders, vertical, or on my collarbone. *SIGH* Haha.
) and we both smiled a big grin, I think you said something like 'you know it too huh?'. Like, we knew we were connecting in the meditation? I dunnow! Kind of weird. :lol: Wonder what you had. I can't tell what it was though, I didn't get any words in my meditation except those of Amy in the beginning. Then a few people walked to the water, and WHOOP there was Michael popping up right in front of my face! He was looking like Remember The Time but with a red blouse. We 'talked' a bit, again no words to be understood. Then comes the weird part....I suddenly felt something on my neck, 'someone' grabbing his hands around my neck and squeezing tight. :bugeyed I saw a face together with that, very vaguely, intense eyes, looking at me, just a face, black background, not being at the place of my meditation, but in front of my face only, and I was hearing the words 'there's been blood spilled tonight'. I felt like 'fighting' and so I did and managed to get myself back to Michael. Intense, because I always tend to let these 'scary things' get to me and then put on the lights again and just cut it off, but so I didn't this time. This happened a few seconds after the first guy AGAIN with another dude, and again I managed to get back to see Michael. :angel: (Felt like some sort of test...in a new 'body'..and I managed to pass? Hmmm.) Still felt the squeeze around my neck when I typed this out, btw. Yuck.) and not so much you guys. Meh. My mind wandered into nowhereland often, I think probably because of my weird sleep schedule today. Hard to focus. :heart: He looked like on the cover of the L'uomo Vogue cover! (http://a6.vox.com/6a00c2251c1b70f21900e398cc46160001-500pi) He was just beyond beautiful! :wub: All I know is I rushed to him and was there hugging him and looking into his eyes, so close. (Sorry if I hogged him from all ya'll, lolol. I just couldn't let go :lol This felt so good, so... real in some way, the feeling on some level. I told him this was the day the jury found him INNOCENT. I kissed him on the cheek, had my face to his, it was... great And emotional and it went on for quite a while I finally backed up a little and he was holding hands with the next girl and smiled sweetly at me and just the same softness and love and attention with the next (not sure who, but I thought darlingdear or Amy?). I walked just a bit away, still watching him having moments with the rest of you. I realized that Bianca was standing next to me and we hugged and both started crying. We said something like, "I love him sooo much. Doesn't he look great? It still feels ... so sad..." We kept watching him in a sort of awe. He looked at us and saw we were crying and gave us this compassionate look that told us we didn't need to cry and I thought to myself, yeah, what's up? He's right here! Enjoy it! Oooo, something special with Michael? :wild: He led us (all the while in this beautiful suit from Vogue, lol) through some bramble and trees to another small clearing. I don't know what all happened at this point, but I suddenly became so very serious. I found myself kneeling, like in respect for royalty or something. We all were. He placed hands on on my forehead, like over each temple. It was like we were all receiving some special... 'baptism', maybe like an energy something? Or it was just a tender gesture. I really got lost in my mind at this point, sorry. I drifted and can't explain. Next thing I really realized was that it was like being knighted :lol: Seriously. He had a sword and everything :lol: and went from me (second to the left I was, I think) presumably to each. It was this very serious and emotional feeling, like taking a vow and I meant it and was honored with all of myself. I wish I could explain it better. I thought, am I totally making this up??? :doh:) we stood up and the mood lightened and he sort of bounded off playfully to the edge of the forest and we were back in Neverland, feeling free, the sky blue, the grass as green as my siggy pic. We were all running about, playing, laughing :lol: Michael was now back in the red shirt and fedora, looking like Dangerous era. We all rode the carousel together and I think the ferris wheel too Oh my And right here I was feeling like someone was touching me for real, like getting tickles on my face and the back to top of my head! I really drifted off in my mind here and I felt this massive wave of wanting to be ONE with him in the deepest way and suddenly we were... I can't say :blush: I thought for certain I'd lost it here, lolol. I thought...ok, great fantasy, wrong timing :lol: Then it flashed back to him sitting across from me like before, then back to, erm, then back to him sitting there. He looked at me like he knew darned well what was happening, lolol, and smiled in a sly way and we said a few things I'll keep to myself.