Mjbunny, could you tell me please how you can be in love with you hubby and Michael at the same time? I think it might be a bit confusing unless it is a diffrent kinda love :cheeky:
When I first met my husband I actually thought he was a girl (foreign name, you know - never can tell :lol
because he talked
so adoringly about Michael. So it's like he's "in love" (in a totally non-sexual way, I swear
) with MJ as well. I don't know... it's hard to explain. I've said before that sometimes we joke about "husband #1" and "husband #2" :lol:
I think I understand it mostly like this: my love for
both of them is something spiritual and constant and non-physical. My hubby's my best friend. And although I might have
more than that with him, in the end what is left at the base of it all, the REAL, is that friendship and the feeling we know each other from the other side. I feel the same about Michael. So while I might get all hot and bothered watching
TWYMMF in Warsaw ( because... O-M--G! :heat: - :innocent
, in the end that's just a
mood. It's a momentary desire that I may not need to feel in an hour's time. That's really what I've come to understand. There's the REAL and then there are
moods we have because of physical life and physical bodies. My love for Michael in the end is ... well, the way I felt the moment I knew he'd left us: it's pure. Purely wanting with every fiber of my being and quantum atom of my soul that he be surrounded by love and light and taken care of by angels, no matter if
I need him... wanting him to be happy, at peace and free.
That's how I truly love Michael and that's what carries into eternity. And this is something I've found because of him and I'm learning to apply this to all relationships. In the end, if your mother pisses you off, ok. But what's at the
base of your relationship? Being angry is a
mood. It's not forever.
Love lives forever. That's the REAL. Excitement, anger, lust, longing, sadness, fear... they're all just
moods. Love is that deep part in your soul that's at the root of how you really feel about family, friends, Michael, the world, God. So my moods may cycle through all sorts of "in love" moments with Michael, but the real love is what I know in my soul. Hope that makes some sense