^Thanks guys. I ended up not sleeping at all...it's 10am and now I feel tired. :glare: Annoying. Hope I'm able to stay awake for the MLP later!
OMG, i was up until after 10am this morning too! But then I was also the day before. What the heck. Just can't sleep. I think part of it is that it's alone-time then, you know? At night you can be alone. But I hated it because I just wanted to sleep. This morning the main prob was I was trying to finish up some stuff for MLP pages and then... poof... no internet. We agreed to an upgrade in speed with a new package and it went into effect today and when they switched it on we had no internet for like two hours. I was freaking out, restarting the router over and over :lol: I was like... why TODAY? Why the 25th?? But thankfully it came back on. But this kept me up all night and morning again :rolleyes2:
I feel very down again. Since he passed I am not stable at all… .I think I will never be able to go over his death. I do not understand still how in the world such a beautiful human being could die? It just does not make any sense and every little piece of my soul and every cell of my body say “no”. :no: When I face this fact and force myself to look the real picture I still feel numb. I watch his videos, I listen to his music and his death looks even more unreal and so unbelievable. I do not know how you feel guys. Do you feel any better than before? For me this pain still stays deep inside and it does not go anywhere. I still can cry a few times a day.
Maybe I am too sensitive person I do not know… .
:hug: For me it seems to swing a lot depending on the day. When I feel closest to MJ in spirit I'm usually doing better. When I feel more alone and something really gets to me, then I'm a wreck. Like the night before last after listening to ustream
God, I was so upset. I lay awake for like 3 hours in bed just crying and crying out loud because it's just so wrong and it hurts so much :no: But like this morning I was dealing with MLP and felt so close to Michael and just love, really :heart: It goes up and down. I'm so sorry for anyone who's stuck in another sadness rut at the moment. I totally know how it feels :hug:
Then I noticed a black shadow beside my head in the reflection of the tv. Again, I looked around, nothing there. I kept my eyes glued on the tv, put my hand up and moved it towards the shadow. It flinched. I kept my hand there and I started to drift off. I woke up suddenly two or three times before I fell asleep for the night and woke up sixteen hours later. I have wondered ever since if whatever that thing was drained my energy during the night and if that was the reason I slept twice as long as I should have. Is that possible/likely?
Honestly? It's possible. Or it's possible that you were quite tired anyway and just needed to sleep. I slept for 14 hours the other day, but I don't think there was anything negative getting me. I'd just protected my place like crazy, psychically cleaned it out. It felt totally fine. Guess I was just sleepy. If you feel under any threat or you're worried about it, definitely ask for protection. Bring light around you (for some reason the term "God light" always works for me) and like amygrace has mentioned, call for guides or Archangel Michael to get anything negative out and fill your place with protective light.
Anyway, one day I had the strangest experience. I felt and still feel empty and incomplete inside, knowing he is no longer here with us, although he still is, in spirit. Suddenly a voice inside my head spoke very lovingly "time and distance play no role at all, I'm right here" and it was the most comforting thing and it just stopped the unbearable sadness because at that instant I completely understood.
Oh God, I know, the trial... this is going to be tough. I know that. It's not going to be easy at all :mello: Wow, your experience hearing about time and distance... that's sooooo beautiful :heart: Like a reminder from above or from the soul :angel: Thanks for sharing
Neeve - That picture is kinda freaky, yes. Photo nerds would say it's dust or light refraction. But I've seen spirit orbs with my EYES (I think, anyway :scratch
, so I believe they can appear that way in pictures. I really don't know what to say!
Tinkerbell - I saw eyes as well, but for me they were Michael's eyes :wub: I also saw others. I saw a lot, actually. It was pretty amazing. I'll try to write a short (yeah, I know... me? short? lolol) summary later. Way cool about the energy net. Saw that too... first pink, then waves of blue and green.
flyaway622 - Maybe it was like the Earth Girl? Gaia? Way cool
Neat about the gold sparkles. For both you and
Tinkerbell and
anyone else who had the
head hurting problems... I've had that in past MLPs. And sure enough, as soon as it hit top of the hour and I could feel the influx of people I started to get a headache. This time I asked my guides to clear any energy blockages that were causing the headache and it went away! I didn't get the MLP Headache this time! Yay! So try that next time. Ask that energy blockages be cleared and let me know if it works
darlingdear - It was VERY peaceful for me too. I cried a lot as well. It was very emotional. Interesting about seeing the bright light and your ear burning. That seems to be something for you when you're 'connected', right? The warmth on your ear, I mean. Don't have to be skeptical about Michael being there. He totally was, I swear I just know it :angel:
Yeah, cool watching the MLP live traffic, huh? I put the link here just for that purpose... isn't it amazing? I mean, just to watch people from all over the world just... ding, ding, ding, ding... it's really inspiring because you see just how many are coming and how it's the
whole planet. Hopefully someday the traffic will roll in so fast that you can't even read the locations, lol.
I did the MLP today. I listened to Butterflies and had a beautiful imagination. Michael in his Black and White outfit and with white wings flying high above the earth like you see it from orbit and we all following him like a huge flock of birds ... it felt so good ... :angel:
Wow, what an interesting visualization! Sounds really neat
