Hey everyone, missed you all :hug:
Like many of you, I've been emotionally drained since the Grammys.
Been crying every night since watching it... I keep watching Prince & Pari's speeches over and over, bawling my eyes out... and I keep telling myself that this isn't the way it was supposed to be... Michael should still be with us and most importantly, with his children.
Prince and Paris are such AMAZING kids. So mature, so well-spoken, so beautiful, so brave, so strong! They truly are Michael's children. I'm completely in awe... Michael must have been so proud of his precious angels. I know I felt so much pride watching them. The more I see them and the more I think about it, it's clear to me that what Raymone Bain once said is true: Michael's children will be his greatest legacy.
They did wonderful. Prince sounded SO mature. That voice! And the way he said "... and help the world". OMG. It was so powerful! Like he meant it so deeply. These kids are incredible. I love them, and feel for them, so much...
Poor Paris was wiping the tears off her eyes after her speech and seemed to be on the verge of tears throughout the whole thing
I know that their presence at the Grammys has been criticized because some felt that it wasn't their place, that it was too soon, etc. But personally, I think it was something positive for them. I think that ever since Michael died, they've been truly realizing what their father meant/means to the world and everything he's accomplished. I think it's important for them to see how much their father was loved and the respect he is getting now (although this respect is coming way too late, of course). I think it will help them in the long run because I believe it's important for them to feel good about themselves, to be proud of their dad, especially at this time in their lives. And to feel like they kinda have a mission now, spreading their dad's message, must be very empowering for them. I really felt Prince's will when he spoke. And it was so cute how he held onto Michael's award
I've heard stories saying that the kids attended the Grammys' official dinner afterwards and Prince kept the award close all night or held on to it all night, I can't remember exactly. Don't know if it's true but it wouldn't surprise me if it was.
He must have been so proud to be receiving his daddy's award. And he must be so proud of his dad. Again, I think this is very important, especially for Prince cause he's entering adolescence and it's not an easy time, obviously. SO I think that all the love & respect they see towards their dad will help them build themselves as individuals. At least I hope so. They'll have pride (in a good way) and they'll have purpose. Hopefully this will help them stay out of trouble in the years to come. :angel:
One thing's for sure : these kids will accomplish GREAT things in life. I have no doubt about it.
As for the Earth Song tribute, I thought it was beautiful without being too "flashy". I gotta admit I was a bit disappointed the first time I saw it but after seeing it several times, I now think it was the appopriate thing to do. It felt sincere and I'm glad they chose such an amazing, meaningful and not very well-known (at least in the US, cause Earth Song was a huge hit eveywhere else when it first came out) song for the tribute. Usher & Jennifer Hudson's performances brought tears to my eyes, they really felt the song... Usher is still clearly very much affected by Michael's death and you can see how much Michael meant/means to him. Whenever there's a tribute to Michael, he's always there and you know it's always real. I respect him a lot for that.
Hey guys, I had to get on this morning to tell you about my dreams last night. I don't even want to call it dreaming...it was pure time travel. I saw the past, present and future in one fell swoop.
OMG. The experience you had... I have no words. This is beyond AMAZING. Thank you so much for sharing it with us, girl, really. I'm so happy for you. You're really connected to your spirituality (not sure if that sentence made sense lol), I think that's why you're able to experience such powerful things. Wow.
I have often felt this way about it all too. Just like I wrote in my one song...about how there was more to it, and Murray was simply 'planted' there. Maybe not...and maybe it all ultimately doesn't matter because it was all supposed to happen for whatever reason that Michael chose as part of his path here on Earth...and how he wanted to go. I don't know. Considering how massive the effect of his passing was on the planet - how many people it touched and turned their lives around - including myself, it's certainly not far fetched to think that Michael would choose to die at just the right time that this could happen. However heartbreaking and unjust it appeared, it had to happen.
I must admit I often feel that way too... I think Michael was completely and utterly exhausted while preparing for TII... He couldn't sleep, he was in pain physically, the pressure was huge, there's no way he could have backed down... As heartbreaking as it is, in my heart I feel like God said "Ok, you've had enough pain. This is just too much. You survived the worst, you don't have anything to prove anymore, your work here is done and you finally deserve your rest and to be freed from all the pain."
and :angel:
BTW
Amy, I hope things went well at court. It must be pretty painful everytime you have to go there for child-related stuff
*big hugs to you*
As the car was about to pass me, a mere five feet away, the most familiar looking person (who was on my side of the vehicle, seat behind the kids) took his sunglasses off for a moment to wipe a spot on his shirt. As he did this he looked at me. I saw these eyes... omg... :bugeyed these EYES... I KNOW these eyes!!!!.... we locked eyes... I couldn't breathe... as we passed I realized I was staring (this all happened in like 5 seconds or less) and so I smiled shyly and looked down. Then the vehicle was past me. Wait a minute... THOSE EYES.... OMG!!!!! MICHAEL!!!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I about died. I swore it was him! I was almost 100% convinced, but it happened so fast that I wasn't totally sure! I wanted to turn and run after him, confirm it was him, see him, be near to him... but I thought... he's here and nobody has noticed. I'd have to run to catch up and that would cause attention... God, I can't ruin it for him! So I couldn't bring myself to go back because if it was really Michael I wanted him to have these wonderful moments of peace, unrecognized by the crowds, maybe knowing that the girl in the pink t-shirt recognized him and kept the secret :wub:
Wow, what an experience!! All signs seem to point towards the fact that it WAS Michael. Beautiful. This is a moment you'll cherish forever
And I'm so happy you got your "confirmation" with the "Disneyland" sign on Twitter.
Awww I just love this story
Thank you so much for sharing, girl
I'm having like meltdowns today. People bitching at everyone in certain threads, getting told I'm not a real fan :rolleyes2:, etc. It's not personal that I'm feeling, it's like... my God. All this hate and division. I totally had some kind of breakdown
this afternoon because I can only imagine what all is coming with Murray and I don't want fans getting consumed with hate. If we, the supporters, the promoters, the love-ers of Michael can't treat each other "with love"... what can we do for the world??? Or maybe I'm just hormonal? :not_me:
Aww I know how you feel, girl
This is all so painful *sigh* And all this about him supposedly surrendering one day and then not (now I'm hearing it will happen on Monday), it just drives everyone crazy. We need justce, it's a perfectly normal human feeling. That doesn't mean we have to be vengeful of course.
There's so many emotions, so much pain, despair, anger... It's hard. It's hard on everyone
Hopefully Murray surrendering will bring some kind of peace to some fans...
BTW
mjbunny, I also wanted to thank you for your wonderful "Michael Jackson, Personal Love Tutor" post on the MLP website. So beautifully written. Thank you, you said it all. :angel: I also loved what you wrote about how the differences in ages don't matter. Sorry, I wanted to quote your post cause it really touched me and now I lost the page.
Ugh I feel sooo ignored today. Meh. I need loo-hooove..but no one sees me standing.
Am I invisible or what....? Ah well...sorry for venting here. Lol.
Awww
Mrs Music :hug: Again, I totally know how you feel. BTW I am SO sorry you had an abusing boyfriend, this is SO not right
Not sure this is gonna make you feel any better but I'm 29 and never had anyone tell me "I love you" either. So I perfectly understand the pain. Everyone's here has given you some great advice, it's so true what the girls said about - basically - men (or should I say 'boys', in this case) being stupid before they hit their 30's lol
Don't worry, you'll find him, in time
You're a very special girl and you deserve love, just like everyone :hug: You said somethig about guys prolly seeing on your forehead that you weren't into non-committed/"easy" relationships. Well, you may very well be right.
You seem like a smart girl with a good head on her shoulders and that's probably scaring them off cause they're wayyyy too immature and can't handle a great girl like you YET!
Like everyone said, it will happen when you least expect it... And feeling fulfilled with your life will definitely help. I know I probably won't find anyone or won't make anyone happy until I'm happy with myself & my life. Since I'm not quite there yet, I don't expect to find a man anytime soon :lol: (nor do I feel it would be right anyway, given how i'm feeling at the moment). No matter how badly I crave that connection and love... *sigh*
So, don't worry sweetie, it will happen and when it finally does, it will be worth it :hug:
Love you guys :heart: Hugs to all of you, my fellow "messengers of Michael's love" :angel:
Oh and of course thanks to everyone for sharing your wonderful Michael dreams & expriences! There's so many that I haven't been able to comment on them all but I love reading them and I DO read all of them.
I'm so glad you guys are having these wonderful dreams which are often so heartwarming
Haven't had any in a while, hopefully this will change soon
L.O.V.E
*edit* Just saw your post,
Mrs Music:
Aw man, I'm feeling so weird...have you guys seen
the vid from this thread? I just watched it and man....to see that like...in motion...and the lightning behind Michael from the window...and the guards taking all that love inside. So powerful, I couldn't stop having chills through my whole body..realizing it's really Michael in there. :boohoo: Don't mean to make anyone upset, sorry if so....I thought it might be interesting for you guys to see. It made me wonder if all will work out I'll probably be there in September this year...my GOD! So surreal.
Oh God. Thanks for the link, hadn't seen it before. This is just... I don't know what to say. I'm not feeling well right now...
I wish we could get there and do a meditation all together, in real life, real time...that would be such a great experience. :angel:
I would love that too :angel:
Hope everyone is doing fine in all this chaos that's assumingly going around - read some stuff about now the Murray stuff's on Monday.
Bwuh. Where are the old days...the normal days...I wish he was here to make this all stop. *sigh* But yeah, don't we all.
I'm gonna try to meditate or ask for some kind of dream for tonight. I want to feel him so badly.
Yes, this is so hard
Stay strong everyone, I'm so glad we all have each other :heart: