it was magical last night.
such terrible day when i woke up, i had asked you to take me away but i woke up and i was alive... and i was so down that i could not get up. as always lonely, ignored, heartbroken and hurt. and when i talked to a friend of mine, i felt so misunderstood and that no one can understand me, just like i can't.
so, there is no use of having friends. and so i made up my mind that i stop searching around for someone who feels just like me for such person does not exist out there; nothing is real, it's all fake. so why waste my time. and decided to get to used to loneliness like before though i have nothing to soothe me when loneliness stabs my heart.
then i asked You to helped me, but as always i was not even sure, u'd even know about it.
anyway...
i do know why but an idea crossed my mind after that, to sent a message to person i knew here on MJJC, she is so kind and listen to me. i had almost forgotten about her but i suddenly thought of sending her a message.
it was such a sad, heart-breaking message full of complains, just like the things i post on my wall on fb and people ignore for they do not want to kill their hope and their happy day.
hours after, i got a reply for her and it was so magical. the way, every word of her calmed me, like a drug and lulled my pain and loneliness. it slowly killed the hurt and made me feel better.
then hours after, i chatted with her. i could really feel magic around. i have at last found the person who feels the same, someone who can help me, someone who does listen to every word i say, someone who really cares, never ignores, and is so kind that i can feel her love even though she is so so so far away.
so weird that friends so close, whom u know for yeaaaaaaaaars, can't help u at all but a stranger so far away, comprehends u so deep and gives u love so heartfelt that u can feel it profoundly.
and she says, what i feel is just what she feels. and that i am helping her in return.
i had given up on all, on magic, on love... but i felt magic deep down to my bone last night.
could it be you brought us together. maybe u were smiling down at us... that we have finally found each other.
i'd love to believe that. :heart: