Dearest Michael, this hurts me, so badly. Some fans said listenin to your songs will comfort them but not in any way im able to listen to your musics or watch any videos of you right now. I dont know how long will it take for me to recover, but one thing thats for sure is, my heart will always be a broken one. It will never be in a full form. Losin you is exactly same as losin a most dearest lover who i have been together with for my whole life.
Yesterday was the first day i went to work with the fact that you have left this world and times pass miserably..i used to hate my job but the thought of you makes the time pass real fast but ytd i just felt like dyin. However the worst day is friday night..when i first heard the news...i didnt sleep and eat since then..i went to the forum to find out more but all these just made me cry even more...
Michael, you meant so much to me..you are such an important person to me, i really didnt expect this day because i cant imagine what my life will be without you..i will still listen to your music and watch videos of you but the feelin will never be the same anymore. Idk if i will cry whenever i watch a video of yours..but i promise i will be strong. I insisted on ignorin and will never believe the "RIP" or "1958-2009" because you are still with us so all why all the 1958-2009? I have never been this heartboken before.
I created all kinds of accounts and became a member on MJJC was all because of you..now everythin seems worthless and meaningless...time will heal my pain but i guess it will take years to heal...the only thing that comforts me is that im really glad i have got the chance to know your music and beautiful you and became a fan of you..this will be the most beautiful thing that will ever happen in my life...
whatever happens..dont let go of my hand..Michael, you said that! you called all of us not to let go of your hand but why...I cant bear to see any of your pics right now...i just read the thread about the This is it rehearsal where there were pics of you inside...i cried sooo hard...you were all ready for this...
Life will never be the same for me anymore...i will live on and live well because i know that deep down in my heart, you will always be there...you will forever be with me...i will not mention or explain to others what you meant to me because its enough for just you and me to know...
Love you
from the bottom of my heart.