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Tell us how you feel, come on. How are you getting on?

Please keep this updated, I'm worried about our dear MJJC family! :wub:
 
I haven't been sleeping well. Then again, I was not before but I think this all made it worse.

My eyes are still sore from wiping tears. Other than that I think I am doing okay for now.
 
i became just numb inside. shadows of emotions. i guess it's some kind of self-protection. and waves of pain. and then some kind of peace

i guess everybody are really mentally exhausted
things are revealed in new light
love for MJJC
 
Thank you for caring *hugs*
I'm doing better now, cuz I've had so much time to think about this (no work etc.). And now I've focused my energy on keeping Michael's legacy alive, I'm really determined to spread his music, his message and spirit to everyone. That's my mission from now on.

And how are you coping with this?
 
i am ok, i even sleep well...but each morning when i wake up it takes me 1-2 seconds until i realize what happens and it hits me all the time as if i heard it the first time, so strange. i have to re think about what happened:(
 
Laura.L. said:
Thank you for caring *hugs*
I'm doing better now, cuz I've had so much time to think about this (no work etc.). And now I've focused my energy on keeping Michael's legacy alive, I'm really determined to spread his music, his message and spirit to everyone. That's my mission from now on.

And how are you coping with this?
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I'm glad you are better honey!

I'm doing good today, I can listen to Michael, watch footages, remember things and smile, laugh etc. But I feel soooo guilty!! Like I should still be crying my eyes out! Seriously.

Someone said something to me on MJJC and it knocked me down and I'm like "Maybe I didn't love him as much as I thought... :cry: :cry:" I always say I loved him more than anything else on Earth.
 
DanceOfZenab1994 said:
I'm glad you are better honey!

I'm doing good today, I can listen to Michael, watch footages, remember things and smile, laugh etc. But I feel soooo guilty!! Like I should still be crying my eyes out! Seriously.

Someone said something to me on MJJC and it knocked me down and I'm like "Maybe I didn't love him as much as I thought... :cry: :cry:" I always say I loved him more than anything else on Earth.
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Funny you should say that, I've experienced feeling guilty too. Especially when I laugh or smile. I feel guilty for that, because it feels like "how can I smile when I've lost a man that I love so much?"... But you know what, Michael wouldn't want us to just cry and cry all the time. "Smile, though you're heart is aching, smile even though it's breaking.."

I get strenght from spreading Michael's message and music to everyone who's willing to listen (and even those who aren't lol). We should all do that. He lives in all of us!!

Don't let anyone else tell you how much you loved or didn't love Michael, you're the only one who knows that. Ok? Just because you're not crying 24/7 doesn't mean you didn't love him just as much as everyone else here! I have cried everyday, but most of the time I'm not crying. So what? I loved Michael more than I could ever describe in words, and I still love him. I know it in my heart, and I don't care what anyone else thinks. There's no need to prove anything. Seriously, this can't be a competition... We all grieve in our own ways.

(((BIG HUGS)))
 
I think I'm OK - I can concentrate at work and on daily things a bit better day by day, but still thinking about it alot and crying. I have cried a few times tonight since I've been home from work. I hope everyone is OK.

Love to Michael and the Jacksons
 
Tired and sad, but we should move on all .. because this is not what michael want us to do, we should keep listenin to his music, and to celebrate his life! we should prove to the world that michael is and will still be the greatest ever
 
Right now I am finally doing great. I no longer feel that great pain and sadness I had for Michael. I know Michael had visited me again last night. Because when I had woken up I had immediately felt this great sense of peace. I had never felt such peace before. Because Michael was telling me that he is alright now and that he is at peace. And I need to really start remembering him in more happier times. And not how he is now. My great pain and sadness that I have just totally left me. It is like I have finally come to terms with his death. And now because of that I can finally start to rediscover my MJ love that I had for him at one time. Just to make up for all of those months and years I had not felt like listening or watching him. I think I am actually becoming obsessed with him again. I haven't been obsessed with Michael since the HIStory Album came out when I was 15 years old. I am 29 and I have been a Michael Jackson fan for over 25 years now. Practically almost my entire life. But it didn't took until the HIStory Era had started was when I started to become obsessed with him. Only because it was the first actual MJ Era that I was going to remember all of it. And not just some of it like I did with Bad and Dangerous eras.
 
Finaly I was able to get a good night sleep only yesterday for 6 hours, but felt like half asleep, I can’t get him out of my mind. I went to hospital today due to increasing pain in my stomach, also strong headache. I am getting better by taking medication.
 
^^I wish and I would expect to dream about him but I donno if I did I can’t remember
 
I'm exhausted too....& feeling most things most of you said!

Been an intense week - I had 2 other life changes hit me from out of nowhere AS WELL.
 
I feel OK. There are times when I still feel shocked and disbelief like "is this really happening?" I haven't cried, and I don't think I will, only because a week earlier my grandfather passed away and I think I cried so much for him that (I know it sounds corny) but I'm all cried out.

I'm also more about keeping his music and message alive and celebrating what he gave us. I think that's what he would want. Part of me feels selfish for saying this, but I looked forward to more great unreleased music, video's and performances that we have yet to see from MJ :)

The King :wub:
 
It gets better day by day but it is still hard. I will be glad when he is buried and when the results of his death comes. I will then have closure.
 
depressed. every day getting more harder for me now.
 
I am doing quite good at the moment! I am listening, enjoying and dancing to his music! I feel the funeral will be a bit of a set back though.
 
Laura.L. said:
Thank you for caring *hugs*
I'm doing better now, cuz I've had so much time to think about this (no work etc.). And now I've focused my energy on keeping Michael's legacy alive, I'm really determined to spread his music, his message and spirit to everyone. That's my mission from now on.

And how are you coping with this?
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I was feeling like you. I started beeing involved in charity. It made me feel better. But today I feel exeptionally bad. Depression and pain defeated me.
 
I'm a bit better, but each day is still very difficult live through. The fact that he's now everywhere makes it harder.. it rubs it in that he's no longer here. The worst thing is whenever you see his name its always followed by 2009. I just want this whole frenzy with his death to finally end so I can grieve in peace.
 
Apparently I was born in the year of the sheep. Which is 1991, and it says beware of the Ox. 2009 is the year of the Ox. I think so far my girlfriend broke up with me who I dearly love and I have now lost my idol. I cant complain really, there are people much worse off than me of course. I have a great life, I just hope things stop at Michael passing away :\ lol
 
Well I first went to the memorials in LA, to where Mike's spirit was, to Encino and to the star. I put loads of flowers at the two homes and said a prayer and lite candles..and let the tears flow, but in private away from the media circus there.

I'm waiting for official news of the viewing. I almost left for SB yesterday for the Neverland viewing...but was on the way there when I got a text text message to STOP. It's stressing...and it's making me really depressed...but I'll get through it ...

We all will eventually....-_-
 
im doing better today. I tidied my entire room deep clean just to keep my mind off it. Its still the first coherent though that enters my head in the morning which is followed by the nauseating emptiness. I just miss him endlessly. I went to the beach at sunset last night and jst ran as fast as i could, that really helped get all the anger and pent up frustration out. What's getting me at the moment is the comments that michael's kids are fine, i'm like how can they concievably be fine!! im sure it just means they are coping ok, just makes me think how can they be fine when im terrrible.
 
I feel much better. I could do all everyday things, even smile and laughed -twice today. I have listened to his songs - without tears! But...
it will never be the same again. Because I think my brain doesn't realize this sad fact... and I know that will be many tears and a lot of sadness in the future. But at least this is not that terrible pain - which was in first days.
 
guys he is here with everyone in spirit but he hasn't visited me yet
 
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