Re: do your family think you are going over the top with your gief for michael?
my mom and dad both called when they heard, all my mom said when she heard me sobbing is: "yeah, well, you got to get over ir. he was an amazing artist, yes. but hey, everybody's talking about it, everybody's sorry, everybody's hurt.." i love my mom, don't get me wrong, but she has never understood and never will. she was always asking me when will i finally grow out of Michael. i met her today and i was holding my tears, but i was not too chatty, and she goes "what's the matter? ...oh.. you're still sad about Michael?" how can i not be, he made me who i am. i do realize my mind's a bit fuked up, it's always been, cause it is NOT normal to love someone you never actually knew so much that it hurts. but he means the world to me.
My dad.. well, he never truly understood, but he always tried. He always referred to Michael as "my Michael". when he called me and heard my crying, his voice changed and i wouldn't be surprised his eyes got all teary. he calls me all the time to check if i'm ok.
my two best friends who i live with have been very supportive. i am so blessed. they've taken care of me and cried with me all night long. they never had experienced anything like that themselves, but they always knew just how much Michael means to me, they always kind of thought of him as someone they actually knew, by the way i spoke of him. they cried their eyes out just watching me cry and grief. for a whole day or so i was not really able to talk, but the next night i just could not stop talking and telling them about Michael, and they'd gladly listen, even though they had to be a up and ready for work in 3 hours.
i am not picking up my phone no more, cause loads of people are calling and texting me, but a lot of them just go: "omg, did you hear? wow! so sad. billie jean was my favorite MJ song" or "aw, i just called to say i heard about Michael, i'm sorry.. wait, are you crying? are you actually crying? are you serious?" just fuk off, you know. sadly, but i do not even want to speak to them again ever.