The thing is, I have not and never will call Michael a "drug addict". No matter what the results of the autopsies will be, I do not want to label him into any one category like that. Yes, I recognize the possibility that Michael may have had a problem with prescription drugs, just like his family and friends seem to be recognizing, so it is not just the media anymore. However, the wording matters to me here. Calling Michael a drug addict would be labeling Michael, his whole persona, based on his addiction and yes, it would be judgemental. That is exactly what I want to avoid. It just seems to me that even the possibility of a drug addiction would make some fans forget all the good qualities in Michael and instead he would become "just a drug addict". I will always remember Michael as a great artist, a good human being and a wonderful father. Those are the things that matter to me and the reasons why I love him. Him having an addiction would not make me love him any less, just feel sad because of all the pain he had to experience.
Again, using the word "confess" makes addiction sound like it was a sin. Just because Michael has talked about his previous addiction openly, doesn't mean he was ready to do it this time. It would have been a lot more difficult now, when the whole world was waiting for his comeback tour. He finally had a chance to show the fans and the doubters, even his children, what he was still capable of. Maybe he assumed that many people would feel let down, if he admitted to a problem. Perhaps he didn't even want to admit it to himself. I really don't know. What I do know, is that I want to prepare myself for all possible outcomes of the autopsy results. I think it would mean a lot to Michael to know there are people, who love him as he is, whether or not he had an addiction, instead of being his fans only on the condition of him being able to fulfill their super-human expectations and fantasies.