English is not my native language. This word doesn't have the same signification in french.
This is exactly my point, thank you. Being moderated in what we say. Trying not to affirm things as if we did know what happened or what did not.
As you say, we will never have evidence in one way or another, it's all about believing, trusting, feeling. We have to admit that.
Today for the first time in my life I have more than serious doubts on Michael's innocence and it is haunting me. For many years I have studied the 2 others cases. I have read the transcripts, I have listened to people, I have read books, including Aphrodite Jones', I have seen all the bullshit that was around those cases, the interested people, the twisted media, the mentally sick families, the dishonnest Tom Sneddon... Michael's acquital, in the middle of this circus, was just logical and I felt released when it happened, although I knew, even at the time, that a justice decision does not mean that the truth has been found. But I trusted Michael, I believed in him.
Today, I have a feeling when I look at these 2 guys. When I look at their background, I can see no reason why they would do such a horrible thing as accusing their dead friend of child molestation if it was not true. And I felt this time it was different as soon has Wade Robson accused Michael in 2013. The fact that he had always defended Michael, the fact that he was this young man, having a baby, a family, living what were supposed to be the best years of his life... I just did not see how someone like this, apparently clever, successful and respected in his job, was going into something like that if it wasn't true. Why puting his whole family into that ? Why risking to waste his whole life and career for a lie (because he knew he was going to be hated by so many) ? It just didn't make sense to me. I just waited to see what was going to happen.
Then there was James Safechuck. Same profile, the difference being that he never seemed interested in fame. Same age, a bit older. Very close to Michael as a child, apparently so happy of it at the time. Having a baby, a family, a good job. Why ?
Then they filled this lawsuit. Asking for money. Alright. This is one of the main elements that make people say that money is all they are after. I'm not sure about that. Asking for money can be a way, for many victims, to find a bit of recognition in what they have been through. We know that. Some say Robson was furious because he didn't get engaged into the Cirque du Soleil thing. Well, why not. I don't know. Is it worth sacrificing the rest of your life and insulting your once best friend who happens to be dead ? I'm not sure. Some say he defended MJ under oath and don't understand how this could have been possible if he was a victim. Again, this has been discussed and we know this is understandable. Loverpeace wrote very clever things about that, a few pages earlier. Someone here says there are no "normal victims" and thinks it's very strange if Michael is guilty. I wanna ask : what is a normal victim ? As long as a child has been abused, therefore you cannot expect from the adult he became to be exactly "normal". Especially if their abuser happened to be the biggest star the World has ever known.
Ok, then their case was rejected because the judge decided they could not accuse the Estate for someone else's alleged acts.
Right. Then came this documentary. This is what frightened me the most, before it was premiered. It means that 6 years after their claims, they are still into it. I mean they are now dedicating their whole adult life to this. What for ? money ? The film maker said they did not receive any money for making this documentary. Some say they hope their case to be reopened and therefore at the very end they still wanna get some money from the Estate. Ok, maybe they hope so. I still don't know. And I still believe they have the right to need to go there if they are victims.
What I know for sure is that opening yourself in a 4 hour documentary that is going to be seen all over the world and, I suppose, will be forever associated to the name of Michael Jackson, that is not something you do lightly. That is not something you do for fame or money. That is something you do when you have things to say and you absolutely want everyone to know, even if you know you are going to be hated by a lot of people. If you are taking that risk for something that is not good, you really are perverted minds.
Then there were the first feedbacks of the movie. Freaking shocking. Horrible things to read. So far from the Michael we knew. I knew from a long time that Michael was not the perfect magical character I thought he was when I was 12. I knew he has a very complex personnality. Of course I had asked myself more than once in the past "He was proven innocent about those charges, they couldn't find no evidence for 15 years... but what if some of it was true, after all ?"... But nothing convinced me at all. Even when I asked this to myself, I never could have imagined him doing what I read in those first reviews. I mean, come on... This is so extreme.
Then I watched the Q&A on video. That was hard but I had to because I felt I did not trust Michael like I once did, and I wanted to know if I believed these guys or not. When you know you will never have evidence in a way or another, all you have to do if you want to be as close to the truth as you can be, is checking facts, wich I did a million times, and listenning to what people have to say. I mean, really listenning. I did that. And I saw "normal people", as normal as they could be. I felt what I was afraid of feeling : their sincerity. And I just wanted to throw up because I happened to believe them.
I'm sorry guys. Call me what you want but I'm being honest. I have evidence of nothing and I won't try to convince anybody, this is not my role and this is not what I want. I won't fight for Michael this time, but I won't fight for Robson and Safechuck either because I know there's always a chance that I might be wrong. By expressing this I just wanted to say that nobody can act as if he knows the truth 100%. Thanks for reading.