Re: Any Believers in Jesus Christ Here?
I've been in and out with Jesus for years now...although I've been to Christian school from pre-school to 12th grade, I was turned off by a lot of things that I've seen in the church - plus liberal arts College with professors who treat the Bible as fan-fiction makes it real easy to lose my way. It wasn't until recently when I was at my lowest point in life did I really start coming back.
First I went to church just to support my parents because they became members of the church. The topic was "change," and just about EVERY WORD that the pastor spoke was directly relevant to me. It wasn't like the pastor was vague either; each and every thing he stated described me TOO perfectly. Secondly, I watched Suze Orman this past Saturday, who with one of her guests, pretty much used the idea of speaking something into existence - something I haven't seen or done myself since my days of Christian school. In my head, I knew there was no logic to that, but it made me feel good nonetheless. Then, I realized that I use too much logic, and God doesn't work in the realm of human logic. THAT was confirmed when I received a phone call on Monday that not only was I not expecting, but confirmed frankly EVERYTHING I remembered about Christ, what He does, and when He does it.
Like I said, Christ doesn't work on human logic. I've seen this within the past two weeks, and Job was a man who knew this first hand. The second thing, that all Christians know but is helpful to remember, is that he has a certain plan for us and he works on his own time. I had a plan to do one thing, but God disagreed with that. Sometimes I hope for things to happen immediately, God says that it's best for me to practice patience and to wait the next day. Finally, God has a plan. I'm no saint, and I'm still not at a point where I know exactly what God's long term plans are for me, but I do feel like I'm seeing God's work in full motion. Earlier today, for example, I was told that for the new job that I AM getting, I would have to find a paystub or a W2 from 4 to 5 years ago from a company that is out of business! I found the paystub on my bookshelf about 15 minutes ago. Believe me, I am not an organized person who keeps records like that (though I should begin immediately), so finding a check dated 12/2/2004 for my needs is pretty much a miracle and more proof of God's work.
I hate how corny it sounds, but it's the truth considering all of these things that I am seeing as I try to remove my thought process and having faith by leaving everything to Christ. Again, I'm by no means perfect and wish I had more insight into God's plan, but it feels good to finally have someone on my side again and to know that there is a plan for me that I am following even though I do now know all of the full details of said plan.
I thank the Lord for that, and it is my goal to try to always remember this even in my bad times. It is a reminder to me that God is there and is working whether I know it or not.
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