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Cant get over it

It gets much harder when Christmas , New Years ,Valentines Day and Easter are about to come around and being that he started celebrating Christmas with his children and probably went to New Years parties,I know all of his family and friends will feel the emptiness that we fans feel. I just can't believe that it will be 6 months on Dec 25 that this wonderful loving caring man has been gone.Yes,His Music and Good Deeds will carry on but his physical presence in real time will be sorely missed by all. There's not a day that's gone by that I haven't stopped thinking of him and what could have been and what he could have been doing around this time but even though we have these memories of him, he's with us wherever he is, always in our hearts and I know you fans will always remember how much he loved us. He's smiling now from Heaven ,so when Christmas comes,Say a prayer,You might hear his voice if you blankout your mind from stress just for a minute and smile too when you hear him speak in his soft voice letting you know he loves you.. Hey ,You might hear him say Merry Christmas.... Just listen..
 
GOLDSPACESUIT45 said:
Cant get over it...to me its too soon...i wont take it..cause MJ had plans and new projects!! MJ had alots of new projects!! There alots of things that needed to be done..dang it.
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OK, firstly I wish to point out that I feel exactly the same way. This pain just won't go away. If I stop visiting MJJC, it gets worse. If I continue to visit the site, I spend hours on here (not good when you have a degree to complete, as I'm sure many of you will know!)

Michael had so much still to give, but there was a purpose behind the TII concerts. A meaning to his new songs. They were to show love, compassion. To spread the message that this world needs healing. Personally I thought that this was conveyed brilliantly in the film - Kenny clearly put across the message, mixing such energy with passion and emotion. This was not MJ's final few days - they were the beginning of something new. Of a world where people think more about their treatment of others as well as the planet. Michael 'did his duty' before he lost his life :cry:

I sincerely believe, because I have to believe, that Michael's plans and projects were in place to spread the message that he's been spreading for years now. Heal the World - we are in a mess, and we all need to get together and try and put it right. I hope that in future we will be able to get together and make a difference, just like Michael did.

Mr. Michael Joseph Jackson, I love you and your fans very much :) x
 
I feel your pain. I mean, I know how you feel. I just can't get over "it". I don't understand what happened. I know what happened. But why? There are times where I seem to forget what happened, like I have a piece of my past back. Watching good ol' Mike and feeling good, but it doesn't take long and reality comes back. Yesterday hit me very hard again after watching Spike Lee's video. I can't believe that this wonderful & beautiful human being is not here... I feel like this statement is far away from reality. And no one seems to understand. Except fans. I miss Michael so much. I was looking so forward to see him, I wanted to turn my dreams into reality. I even told my mother when I have seen Michael I could die, because there's nothing left I want to see. I was so damn happy. I'm actually a very happy person, but "something" is missing in my life. I miss Michael so much... :cry:
 
Mhm. It's like Michael's passing is now a fact in my brain. I know this. Sometimes I can even casually think about it without getting very upset. But whenever I REALLY think about it, WHY it happened and the people he left behind and the things he wanted to do... it just doesn't get any better. The pain is always there and very real. Death is a part of life, people have to accept that. But premature death doesn't have to be. And I will never be able to accept Michael dying, because it wasn't supposed to happen. End of. There can be closure.
 
Same here. Seems like everything has changed since Michael's gone. And I wish so much that he would come back and everything's like it used to be. Just knowing he's there and gives love to the world. Michael has always been a light for me. This will continue forever, but in the moment it just hurts because I miss him so much.

Hugs to all of you guys...
 
Wow we can all relate to you. I can.:(

Happy one day...sad the next. It just makes me sick with depression to know that Michael's body is just resting in a casket somewhere on this cold hard planet. I know his spirit is very much alive, but it's just not the same anymore.:no: Yea people celebrate his music and dance... but Michael the HUMAN BEING. He was a lovely man. He was so different and unique. Very special and he shone like.. I am just rambling. But if I don't talk about this, I'll go insane (to where it's scary). :cry: I am scared without Michael. I feel naked, empty, alone, and just afraid. His smile would make my day, his voice was so sweet, and his eyes were so deep they could peer right into your soul.. and his aura was so big. His love was like no other. I know he is watching over us and his family. I look at the clouds more, and look at the sunrise trying to find some sweet sign from him. I do this because it's so beautiful..like he was, and it's kind of calming. I feel like I am going crazy. MICHAEL I MISS YOU!!!:cry::boohooI just want to hold him and show him love, and never let go. I'll never let go of Michael.

Sorry guys fo going on.. thanks for listening.:(
 
I wanna just wake up, 26th June, one month away from me seeing MJ. This has all been an awful long nightmare!
 
I've never cried this long a period for anyone. I still can't believe it. And I do not understand it. Why him? Why does he have to be gone? I want him back so badly. Why, why, why?
 
Sometimes i'm okay, other times it hits me really hard. I will forever be sad about Michael's passing. There's no really "getting over" it for me, at least not completely. I'm coping better, yes absolutely, but there are times still when I cry over him. The sadness will be always be there.
 
Today's just one of those days that I feel really crap. :cry:
 
:no: I don't know what to do or how to heal. I'll never heal. Everyone here feels the same. The only thing we can do is be here for one another. I can't let him go.:( I'm gonna cry now..
 
they told me i'm going through a phase...

this time i tell them "I dear god hope so"

it's not going away. I'll never get over it... i can't even cope with it.
i don't care about his projects i don't care about his new whatever. i care for him to be happy and the blessings to be there for his kids.
 
I ask myself this everyday, friends think I'm crazy because I just feel so depressed sometimes. Its almost like apart of me is gone, my heart feels empty at times, it's terrible. I wish to be able to handle it someday, but I just can't stop missing him. :cry:
 
I am missing Michael so much now. That I can't even begin to describe of how much I miss him. I am stuck back in to my state of deep depression and sadness because of it. Plus I have been noticing the one thing I thought I will never see myself do. That is turning to food for some kind of comfort. I am an emotional eater now. Because of what has happen to Michael. I hate knowing that I am gaining all the weight that I had lost during the summer back. I just totally stopped eating during the summer. Because I really took what had happen hard. But you know I really don't care now if I gain all the weight that I had lost back. I will never be able to get over what has happen to Michael. I have never lost anyone that I love to murder before. And it is worst for me now because I think about death all of the time now. Cause I just want to be with Michael so much now. Since I can't kill myself all I can do now is just wait and hope I die of an early age. So I can be with my beloved Michael.
 
I agree 100%

I honestly cannot get over it, I am so much disbelief and saddness.

I never thought I would see the day come, the words "r.i.p Michael Jackson" just don't seem right.

The only way that I can be be somewhat happy is watching his music videos, interviews etc etc because I never want to let him go. Some assholes tell me "Your obsessed with his music, your obsession is unhealthy, your not a family member so get over it"
No one is acting like they are a family member, but if you grew up on MJ's talent, warmth and intelligence the way so many people did you might understand.

It hurst so much because I feel like if people didnt falsly dog him so much, he'd still be here. It's like watching school bullies pick on someone and break them down.

It's hard to cope with.
 
Early in the morning six months ago I received a message saying RIP Michael Jackson. I remember getting out of my bed and turning on my computer just thinking "What? What? What? No. No. No.." The bad news were already everywhere and I spent hours reading it over and over again visiting many sites that were all telling the same story.. Couldn't eat, couldn't believe my eyes, couldn't cry. Over half my life I had loved his music, loved to watch his short films, loved his dancing, spirit, creativity...everything. Loved the man. And though I never got a chance to meet him, I was just happy to know that he was somewhere. I just hoped that where ever he was, he would be happy. And then suddenly...he just wasn't around anymore. That was way too much to really understand.. However, in the evening I went to see some local artists and groups perform and my friend turned out wearing a black MJ t-shirt, black tie and fedora and that was the moment when tears came.. After that I've found myself crying more often than probably ever in my life.
Today I've been thinking a lot about that day and also reading how others felt back then and how they are coping right now..(and yes, I've been crying my eyes out..) It feels kind of good though to know that one's not alone, that others are going through same things. Not a day has gone by without thinking of Michael but obviously some days are better than others. I'm just going to have to think that when more time goes by, there will be more of those good days. Days, when you can say, damn I'm so happy to have loved him and to have enjoyed his incredible talent and to have lived during a time when he was here. So good days definitely don't mean not thinking of him :) And anyway, half a year is really a short period of time when you have lost a special someone. Let's try to stay strong. For our angel..
 
I'm feeling all of you, I can't get over it myself. It's just unbelievable. To say the past year was the worst year of my life is an understatement.
 
MJsBollywoodGirl7 said:
I will never be able to get over what has happen to Michael. I have never lost anyone that I love to murder before. And it is worst for me now because I think about death all of the time now. Cause I just want to be with Michael so much now. Since I can't kill myself all I can do now is just wait and hope I die of an early age. So I can be with my beloved Michael.
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I know exactly how you feel. I pray that God take me away to where he is.... He has not grant any dreams of mine. He must realize this last wish of me. The hurt of his loss is too huge for me, my heart and soul to endure till it will come for me to go. I do feel as though the world has stopped..or at least slowed down, in some way. A piece of me has definitely gone with Michael. The only way I can find happiness ever again is to be with Michael. And he's in Heaven.
 
i'm like the rest of you, can't get over it, but don't want to at the same time. just wish Michael was still here. 2009 was the worst year of my life by far.
 
januska said:
Early in the morning six months ago I received a message saying RIP Michael Jackson. I remember getting out of my bed and turning on my computer just thinking "What? What? What? No. No. No.." The bad news were already everywhere and I spent hours reading it over and over again visiting many sites that were all telling the same story.. Couldn't eat, couldn't believe my eyes, couldn't cry. Over half my life I had loved his music, loved to watch his short films, loved his dancing, spirit, creativity...everything. Loved the man. And though I never got a chance to meet him, I was just happy to know that he was somewhere. I just hoped that where ever he was, he would be happy. And then suddenly...he just wasn't around anymore. That was way too much to really understand.. However, in the evening I went to see some local artists and groups perform and my friend turned out wearing a black MJ t-shirt, black tie and fedora and that was the moment when tears came.. After that I've found myself crying more often than probably ever in my life.
Today I've been thinking a lot about that day and also reading how others felt back then and how they are coping right now..(and yes, I've been crying my eyes out..) It feels kind of good though to know that one's not alone, that others are going through same things. Not a day has gone by without thinking of Michael but obviously some days are better than others. I'm just going to have to think that when more time goes by, there will be more of those good days. Days, when you can say, damn I'm so happy to have loved him and to have enjoyed his incredible talent and to have lived during a time when he was here. So good days definitely don't mean not thinking of him :) And anyway, half a year is really a short period of time when you have lost a special someone. Let's try to stay strong. For our angel..
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:( :( :(

This made me tear up

I was at work when I got the news, my co worker came in and said "Did you hear Michael Jackson died??" I was like "WHAT?????????" so we checked CNN right away and it only said he was in cardiac arrest, I froze for a moment and said to myself "I'm going to ignore this because I know if I do he will be okay"...but me being curious because I didnt want to find out any other way..I logged on to CNN and read the news.

I immediatly called home to check on my family because I know how much they love him, I was screaming on the phone with my mom at my desk and one of my co-workers came to comfort me.

I left work early because I could not pull it together, I went home to family because we all needed to be together. I didnt even think to head to Times Square because I needed to get to my family, all we did was watch his videos and celebrity comments all night, I didnt even sleep that night even though I had to work and I had a graduation to go to, it was all about Michael. The following morning I drew tattoos on my family members of the MJJ logo with the words "1958-forever". Coincedently at my sisters graduation they played "Thriller" for one of the slideshows and everyone applauded loud and some graduates broke into the Thriller routine, of course I was crying.

But that whole weekend I saw some of the most unusual things, I saw those weird clouds and they seemed to be shaped like hearts, the next day I saw a solid rainbow
I never ever saw a solid rainbow in my life and I feel like that was Michael letting the world know that he's okay and that he's watching.
 
januska said:
Yep, 2009 has been a crappy year even though it started just fine.. :( But unfortunately every new year to come will be one without Michael :cry:
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That's true, januska. But, do keep in mind that Michael will always be watching. He will always be by our sides no matter what happens. Michael will never leave us, he will forever remain in our hearts and absolutely nothing can change that.

Stay strong for Michael, Jan.

:hug:
 
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