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Serenity3104 said:
dammit girl, I went from smiling while watching to crying...omg my heart is breaking right now...it was good Starlight, thanks...really :huggy:

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:hug: It was hard for me to make too
I miss them both.. :cry:
 
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Serenity3104 said:
I'm really feeling some type of way right now, like it just really hit me that I'll never see this man dance again, he was so full of life...omg fuck...I'll be back
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MichaelYoureAStud said:
I walked my almost 2yr old son Christian up to the store in 93 degree heat for a package of baby wipes.
My husband has the car and the stroller.
Stopped at Subway for lunch.
Been on here most of the day.
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Just a Gril said:
soo how was everyones day? i know a bunch of us went out and about.. did you guys have a good time? my day was sorta bland but ok..i actually spent some time outside in the fresh air lol
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MJstarlight said:
:hug: It was hard for me to make too
I miss them both.. :cry:
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i'm feeling a little drained emotionally tonight, so not too many funnies from me, but i just wanted to be sappy and say i love you all like goddamn family.
 
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london said:
my day was long
i had a lot of work to do

and then i got asked to go out and tbh i didn't want to but since we all had that convo tonight, i thought i should be healthy

but the whole time i just wanted to come home :rolleyes:
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awwww. but you went out. so thats a good thing. yes?
 
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Serenity3104 said:
I'm really feeling some type of way right now, like it just really hit me that I'll never see this man dance again, he was so full of life...omg fuck...I'll be back
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big big hugs :better:... thast what happened just a bit ago to me when i had my moment.. we all are here for you and each other
 
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Just a Gril said:
awwww. but you went out. so thats a good thing. yes?
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not really. it only made me feel worse that i wasn't enjoying myself. i really prefer you guys. like MYAS expressed, this is my family. i am affected by mike's passing and no, it isn't just some dude who died. and you, girls, really truly get this. and i don't ever have to explain myself and that is why i would rather be here every night.
 
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i didn't make this, but here's some love to and from mike

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london said:
not really. it only made me feel worse that i wasn't enjoying myself. i really prefer you guys. like MYAS expressed, this is my family. i am affected by mike's passing and no, it isn't just some dude who died. and you, girls, really truly get this. and i don't ever have to explain myself and that is why i would rather be here every night.
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understood :) we all got each other.. which is why im soooo greatful that you started this thread! for al its crazyiness.. we undertsand each other
 
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Yes thank you London for this thread..
I dont like going out much either.. Its even hard to get through a day of work.
Im really depressed :(
 
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it's our thread, really. it's absolutely nothing without all of you here every evening. :heart: :heart:

i kept bugging Heartbreak, Stan, MYAS asking if there was a thread we were all hanging out in and since there was none, we had to rectify that real quick!
 
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MichaelYoureAStud said:
It's hard to realy put into words how I feel about Michael without it making me sound slike a nut.
He's my father, brother, lover, first crush, best friend, hero, etc.
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I see him all these things too :cry:
He means everything to me, the light of my life
Words cannot describe how much he means to me. :cry:
 
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MichaelYoureAStud said:
Wow. I just said father, brother lover to mean one person........sign me up for the padded room.
*Straight jacket please*
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i'm already wearing mine, why you laggin behind? :p


MJstarlight said:
Yes thank you London for this thread..
I dont like going out much either.. Its even hard to get through a day of work.
Im really depressed :(
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yeah, i'm total fail on the work front. that part is scary so i gotta correct that quickly.
 
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MYAS.. your not a nut.. we understand. i'll tell you a bit about why he means so much to me.. i had a really fucked up family life. my dad would hit us all. i heard Ben i think when i was 8 or 9.. and then when Thriller came out i was 11.. i loved his music.. but what made me love him as a person waswhen he started helping all the kids aroudn the world. i used to pray everynight for him to come save me.. cause i knew he helped all these children.. so he was sorta like my knight , ya know.. i would go to bed and think tomorrow he wil come save me. i just know he will and that thought is what helped me survie through all that stuff.. i know it sounds weird to explain it that way but even when i got older in my teenage years and i knew that he really wasn't coming.. i still loved him.. ya know.. and i cant listen to lost children at all.. cause for me that hits way to close to home.
 
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Thank you guys, I feel the same way...I'm sorry for spazzing out, but I'm hurt, I feel such a loss and I cannot get over it...I've always had a strong sense of faith and belief in God (believe it or not through my craziness)...but I don't understand...I cannot understand how someone can go through soo much in life, give so much of himself, and do so much good, only to be taken away from his kids and his family (including us) so very soon. I can't stop crying because my heart is so broken...I lost a part of myself with Michael and people surrounding me don't understand...it's all like "you never met the guy, get over it" and in reality I want to get over them...this is what I mean when I say pure hearts connect, and I feel so much for Michael and I'm torn, spiritually and emotionally torn to pieces...I don't know how to handle this shit
 
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Serenity3104 said:
Thank you guys, I feel the same way...I'm sorry for spazzing out, but I'm hurt, I feel such a loss and I cannot get over it...I've always had a strong sense of faith and belief in God (believe it or not through my craziness)...but I don't understand...I cannot understand how someone can go through soo much in life, give so much of himself, and do so much good, only to be taken away from his kids and his family (including us) so very soon. I can't stop crying because my heart is so broken...I lost a part of myself with Michael and people surrounding me don't understand...it's all like "you never met the guy, get over it" and in reality I want to get over them...this is what I mean when I say pure hearts connect, and I feel so much for Michael and I'm torn, spiritually and emotionally torn to pieces...I don't know how to handle this shit
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yeah.. same for me girlie.. its the same
 
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I always thought of running away to Neverland. Some place safe, where evelyn couldn't hurt me any more.
She even tired to use Michael against me once. :cry:
She called the cops on me cause I was sick. My dad said I didn't have to go to school.
She got pissed so the called the cops and told them I wouldn't go to school. I heard them pull in the driveway. OMG. I ran like my ass was on fire. I was 11yrs. old. One grabbed me by the arm making me fall into a hole in the yard. Damn near twisted my ankle cause he kept pulling me.
When we got to the front porch, evelyn was standing there. She told the cops I was crazy and thought I was pregnant with Michael's twins.
She was hoping that would make me look like enough of a nut that they'd lock me up.
 
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i can't even contribute. our stories may be different in detail but the feeling is so similar and so shared. he's so goddamn special. stupid moonwalker. stupid lucky star. i can't even get into it, i just sound like a loon.

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Just a Gril said:
MYAS.. your not a nut.. we understand. i'll tell you a bit about why he means so much to me.. i had a really fucked up family life. my dad would hit us all. i heard Ben i think when i was 8 or 9.. and then when Thriller came out i was 11.. i loved his music.. but what made me love him as a person waswhen he started helping all the kids aroudn the world. i used to pray everynight for him to come save me.. cause i knew he helped all these children.. so he was sorta like my knight , ya know.. i would go to bed and think tomorrow he wil come save me. i just know he will and that thought is what helped me survie through all that stuff.. i know it sounds weird to explain it that way but even when i got older in my teenage years and i knew that he really wasn't coming.. i still loved him.. ya know.. and i cant listen to lost children at all.. cause for me that hits way to close to home.
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oh me too. My dad was very abusive growing up. :no: That may have something to do with me turning to Michael im not sure. Im just glad I found him because he changed my life and brought me so much joy.
I always knew about Michael and loved his music but I really fell in love with him when I was 16. I mean in love :wub: I bought every cd, watched all videos, started collecting things and joined here in 2003. I came to know him so well from being a fan. He has the most beautiful and kind soul. I was fascinated with his songs and how much he has done to help others. Because of him I am a better person. I took comfort knowing he was on this earth somewhere and its what motivated me to keep going. Without him I feel so lost because I feel my other half is missing, this hurts :cry:
 
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