I'm back finally my lovely crunchy appleheads! :heart:
Didn't have time to catch up on the ungodly amount of pages I missed. I am like, running on crazy right now. :mellow:
WARNING: DOWNER POST. Sorry. :sorry:
I had a freakin' rough night and...day? I had to finish a powerpoint for my online course on textiles (which was only 3 weeks long in total...why I thought it would be a good idea to fit 1 semester of work into 3 weeks I will never know) so I was up until about 3 this morning doing that.
I was so wired on coffee and stressed I couldn't fall asleep so I tried to watch some Michaely goodness to calm myself down a little which ended up backfiring somehow and I was up until 6:30 crying and just feeling...the lowest I've felt for a while now. Sitting up in bed all night I felt like a child... I kept thinking about how much I wanted to just hold onto him somehow and just cry on his shoulder and have him tell me he's OK. :depressed: I know that will never happen but it just feels even worse that there isn't
anyone I can do that with. I can usually tell my mom anything but with this...she wouldn't understand. When the memorial was on went to another room so I could cry and she wouldn't think I was being "overemotional." I'm not usually someone who shares these kinds of things with other people but I just hate feeling like I'm thinking all this stuff alone.
I feel completely drained. :teary_eyed:
I don't know what I would do without having this little safe place with all of you. :huggy:
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Oh! Oh!
I have a new hot-ass signature! :wub: Isn't it looovely?